別人眼中的天堂  原來是我的地獄

天堂裏的生物怎麼會這樣自驕自傲 不近人情？

是因為自恃身處於天堂？是因為這是天堂的生存方式？

何以我這個從地獄出來的小鬼竟嗅不出天堂的一點生氣？

好悶...............難得真係好難得有兩日假，但連玩也提不起勁．

完全失去計劃．愈來愈確定自己無鬼用．

力不從心

轉左地方做野，忙左好多。忙唔緊要，最重要係無乜滿足感。負責gei野多數都係文書工作同跑來跑去，對腳就快跛。無論做野做到幾快都追唔切，日日都要做到七點幾八點。最諷刺既係做緊surgery，但一次OT都未入過。

成個人好無鬥志。唯有同自己講打多個drip技術先有進步；打多個discharge訓練summaries complicated cases；忙到死就當訓練prioritize d野lor；插多條foley、fax多份consult ............... er............... 總會學到d野卦。咁樣唸仲可以勉強撐住，但其實心理上仍然係好唔平衡。一有時間就問自己想點；問自己做乜讀醫。可笑的是，半個月前我還很得意地回答你以上的問題。

幾年前果種好down，靜下來就想喊gei感覺竟然又出現。

不高興不只是迷茫，是因為再聽不到那簡單的問候。問候其實是有，不過沒有那種我自以為真實的感覺。前天我在同樣的情況下，聽到同一句說話，但是我並沒有平靜或快樂的感覺。

那團火竟然這麼快就熄滅了...................................

Diagnosed a case of Iatrogenic Cushing's syndrome in ORT

Patient presented with pathological fracture and Cushingoid features.  She denied exogenous steroid.  Endocirne was consulted and LDSST was done.  But the patient still denied use of steroid.

I went to take history several times.  Finally, she told me the hinden story.

I am very excited to get involved.  Just a little bit disappointed.........the case does not need to consult associate consultant in Endocrine.

Trauma round today

I arrived to ward at 6:15am preparing for presentation during grand round.  I tried so hard to remember 'right' or 'left', 'TOF' or 'NOF' fracture.  Finally, Prof Leung did not round my ward.  So hurt!!!!!

Removed a papilloma myself for excisional biopsy

Hope the patient won't have any wound complications.  

Success in a difficult drip today!!!  Feel more confident to set Hep Block.

However, failed ABG twice.  Bruises over radial pulse.  I feel so sorry for that.