What the heck has happened to Xanga?  Is it just not cool anymore?  Man where have I been?

I think Ill give a quick update anyhow.

As for the life of Ashley Brown right now...its kinda better...

I have a wonderful boyfriend of 5 months now.  For the first time since my mom died......it feels like home.....HE feels like home.  Its a nice feeling...

I decided that a change was way past due in my life.  So I made myself change quite a few things...I decided that I needed to get away from my dads house.....like....fast...so I did..I decided that the longer I stayed there, the further and further I was going to fall....So I got the heck out...

I moved again.  I now am living with my grandma again in Mansfield. 

Im working at Wal-Mart right off of 13....I hate it...bad...

Someone from the church donated a van for me.  So now I drive a big white pimpin Aerostar....Thats right...Im a pimp...

Im doing alright now....I could be better...but Im dealing with it....

Nice checking in...

Im out

Ash

Im back to only one job...and i like it that way.....soon i will get a part time job to accompany my job at the city!!  Im like....DANG!!  I couldnt do it....2 full time jobs isnt the way to go for A. Brown...I almost died....

GREAT NEWS!!!

Dad is going to finish paying for my mom's headstone so it doesnt get taken out of the ground.....It was the step mothers idea which was totally unexpected but HEY--im not going to hold them back!!!  

Here is my decision for the day.....

I dont care what anyone says....Im moving....Im getting an apartment...and Im going to live there.....Im stable enough right now to do that....So Im going to do it....I dont know where...But hopefully by mid june.......ill be out....and I cant freaking wait......Im sick of being watched like a hawk....and....if Im going to have to pay bills, then im going to do it on my own...my own bills....thats that......final....I think dad will help me with whatever i need right now....SO....Im set on this...and there is no talking me out of it....sorry to whoever doesnt think its a good idea....but im sooo freaking ready.....Im looking pretty much everywhere so let me know if you see anything.....

I miss certain people a whole lot lately.....Alex.........Tyler.......Chris......A. Glenn.......the usuals.....

THE BANKS'.......I cant wait until they freaking come home!!!   Freaking YES!!!

I lost a few pounds...nothing drastic...and nothing really noticable...but.....Im okay with what it is........Heck yes I am.....Itll keep coming off too...and I cant wait!!

Im out

Ash