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Mood: Decent

Well, this morning hasn't started out that bad.  Had to take Abby's dad to work, no big deal, got free Honey Buns and Tea out of it.  I love his warehouse.  Abby almost threw up, so I hope she feel better.

Ok, well, I suppose that's my update for today.  Might post more tonight if I get time.  Probably going to be with Abby all night, until like 11, so I don't know when I'll be home to post.

Going to go take a nap next period.  So, Good night everyone.

-Russ-

Mood: Content

Well, I want to thank you Nhan and Zu for being here for me.  I'm always here for you if you ever need it.  I believe you two are like the only ones who know what I have been through and basically what lies ahead.  Hopefully, regardless of what happens, you will still have my back.  Never know when I'll need it, hope your there.

Thank you guys.  Friends like you make me want to just be ok with everyone... then two people come to mind.  You know who, and you both realize why I can't be ok with everyone.  Hopefully those two move away...

Love to all,
-Russ-

Ok, hopefully this post will get around to everyone who needs to know about it.  Steph, you are a great person, I'm sorry that things turned to shit for you, althought I don't think that is your fault.  Ed, Greg, Nhan, Bobby, please, drop all of it.  For once, she is trying to make herself happy, trying to be with someone and not be hurt, but no one is listening to her.  No one is giving her a chance, yet alone, help her.  Just please, let her try and be happy, don't give her shit.  She has been through enough.  She wants everything to be right, she doesn't want anyone to be hurt.  Ed, I know your hurt, I know how you feel, believe me, I know it sucks.  Greg, stop letting everything get you down.  Cheer up, things will become better.  Nhan, apparently you and her are ok, hope it stays that way.  Bobby, its not your fault that you couldn't help, its not her fault you couldn't help... things just happen.

Sorry to post this, but I am tired of everything being shit, I am tired of all my friends being mad at each other.  Why does it even matter, life goes on.... there is someone out there for everyone, please, just try and let things just happen... what is the point of being mad? Where is it going to get you? 

Trust me, I know what I am talking about, we all know what I went through, with that fucking bastard who I believe should die (jake).  I love you all, in a non-gay like way.  Your all my friends, and you all, at one point, where friends.  Please, lets have the old times back... things can only get better when you start to let things go.  Hopefully, I don't start getting shit for this, otherwise I am going to have some problems... and everyone knows how I deal with my problems.......

-Russ-

My love for you could never make me ashamed,
It can only fill the seas of emotions imbedded in me.
The more I say it, the more I mean it,
Then the more I can not stop saying it and the more I revel in it.

My love for you has taken over me,
The very reason why I breathe and wake up every morning is to experience the unimaginable sense of relief of knowing whom my true love is.

There is no action I take, no word I speak, and no music note I play that hasn’t come from some inspiration of who you are and some hope that one day you and I would be walking hand and hand, dancing cheek to cheek, and living day to day side by side.

My love for you could never make me hide from my true feelings, my true thoughts, and my true self, not some fraud,
But a man who’s years of searching is finally over.
A man who doesn’t need to dream the dreams he once longed for, who doesn’t need the quick satisfactions, and all the answers,
Because I now have another reason for walking forward other than myself.

My love for you could never make me stop doing just that………                  

Loving you.

Thought this poem could come back for awhile.  I'm going to enter this one into Pandora's Box.  Anyone think it has a chance of making it in?  Well, gotta run.

Love to all, especially Tora.  Love you all to death.

-Russ-