| Okay so i looked in the mirror rite now and i looked at everything i need to get rid off. i need to lose about 20 more pounds or more. and i need to do it as fast as i can. if i keep lookin @ how gross my body iz ima die. ahh. |
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| Yesturday was my boyfriends birthday. I met his his mom and step dad finally. Very nice. me and my boyfriend went outside to smoke and he was telling me hes worried that i dont eat. I told him not to worry. he said im not fat at all. and hes like how skinny are u tryin to be...and i jus changed the topic but he tried to go back to it. I dont want to worry him. i love him.but i cant help it. i see a fat girl wen i look at myself. im horrible. im goin to see him today i hope he doesnt make me eat. todays intake so far b-nuthin l-diet coke (0) i'll come back and edit |
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| yesturday my boyfriend came over and my mom got us carl's jr. she made me eat. saying i havnt eaten. and so i had too. i dont want her getting suspicious. so then once he left i ate so much cake then jus purged everything that i could. im so fat i hate looking at myself i really do. its horrible. intake so far b-nuthin l- 2 bread toasted (140)
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| so i feel a lil sick..i purged a lot yesturday. 2day im a lil light headed. im going to go on 600 cals a day until next thursday. and c how it goes. then start at 500 cals. wish me luck :) intake so far B-1 poptart (200)
diet coke(0) L-toast 2 (140) d-fat free popsicle (20) TOTAL-360 |
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| i feel a lil sick rite now..i was eatin potato salad n then i got sick..so i purged..i feel like im gaining to much more weight :( everyone says im losin weight..why da hell cant i notice it?!?! i still feel fat. and ugly. |
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