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Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 12:11:03 GMT

::blah:: lost track of time its really 3-22-06 but i havent gone to bed so to me it's still 3-21-06So yeah today my hunz and I

went to chinatown.

We ate at the Thai Son a vietnamese restaurant

after a really good meal of Pho soupwe walked towards the ELISABETH ANIME UNDERGROUND MALL!!!(ok its not really a mall but it is underrgound and anime and manga's everywhere) its a bunch of little shops all of anime and video games!!I LOVE THAT PLACE SO MUCH!!and guess what we saw!!!!!!!!!the outfit of cloud from final fantasy!!!!wtf O-o oooooh so happy I know he really wants it so I'll probably get it for him first

and after going there we walked around so more....and went to get some bubble tea!!!hmmmmmm I <3 a strawberry one hehe i like the tapioca!

after getting our bubble tea we headed towards the train and back to the bx....oh yeah on our way over to China townsome two stupid girls where looking at me I don't mind but the way they did it pissed me off!one looks talks to her friend her friend looks then they start laughig and talking among themselves and they looked again as I sat down obviousely I got mad and got up and said "yo wtf this bitch looking at me!"and my bf lookes at me and said "yo calm the fuck off!" that pissed me off even more "then he was like your on some shit""you got mad casue they looking at you so I said no is just the way they did "so i just got mad took out my phone and stared playing tetris.....God my hun is really sweet sometimes but we really dont have much in common only probably our height which is 5' =) we are so tiny!! heheand besides the fact that we both love to dance and go out to parties BUT we dont listen to the same music he calls anything I listen to "static" =/...ehhe said they all sound alike to him industrial and trance sound alike ...blahhe said metal and hardcore sound the same which is not true he said the vocals sound like frogs mating lmfao wtf?! hehe god he is so weird...we like anime....I'm in martial arts...he likes watching those types of movies which are really good I dont mind reading subtitles thoe......even thoe I am getting better at understanding his language Tagalog =) and im trying my best to speak it =D.....oh yeah we watch the movie "Fighter in the Wind" today (3-21-06)

and lastnight (3-20-06) we watch "Shunobi"such a really really good movie!

I highly recomend these two!so yeah I guess that's all for now....oh yeah I'll put up pix of me on st.patrics day (wow crazy day)

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 01:08:02 GMT

FUCK!!!

so yeah Im not single anymore....sorry guys! hehe

He's asian my height cute cool and sweet ...blah blah blah blah fawk anyways so yeah im sitll in night school fawk anyways so yeah blood sex liquor and drugs no love is how angie taught me how to live and you know what its not bad its better then falling in love and getting fucking hurt purposely aside to self mutilation but yeah this is life eh! fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you you know who ...so i was ltalking to LIZ and she said x gf should die that there evil and i agreed then i hesintated wtf we all are x's which is fawking gay agh EVERYTHING IS OK UNTILL YOU FIND OUT ABOUT AN X! !!!!!!!!!!1111 SEX SEX SEX SEX SEX and that it ! or is it is it better to just have casual sex? hmm or sex+feelings=love!!!!!!!hell no ......................i need advise im not looking to fallin love.........how many guys does it take to make me a slut? huh answer this please!!!!!!!!!no seriousley answer it casue i dont understand!!!!!!!! i mean i been with some but he dont know how many would he loose respect or whatever he has for me once he finds out would he think im a slut!? huh fuck i wish i was a virgin!

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 21:39:13 GMT

So how all you fucker been?
huh huh lol man im so sick right now ear infection blah blah im really sick
i been here same old same old school family vampire family and yeah you
know how it is blah so yeah ::sigh::

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 12:45:04 GMT

hey all whats up?! how everyone been ?! im back!! how are my friends doing my favorite ppl ? whispers , mystress , trellix mister grimm!? Im still not back with Joshua I still love him always ill never find anyone like him ....god im not going to lie I did feel insane but the taught that there is more hott ass cute ppl out there Guys AND Girls yeah Im bi and if you dislike me cause of this then you were never my friend...but anyways yeah there is alot of cute sexxes i can get with but thats not enough i mean yeah they all got jobs and stuff but no one is him !!! will any one hold me lie he did will anyone love me like he did ?! but oh well there will always be a space for him in my heart ...always and if he ever wants to show me something my eyes are open if he ever wants to tell me something my ears are open...if he wants someone to hold him my arms are ipen and if he ever wants to be loved and wants something real my heart is open ..........the sad thing is that i was the cause ....i didnt cheat ....I didnt trust him..i was so insecure...i was very possesive controlling 24/7 I didnt let him breath.......IM SO SORRY MY SWEETNIGHTMARE!!!!! but oh well....life goes on with or without him ...and if out lifes ever meet again ..I ll treat him like the blue prince he is .......i have met new ppl a vampyre family i love them all they madd cool oh oh well enough sais so later fuckers!!

wow miss you all IM me at SicMindChild

or check out myspace

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yeah ok loves h ope to here from you soon!!

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 23:32:35 GMT

well me and joshua broke up i hurt so much .....we broke up like 3 months ago....im so sad okay enough said later fuckers

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Thu, 08 Sep 2005 10:47:35 GMT

hello fuckers ......how you been I am so sorry I have not updated but I havent had time hmm nothing new so later fuckers........

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 14:03:50 GMT

Damn been like 3 months ........anyways... yeah ....um ...Im still with Josh 9 MONTHS !!! so happy IM deeply in love ! he is my world ....although we have trouble likekregular couples ...but i dunno ....on april 12 i\around 12:16 my world ended he left me a message that toured up my heart ... he said things were not working out and he said he loved and we can continue to be friends and that in a future we can start again when im ready ..... but i left to his house adn talked and he tgold me th reasons and he also told me he asked a girl out to his prom ...ok but he could of done it after we broke up ARGH! but we working things out and so far so good I LOVE HIM..... uh yeah .... i have to go to summer school sux..... i want a job.... and yeah thats pretty much it . hmm ima try to get my laptop fix oh yeah i rarely cut now .............so yeah uh i thnk thats it for now ............Later Fuckers !

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 14:53:30 GMT

hey long time .....anyways yeah im still here right now im upgrading from my friends house while him and my boyfriend josh are playing a video game . i been really happy lately . i been dating six months going on to seven with this guy i really care for him he is so sweet i love him anyways i dont know what else to write so later fuckers.

Monday, November 08, 2004

Mon, 08 Nov 2004 20:25:13 GMT

hey humanity.............lets see what been happening...uh...I been going to class horray for me....uh I went to a party JOSHUA invited me to it wow ....there was like ten people there no liquor .......and I had like 3 other parties that night and I didn't go to them so I could go with JOSHUA to the other one..... oh well it didn't turn bad after all it was ok even though for some strange reason and you people that know me know Im drunk and always dancing at parties..but I didn't in this one .....wow ....thats weird.....hmm...uh ....oh yeah me and JOSHUA had our little after party at his roof ...wow!.....I so want to do him in the cementery.......I love him .....and when he makes love to me is the most beutiful thing ever....wow....I have so fallen for him.....lets see what else....uh oh yeah he is in a band I dunno the name though....but its with GARY and MATT......uh....yeah ....I dunno is that good or bad....cause I have a friend im not going to give names but she went out with some dude that was in a band ...and all he cared about was the band...he stared going out with them more often.....and stared drinking more....but he said he never cheated but it got to the point where he was really fucked ....he probably cheated on her....but oh well...I trust him .....alot....oh well .....there is nothing more to say .....I LOVE YOU JOSHUA!! later fuckers !

Friday, October 29, 2004

Fri, 29 Oct 2004 21:08:10 GMT

HI fuckers...........Im so happy well first of all Im gonna go see MANSON at Roseland ballroom on Nov.18 with my love JOSHUA I LOVE HIM..........although im a little sad cause me and my bestfriend VIRY are supposed to go to our first show together and our first show would me MANSON but she cant go . ........JOSHUA is so caring and is always there for me especially when Im feeling down he brings me up with a single smile......although I feel bad cause I made him cry a couple of times .........I didn't mean too......I didnt do anything ........He taught I didn't care when he told me he was mad.....I just said ok and didn't talk to him.....Then while I finish writting something he stood behind and I was watching t.v I felt him behind me I held his arm then he stared crying saying he was sorry that he isnt mad.......I felt like trash cause I made him feel llike that....but good thing everything is ok .......it hurts me to see him cry or hurt ......it makes me cry...I hope I dont do it .........I love the way he looks at me...the way he kisses me the way he made me his.......god can anything be more beutiful then this?......I feel weird when Im not around him......maybe cause I got used to him already ....I love his hair .......I love his scent .......god I love everything about him.........I love him .............I LOVE YOU JOSHUA!! .............Lets see what else been going on ........oh yeah I saw one of my bro.the other day BENJIE already 9:30 am and he was already fucked up .....lol.......damn and then the other day I got stoned wow I just realize I dont miss it all that much .......uh JENNYand AXEL broke up I think on wendsday ...uh im not sure if VIRY and GARY are still going out....uh.....I think thats all that been happening besides my happiness with JOSHUA............hmm oh yeah about time I talked to my friend DEMO....its been a while since we talked....but he is still cool though....hmmm what else um I think thats it ........oh well Later fuckers