To my friends,

From that greeting you may probably have surmised that this is indeed my last entry, as it only pains me to use xanga, for reasons that need not be mentioned.  Regardless, i feel the need for one last cathartic entry (which i don't think i've done more than once anyway) before i leave. 

For the first time in almost two years I am stress free.  I don't mean like 99% stress free, I mean that for the first time in a LONG time i am, at the very instant i am writing this, 100% happy.  My life is starting to finally fall into place in a direction that i am starting to be happy with.  I have started myself on a path that will lead me to my goals (or at least i will have given it a damn good effort).  I am currently enmeshed in research and school work, and while it is very time consuming, it is comprised of things that i WANT to do, or at the very least don't mind doing. 

I have learned much about myself over the past year, and i believe that where i stand now, i am a better person than where i was one year ago.  This may sound silly, but i have come to several important realizations over the past few weeks that have changed my outlook towards many things, and i believe to be better off with this knowledge.   

I feel it necessary to express my gratitude to several of you (names unnecessary) who helped me through a hard time in my life.  Some of you may not even know you have done so, for it could have been a simple side comment or smile that for some reason or another, struck a chord with my soul.  I am in your debt.  The strange part is, a year ago some of those that i now speak of i would not have called friend, but today you are indeed that, and my loyalty is a hard thing to be undone. 

I think i am nearing an end.  I will most likely not return to any xanga affiliated site; or if i do, it will be many moons before i do so.  Hence, comments on this will probably go unseen, but if you wish to talk to me, for those of you without my contact info:

AIM: Slacker1869

Phone: 619 987 4256

Peace be with you. 

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You know what, i just wrote about a 1 page entry on all the problems i have goin on right now, and just erased it.  you know why?  too many people use these things to complain and its like their seeking sympathy or something... i dunno.  I'd much rather have empathy, and i dont need to make people for sorry for me to get that, we all have problems, we can all relate.  anyway so i decided to post just the good sides of my problems

1. Going home this weekend when i got midterms on monday.  GOOD SIDE: Watching Superbowl with my dad, and getting my ass kicked in NFL fever by said person.

2. Looking into playing the guitar again.  GOOD SIDE: itll give me something besides caring for bonsais to do as a hobby while i live in this bubble I MEAN irvine ^^. (<---- notice the japanese smiley face? thats cuz i play a video game with too many japanese players and i have to use their smiley faces)

3.  Studying psych and trying to do premed GOOD SIDE: much more balanced education and a real challenge to see if i can pull it off.  i tend to do better when i have more piled on my shoulders than if i get time to relax. 

4.  Midterm tomorrow and im typing this.  GOOD SIDE: hmmm heh i dont see the good side.  OH! got it.  im organizing my thoughts to help me realize whats important and whats not right now.  

finally i just have to make one comment and im too lazy to go back to his page, but Axeman10k, aka Alex the uber fiend made a new post about getting a new truck.  Well congrats man, im super jealous that rox, just one thing.... you cant post a pic of a truck, and say "it looks like this, cept its a different model and a different color" i just thought that was hilarious.  dunno if that was intended or not, but thats like sayin Oh i bought an orange today, except its yellow and its actually a banana. = ) hahaha.  im amusing myself. 

ok im done! take care all, the take home point of this post is that if u got a lot goin on, i feel for ya, just try to keep ur head above the water, and if you have to, just work your ass off until the last final of spring quarter, then just do nothing this summer.  if u can.  i dont want to see anyone else have to leave UCI due to wasted potential.  it makes me "les sad"  =*(.

have a good nite, im goin home so i'll see ya on monday, assuming OChem doesnt ahve its way with me like it did on the final last quarter  = ).  GNITE! 

Well Well Well, long time no see.  I really just wanted to let you all in on a secret, actually  i just wanted to brag.

WHO BEAT Super Mario: Superstar Saga?!!! ME. THAT'S RIGHT PEOPLE. ME.  YOU KNOW YOU'RE JEALOUS...

Alright. back to homework... or am I?  maybe im lying and im going to do something else? O.o.  Guess you'll never know.  I'm sneaky like that. 

P.S. the battery on my laptop is getting low = ( that means i have to get up soon *sigh*.  DONT CALL ME LAZY! YOURE LAZY! SHUT UP. YOU DONT KNOW ME!

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