ok. so i havnt signed on here in like a year. i miss xanga. it was quite the shit. so yeah. i know ur prolly not reading this, but idfc that much. so yeah. here's some LONG awaited quotes, for any of you out there. It was time to go home, to go home without each other. I said I love you, he said the same. I said, "Call me when you miss me." He smiled & kissed me. I walked towards my car, & my phone rang.
As we sat there on the school bench laughing & joking & it was that moment when I realized, this is it; this is the last time we`ll ever be together sitting in our group of friends but I knew even though we wouldn`t be together in person, we`d always be together at heart, that`s what real friendship is.
I live for the boy with the beautiful eyes. I live for the boy with the messy hair & goofy smile. The boy that I haven`t seen in six months, but still feel as strongly for him as I did this time last year. I live for the boy I can`t have, the one that rips my heart open over & over again. The boy that has had a hold on my whole world. The boy who has become the sun to my earth ever since the first conversation we had. The boy that finds comfort in the arms of someone else. I live for this one boy, this one person. I live for you.
In a few years, I'll be off to college. High school will finally be over. I won`t get to see him everyday like I used to. My best friends & I will go our separate ways; we`ll be lucky if two of us stay in touch. Nothing will be the same, instead everything will be new. I won`t have a house to come home to everyday. No siblings to scream at. Just alone, in a dorm, far away from home. The people I`ve loved for the longest of times will be another memory added to my photo album.
First we became friends..then we became closer.
i was soo glad we became closer, it felt like nothing
could come between us..until you started cheating &
lying ; we started to become distant. since that day you
broke my heart, i've acted like i'm okay. but every night
i go home & cry myself to sleep & wish that one
day, you will be mine again. i will always love you even when
you hurt me real deep that words can't explain I feel sorry for you. there was a girl that
would have done anything for you...she might
not be the prettiest or the smartest but...I can
guarantee you...she would have given you the world ……………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………Somewhere b e t w e e n the procrastination, the homework, the friendships, and the nasty cafeteria food, the calls to old friends . . . the I miss yous . . .And the I LOVE yous . . . And the What are we doing tonights? . . . somewhere b e t w e e n all of the changing and growing And the skipping classes, the studying for tests, And the pretending to be studying for tests, And the downright not studying for tests, I forgot . . . I forgot what it meant to cry . . . I forgot that pretending to be happy doesnt make you happy . . . I f o r g o t that pretending to be smart doesnt make you smart . . . And that pretending to be ok doesnt make you ok . . . I forgot that you cant just forget the past in fear of the future . . . I forgot that you cant control falling in love . . . And that you cant make yourself fall in love . . . I learned . . . I learned that I can love . . . I learned that its ok to mess up . . . And its ok to ask for help . . . And its ok to feel like crap . . . I learned its ok to complain and whine to all your friends for a whole day . . . That somehow they'll make it all better . . . I learned that sometimes the things you want most you just cant have . . . I learned that the greatest thing about high school isn't going to be who is the most popular or going to be the parties . . . Or the drinking. . . not even the hook-ups . . . Its the friendships, which means taking chances . . . I learned that sometimes the things we forgive and forget are the things which we most need to TALK out . . . I learned that letters from friends are the most important thing . . . And that sending cards to your friends makes you feel better . . . But, basically, I just learned that my friends, Both old and new, Are the most important people to me in the world . . I feel like I've tried for so long to be happy, & the more I try, the more that goal slips from my reach. It's almost like quicksand where the more you struggle, the more submerged you become. I've given up on everything. Nothing matters to me anymore. Especially myself. The part of my life that matters least to me is myself. cus I'm no one..& I always have been The boy woke up - Just 14 years old. He brushed his teeth just like he'd been told. He rushed to the door & grabbed his books. around & around he then looks. From the second he reaches the bus .. the names start to be called. They made fun of his clothes & the book-bag he hauled. The boy never really fit in school. Being smart just didn't make you cool. I remember one day i saw him drenched in mustard. Kids were throwing pizza & the
school custard. Then one girl poured milk over his head. He walked to the office wishing to be dead. & the girl he liked had no heart at all. He gave her a flower & told her to call. She took the flower & threw it in the trash can.& told him she'd never date such an ugly bag. So that night he said goodnight to his mother. Kissed his dad & tucked in his little brother. He put on his shoes & walked through the night. Until his middle school crep into sight. So he took
a step down & he fell. He hung there right in front of his own hell. Im just a fucked up girl
living in a fucked up life
in a fucked up world
with a fuckin knife
welcome to my world
where being me is never enough wow. okay. so i was crazy emo half the time, and ready to kill myself. i'm better now. but that's the quotes i have. love you guys sry if the aligning's messed up :( | 
