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| "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me an come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile."
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
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| I would never have imagined 3 weeks to go by in "a
blink of an eye". I remember, after the first Monday, I said, "so, this
is the first day." The days were long, the house was hot, the food was
nasty; life was not pleasant for me. It was prison. I always laid
around doing nothing but daydream. I wasted a lot of time boring myself
out which I could have finish my summer hw. God always have a purpose
for everything; maybe this time, he was testing on my patient. My
patient could be controlled quite well, but why?
Today night, my mom and sister is coming back to
America. Right now, one word is running through my head--already! Have
3 weeks already gone by? Was
yesterday the last day to make dinner? I feel so used to them
being gone, that I'm afraid that it'll feel akward. =p
Through these 3 weeks, I felt cared for even though
I was in prison. As a heavenly father, God provided me with fun times.
These fun times seems like they were just dreams; that with my memory,
be forgotten. These 3 weeks don't seem to fit in my life. ?=p It
seems like I just took a long sleep and dreamed of a prison life.
He also looked after me with the nights alone with my brother. He
protected me against robbers/rapist (monsters, ghosts, demons, X_x) .
God also gave me sufficient amount of food; I did not run out of food
(except junk food =p).
A new perspective was viewed within me. The
perspective that I shrugged off before. I remember in 4th qrt. I wanted
the 2 weeks of AP testing to be over, league to be over, and section to
be over. But at the same time, I wanted John's Inc. banquet to
approach, swear jar tournament to approach, and may 30th to approach.
Through these waits, hopes, and breaths, all of these finally came and
went. Time is constant. Of course, but what I truly learned was accepting
that life still goes on if I wanedt to slower/fast foreward time--just
think of something else, then what you wish for to not come or to
approach will serve you.
I've waited patiently and I feel more mature now
with the responsibilities my mom have given me. I don't like time; I
don't like watches nor clocks. They're for adults. I don't like setted
time--waking at 9, lunch at 12, dinner at 7 ish. I like to switch times
around. =p
Wee! They're going to be home in an hour or so. Ai ya I'm losing my patients. haha =D
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| Summer has finally arrived! I've been waiting for this break since last
summer break (07)! The last few weeks of school were quite busy, but
2nd sem. sure flew fast. It's always when you look back that you can
say time flew fast, but when you look foreward, time fly so slow. When
is high school going to be over?!
Badminton: I have no comment on
how I did this season overall. All I can say is that it was fun!
Although I lost my first match as a varstiy, I came to feel more
supportive by my teammates. However, my biggest failure is I didn't
place 1st in League. I've disappointed my team (whoever was watching)
and most importantly, I disappointed coach(s). I felt like a complete
failure after the lose but from the lesson I learned during my freshman
year, I stayed calm so that others can celebrate their joyfulness.
During the first 3 days of practice after league, I felt an
uneasy feeling to face coach. (did she think that I didn't try? did she
think all those practices with me were done in vain? It's all my fault
that the rest of the 3 girls have to run a lot, b/c I wasn't
conditioned enough.) Besides the first 3 days, the whole 2 week were
hard to play badminton; they were the weeks of AP testing. But not only
were they AP weeks, I did not feel the motivation anymore. Every one
(except Trina, Rose, Tina) was done, why wasn't I? I want to stay
home and see the sunlight dim out from my window. I want to study more
for my AP tests--in the long term, if I do well, the credits can be
beneficial to me during college. After Section, the 08 season was over
for me. I came closer to the varsitly girls and I had a blast of fun
smiling, laughing, being entertained, and most importantly, keeping our
chapionship title!
Davis Tournament (April 26-27): The most memorable time during these
two days were talking/laughing/and drinking boba with Tina and Shelly,
playing mix with Tony, and winning constalation. I've came to know TIna
and Shelly more. I thought school was stressful, but playing with mix
was equally stressful/pressured. Am I that afraid of the birdie? Next
year, my goal is to conquer my birdie-phobia. My hope in the Davis
touranment was to at least win 1 game, but I received more than what I
hoped for. A purple trophy ^_^
League (May 2?): I had a horrible sore throat since 2 days from this
day. Breathing and calling out the scores were so difficult. This day
was just a failure day. I've disappointed coach from the first game of
not being agressive to losing at the end. But after League, playing
Rock Band cheered me up--crazy filipinos!
Sections (May 16-17): My hope was make it to Saturday and I did! I
received more than I hoped for--a mini plaque and my revenge. =p
I had a lot of fun with the girls--laughing to choosing ice cream in
safeway. After each day, I was extrememly tired; I don't know if it's
b/c of the heat or was it just me hanldling the match. I just hope that
next year, section will be two days again. =p
Now that badminton has officially ended for me this year, I miss it
now. haha. Again, it's when you look back that you miss something. I
guess from all these badminton writtings, badm played a big role in my
2nd semof Junior year .I want to write more--everything still seems
very vivid: running 15 laps, doing painful lounges, warming up with
Tony, to returning the racket back to coach.
School: School seems like a
burr right now. I forgot what happened. I just rememebered teachers
craming all the materials for the AP test and then after the AP tests,
I slacked off. I wrote a 3 page essay in one night, another 5 pg essay
another night and some other project some other night. Junior year is
offically over for Ivy.
Farewell Concert (June 9): I
thought the whole performace was pretty successful. Everything was done
on time and we had many BC students/alumis. I was very suprised when
Kathy and Minh Chau went on stage and gave Trina, Michell, and me
flowers. I know that I did a lot of funny mistakes, but I can't wait to
see the performance.
Home (present): so after the
concert, my mom and Trina left U.S. for H.K. I don't know, but I don't
like to write the present on public weblogs. All I can say is that,
it's not fun. They'll be back exactly next week!
I rememeber after the concert, I was extremely exhaused, but I couldn't
sleep. The thought of being alone with Aaron and my dad for 3 weeks
kind of scared me. But look at now, 2 weeks had already passed. Just
one more week, that should be easy, right?
When I was little, I've always wanted to bake with my grandma like the
ones shown on tv or in books. But we'd only made chinese "tong yuen"
together, which was like a decade ago. Tomorrow, my grandma is coming
over and is going to teach me one of my favorite chinese sponge cake!!
yay (I hope)!!
I think I've been wrtting this weblog for over an hour now. It started
out long, and now you see, it's getting shorter and shorter. I murdered
3 big spiders during this one sitting typing this log--they're so
disgusting!! I feel most calm at nigh these past few days, and then
these disgusting spiders are appearing right in front of my eyes! X_x
"Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and
only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let
other people spend it for you."
-- Carl Sandburg
Don't waste your summer time! But enjoy it!
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| Oh how I just love Spring Break; any type of break feels great! The
last four weeks of third qrt had been extremely stressful--especially
the 10th week of school with the daylight saving time. Third qrt
started out pretty relaxful. Nothing important was actually going on
besides the normal homework and test I get from my classes but then...
Camp Ryla Feb 15-18.-- I
went to a campsite that is very close to yosemite and there was still
snow up there. I guess it was fun and the food was fantastic. Yum!
However, there were no free time. I did learn not to be afraid to speak
out and to take a stand to be a leader. =] So right after camp,
it was hw, hw, hw.
Hives Feb 29-Mar 3 --OMG, I hate them. It lasted for like 4 days and crawled all over my body--from my face down to my toes. One word, horrible. I got them the day before the Science Olympiad competition. =[
Science Olympiad Mar. 1--
I guess it was ok. I completely failed on one event because the pipes
for my instrument were all wrong. I bothered my dad so much on going to
the store and getting all these pipes. I felt so sorry for my
partner--although we both didn't do so well. And for my other events, I
placed b/c I had good partners.=] I finally got a chance to run up and
down the stairs with the ching ching ching sounds. ^_^
Boo boo Mar 3--
So right after the hives on Monday, I injured my ankle from badminton
practice. I couldn't walk or place my foot down that night and the
following day (48 hrs); I couldn't go to school the next day. So
basically, I was hopping and crawling around the house. I felt
very akward because I didnt' feel ill and I'm missing school. So on
Wednesday, I came back to school with crutches =[
=[ I arrived late to almost all my classes. The next week, I tried to
walk with out crutches to school and I ended up walking the slowest of
the slow. You know when you're walking behind slow walkers, you just
want to hit behind their heads.
I felt extremely down when I injured it. I ponder the question of why?
Why now? Why during badminton season? Why during this time when all the
teachers are giving tests and quizzes? Why me? why? Therefore,
I said to myself "Let me be optomistic and say it's God's way of
telling me to rest." I stayed home and did not go to practice for the
first week. It gave more time to do homework and it also slowed down
time for me. With many things going on, I completely forgot what
was going around me besides what I have to do in front. I was also so
busy that I felt so lonely. I felt that no one cared about me, I
totally forgot all about God. But after the injury, I found out that a
hand full of people cared about me. They
asked me what happened, how I was, helped me around (carry my
books) and even purposely walked me to class. Oh how I felt so loved!
And I also came to a realization that I was never alone; God had been
right next to me all along, but I was just too busy to even look to my
left or right. I guess this injury was a great pivitol point in my life
and I sure learned a lot about it. I was going to the wrong path and
God corrected my mistake. I had the time to actually do some
refelction on myself and my life in the past few weeks. I missed
badminton practice so much that I came to love Badminton even
more; badminton will always be my sport. I will never take my ankle for
granted b/c what God give me is always essential and is always perfect.
The ability to walk is so great! Believe me!
Right now: I don't need crutches anymore, I only wear a brace when I
play badminton, there are certain angles that can still cause pain in
my ankle and I can tireout my ankle. haha I think it was just a very
very bad sprain. Hope it is/was.
International Rally Mar 7-- The
Friday of my injury was the interantional rally. I was in the JCKC
dance and had been practicing since like Nov./ Dec. And I couldn't
perform, so basically I spend $5 for the club fee, $20 for the dress,
and $3 for the fans and couldn't perfom. And were all those practices
done in vain? ()_()
Headstart NHS Mar 19-21--
Yes, I only have 3 hours left to go. I went during break and did
20 hours + the 2 hrs I did earlier. The little kids are so adorable, so
fun, so stressfree. I want to be a kid again! That took a lot of time
out of my break, now I must must do my homework!
Newark Tournament Mar. 22-- Fun
Fun Fun! Although I only won one game in double, overall it was fun
with the people I went with. A lot of Chinese people. A lot of Chinese
stores. haha. Felt so comfortable, not like Stockton.
(2008 players + Coach)
Fourth qrt-- Badminton, AP exams, ahh, hope it gets easier? *cross my fingers!
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| December 23, 2007--two more days till Christmas! These past two weeks
were so tight. Time was so limited. Sleep was so valuable. Christmas
spirit? I don't know, I don't feel very spirited. I tried to get
spirited by putting christmas lights in my house, but I guess that
didn't work. Two more days for me to get spirited....I really don't
want my favorite Holiday to be a holiday I would run away from. This winter
break is going to busy busy busy!! Clean, Clean, homework, homework,
study, study, scholarship, scholarship- Do Not Procrastinate!!!! I
finally understand what last minute Christmas shopping is! No me gusta.
There's too many people. I don't think I have ever experienced it
before. I always find time during final week--but I guess not this
year.
I have a xanga, myspace, and a facebook, but it's funny..I see myspace
and facebook as a waste of time..poke poke, top 8. Those are a great
way to communicate and to reach out to friends, but it seems much
different than xanga. I view xanga as a site to see how close friends
are doing. I'm not criticizing both sites, or else I would be a hypocrite, right?
=p
One more day to think of what to get to my family. (x.x) hmm...
[21:51] : you're like a living,
[21:51] : breathing,
[21:51] : walking,
[21:51] : fortune cookie.
lol
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