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It’s been a long while since I’ve last written for the pure reason that I haven’t quite been level headed. Having to write about something that I no longer believe exists, or that finding its existence is too real and difficult to face. I am talking about love and how my whole life could sum up to wanting to understand love in all its components. Yes, this sounds like an idealistic fairytale. But more so, I just want to find answers to the reactions of love of all the people around me.

A year has passed since I have talked about Ayn Rand and her idea of waiting for a love that’s worthwhile. I still believe in that… But things happened throughout the past year that might have made me realized how much harder than it’s said in that short paragraph. (Please refer to the previous post.)

My grandma’s death, change of heart, my own internal battle to move on with the past, and understanding myself as a person… all happened too quickly. When you think you heart is broken, it all points to all the components of your being. Just when you thought you have reached a new level of understanding in life itself, this challenges you to carefully review all the details and actions once again. Life forces you to look carefully and face your own demons. Will talk more later, I promise.

Action and Reaction

Been awhile since I’ve written, so I think I will write something about real relationships in honor of my favorite couple’s anniversary.

I’ve never learned how to love or be in a relationship from my mum, she’s never had a stable relationship in her lifetime. As I was growing up, I thought that life is very unfair for all the men are so horrible to her. Then now I realized, for every action and thought you put in a relationship, there will be a reaction from the other person. It is not and never a one sided action. Relationships didn’t work out the way we wanted it to because most often we made it a one sided thing. You must be honest, truthful and truly accept the other person for who they are. If he/she is not what you are looking for, then maybe they are not the best match for you.  

I have seen plenty of failed marriages and relationships, from my mum, my friends and myself. Yes, I have lost hopes. Yes, I have been bitter and hurt. But there are always someone out there who really understand this whole ordeal and made the best out of it and making it all worth the while. My favorite couple showed me that it is possible. Not only did they believe in it themselves, they made me believe and allow me to continue to search for it.

 Love, that is.

Happy Anniversary and many more…

Bachelorettes

No, I am not talking about those whores in Sex and the City. Frankly, they are old, annoying and probably got STDs. On top of that, they made women 30 and up looked so desperate. Men all over the city can hear their biological clock ticking. Of course, men do what they do best, run, as fast as they could.

Bachelorette (ironically considered as a spelling mistake on Word), is defined in the dictionary as a young, unmarried women who lives alone. Yes, young we are. We are 20-something, smart, career oriented, independent individuals. Contrary to the generalization of women being financially handicap, or using men, while squeaking “equality” in the men’s world for the last century. We are a new generation group that has not been given much attention to, but this group is definitely growing. We are tired to be characterized as some stupid girls needing to just marry off, or that we hate men and secretly sexually frustrated.

We enjoy learning, getting a career, making money, falling in love, having our freedom and live, being sexually opened (and not whoring ourselves out), and could potentially tip the scale of the gender war. 

 

You decide.