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Name: Mimi
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 11/4/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Being content with life...
Expertise: Sleeping, Dancing, Drinking, and Keeping a conversation going...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/9/2003
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| FISHIES!!! EVERYWHERE!!! So to those that DO know what I mean or can assume where I'm heading with this. Basically there are fishes everywhere, a school of fishes infact. Caught them with a bucket and I was happy I've accomplished something. Than when I go to look at my dyam bucket, they're all half dead, tiny, and YUCKY!!! Wanted a salmon, NOT askin for much... just ONE salmon but ended up w/ a bucket of sardines... EWwW... Oh well, life has been great... TIRED but great. I'M REALLY trying to cut down on going out. My goal of retiring never worked so I'll rephrase my new years goal "CUT-DOWN" on going out =) NEW YEARS SUCKED, No worries... 1 day outta the year or how the year began don't count to me at all. I'ma make up the start of the year and end it w/ a BANG!!! ^_^ This year should be fun... | | |
| Been A While... Since I actually sat and wrote anything on here. Know what THAT means?! My ass hasn't been sittin at home thinkin too much about useless things, depressed, overly excited, angry or bored... Obviously I'm writing right now so it means I'm one of the things I've listed above. I'M BORED!!! Work sucks ass... So to update... life is GREAT right now. There are ups and downs on a daily basis but more ups than downs. Most of the downs are from having a hangover day after day. Can't tell whether it's from the alcohol consumed previous nights or the night of...but HECK, the hangovers never went away! Last week I actually worked only Monday and went out everyday till the weeeeeeee hours when the sun came up and woke up when the sun went down. Felt like some nocturnal creature for that week... Thought it would last this week that I wasn't going to drink till the end of this week. Was able to do it Sunday & Monday. Than came Tuesday and of course the phone call came and I drank a BIT and had self control and went home at 11 to go to work early. That worked pretty well...than came last night, Wednesday... There goes my phone again and guess what, out I go again w/ my PIC (Partner in crime). Told myself I wasn't gonna drink, than ended up drinkin. And when I drink, I'm down for whatevers so after our drinkin/dancing/mingling w/ our peeps we headed out to another drinkin spot till about 3. After the ppl there pissed us off, we went to another spot to chill w/ some hommies. Looked at the clock and it said 5:30 so we left, got home at 6 slept and woke up at 8 and made it to work...WHAT NOW?!? I am SO responsible! HA! Now my ass is sittin here bored w/ only 2hours of sleep keeping me alive. I'm dreading tonight but for some reason I know I won't be able to resist cuz I love to go out!!! So YES I've realized, I've been drinkin a lot. Maybe along the lines of too much. Who should I blame? Myself right? I guess...Not being able to say no to go out, giving in after the hommies take a few shots and I stand there to watch. MAN I feel like an alkie. All I know is I LOVE TO HAVE FUN... and sittin at home or work is DEFINITLY NOT FUN! | | |
| "Only Fools Rush In" People think, I've always had a boyfriend and this time it won't change...that perhaps I might rush into a relationship. Why is that? Well to be honest, I've met some cool kats n some lame ones... more lame than cool hahaha =X BUT no matter how cool I think they are, they can do the smallest thing to tick me off and I end up going to chill w/ my girls and a different school of fishes. I guess this is my way of keeping my mind off of ppl that do something to offend me. I easily get frustrated and refuse to sit my butt at home for a minute to think about it... There were times where I thought, this person is soo cool... And start getting attached. Thats when I say to myself..."STOP IT!" hahaha Swimming around in an ocean full of fishes when I'm not looking for any. I'm just trying to swim and relax, not go fishing for any fishes! But they're everywhere, you just can't avoid them. But when I my hook gets tangled with their lines, makes me think...Dyam, I'm swimming in the wrong part of the ocean! OK I'm going off in a retarded/metephor tangent. Digressing a little from my lack of sleep this whole week. Anyways, I'm tired of the cat & mouse games... I'm focused on living my life freely and have fun. If anything happens it happens, if not... I don't expect anything out of my life or from anyone except.. Don't lie to me regardless big or small..I hate liars, I see no reason on why someone needs to lie about ANYTHING at all. Other than that, I'm pretty content with my life even though I get frustrated here and there. I'm a girl, what do you expect? All I know is I'm not gonna be a fool and rush into anything. Nor will I expect anything from anyone. Expectations I believe lead you to dissapointment. The faster you fall the harder it hurts. I'm actually gonna go with the flow of life this time. Not gonna fight being single but I won't give in as easily either. New page in my life and I'm excited to see what ups and downs may come =]
Time for an update: Not going out for a day gave me a lot of time to think. Think about how much I pretend to be happy. A couple people pointed out to me in my moment of moodyness... "You're a party animal..what are you doing home" "Why do you seem upset, what/who could do that to ya" "I'm sure you can call up people and go out anytime" BLAH BLAH BLAH, all about going out. Yea, thats my get away...but now my get away is what I want to get away from. What do I do? I don't know... =/ Nothing has been going well lately... I need to stop all this drinking, who am I competing? I need to sleep more, why am I staying up so late for? I dont know... IS IT WORTH IT? I realized, NO... Not a bit...Now I'm stuck sittin here awake trying to sleep and I'm so used to that bad schedule of sleep I've adjusted to. Thinking WAY TO MUCH. I JUST DON'T KNOW ANYMORE, I WISH PEOPLE CAN BE STRAIGHT FORWARD... I guess that comes off to some people as being to aggressive... *shrugs* | | |
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