I am cutting the strings to this site. I am breaking its heart I know.

Currently Listening Opheliac By Emilie Autumn see related

I'd like to thank those of you who attended the Vagina Monolouges. We raised over 12,000 dollars in donations, 2,000 from the ticket sales. It was an awsome experience for me and I hope you enjoyed it as well.

Today I worked out with Adam and his boy-posse. Yea, I actually lifted weights and stuff. It was very fun and I feel very relaxed now.

Also, I had a reeeaaaalllllyyyyy great time at Lina's house!!! Thank you Lina and Ryan for having me over and being the best of hosts. Next time Adam can stay longer and Ryan can have a playmate too. Lina, I loved cooking with you, watching anime and movies, learning to sew a circle skirt, talking and chatting, surfing the net and everything else. Next time I'll see about bringing my machine if you want so we can both sew at the same time and really get some stuff done. Or, how 'bout next time we do embroidery? ^__^ Yea!

My live-journal is in it's early form now. My username is nijikitten.

I'm back from Lina's (for now) I'm going to go back after the show tonight. I kinda feel bad for making Adam drive me there so late, but there is really no one else willing to take me. I'm going to go over to Megan's for a bit today before the show because I haven't seen her in forever and I really miss her! So there!

It's really strange talking with Lina, it's sweet bubbly strange because we've known eachother so long and our lives are shifting so jaggedly. There are times when things fall into place like serendipity and other times when you are wishing and longing for the next click to show you what to do next. I am very proud of her. I hope she is proud of me too. We have so much ahead of us and all the right drive to get there. The roads exist and are ready to pull us at the right time, our hearts have a full tank and the expectation of the expectation is thrilling. We can't possibly know what is going to happen, but there's this underlying feeling that it is all going to be grand.

And at this point where I am about to switch trains onto a new track, a new outlook on my future, and a new step into confidence, I need to make some changes.

First, I am thinking of switching to LiveJournal. None of my closest friends use xanga anymore or they never did. Most of them are on LJ. Plus, LJ seems to have a real community that I would like to experience. What do you think, should I go for it? No more xanga? I have been stuck on xanga for two years, and the same emotions come back to haunt me that I have been pouring into this journal. All my lonliness, unrequited love, heartache, low-esteem, need-to-forget, need-to-cry, need-to-die wailings have been poured and if I am going to change I can't be trodding on that same dirty, sludgy floor. Part one is renaming myself. Adam and I both agree that the name Oubliette is part of what's been keeping me locked away. So like in Neverending Story when the Empress is reborn by given a new name, I will be born again.

Currently Reading The Golden Compass (His Dark Materials, Book 1) By Philip Pullman see related

OK, xanga has become a once a week venture this semester... but alas I won't have time this weekend to write so I am spitting something out right now.

I got an A on my Math Test. I went to Lowe's with George and Victoria today to get paint supplies and stuff. Adam took me out to Red Lobster tonight as an early Valentine's night out, then we studied vigorously for our psych test tomarrow with the flash cards that took too long to make and will be obselete tomarrow. I am finally becoming thoroughly confused about what day of the week it is. No, really, everyday my mind is programmed to beleive it is the opposite day of the week. Today was Monday, believe me.

I have a Psych test tomarrow that I'll try not to worry about, and a Government Test Friday that I won't have time to study for. I am overdo on a gretting card order and every minute of my day is being filled up. I need a secretary pronto...

Lina, I hope my time at your apartment will be a oasis. I don't think I can handle any more mental processing for a while.

I know it's over-played, but Adam and I unanimously decided that this is our song.

Snow Patrol- Chasing Cars

[We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?]