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Monday, October 06, 2008

  • You and I both loved what you and I spoke of...

           Weekend was pretty good; we celebrated Joe's birthday Friday.

    Happy 20th Birthday, Joe! [as of yesterday].

    And played softball for my sorority Saturday with the frat AXP against Theta Phi Alpha and DSP [we lost 21-2, but I got us an RBI...booya], and did a breast cancer walk Sunday.
    Now, I'm dead shot...
    And I have a Physics exam tomorrow - ahhhhh...
    And, I'm sick as fuck. Ew.
    You get the picture:




    XOXO. Betta.

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Thursday, September 25, 2008

  • I've always been the kind of girl that hid my face...

    So, I'm so happy it's the first day of fall.
    Everytime it comes around I get this feeling, I don't know how to explain it, but with each season I have this sense about me that is only there when it's around.
    I love the cool air where it's not too cold and the changing leaves. I also especially love the crisp air; it's so refreshing.

    It's also a reminder of change and new beginnings in a way.
    I still remember freshman year - I felt like nothing more than an ID#, another insignificant individual in a sea of people.
    I went from knowing everyone and people knowing me to knowing a few people and no people up there knowing me.
    It was discomforting.
    I wouldn't say I was naive, I had a general idea of college, but I wasn't so into getting out there.
    I didn't know so many people and stuck to the friends I knew from home and my third roomie, Michele.
    My best friends were all far away or back home, so it was time to readjust.

    This year, however, I know where I fit. 
    I've found my niche, I've established myself.
    I realized this walking back to West passing through the parking lot behind ESS.
    I'm truly comfortable here and I find it to be such a shame that other people can't love or decide to find a love for this school.
    It is what you make of it [that applies through and through].
    I once again am someone [I never meant I wasn't anyone in an emo sense, btw, just a school sense] and have a place to be.
    I have branched out. Passing so many people just to say hi. The amount of people that ask to hang out or eat lunch with is astounding.
    I love each and every moment of it.
    I love that in such large classes, despite being an ID number, you can meet someone new each and every day.
    I have become involved and reestablished positions of leadership.
    I still do what I love and hang out with the original crew [SHOUT OUT, HOMIES] while retaining so much more.
    I have grown apart and grown even stronger with the same people.
    I have learned that people will pull the unexpected and to play your part and if it doesn't work, realize it, and go on living,
    but never forget what you had and don't be angry or resentful. [Never regret something that once made you smile].
    I have learned that to accept the best and worst of my friends and that of myself.
    I have learned that your real friends are your backbone and are there for you always, no matter what, and always believe in your dreams --- even if your parents don't.
    I am not longer the mentored but the mentor.
    I can actually help people and, it's so dorky but true, I love the feeling.
    I have a job on campus and I love it and the people.
    I have an apartment and I can cook for myself [I know, funny, right!].
    I have become more independent than I was and I love it.
    I have experienced the different styles of living.
    I am getting to know professors.
    The large classes have pushed me to establish myself as a TA to get to know the professors and other people [though the outcome of my grades has become so-so].
    I want people to want to be involved and establish themselves.
    I want people to love this school as much as I do...
    to never want to leave on weekends...
    to never want to transfer...
    to want to still play what they love for fun...
    to take risks and defy the stereotypes and prove people wrong [like that of Greek life]...
    to never second guess...
    to help the freshmen settle in...
    I want people to know Stony like the back of their palm...
    I want them to know the beauty of the spring and summer here, the crisp and chill beauty of the fall and the cold, solemn beauty of the winter...
    I want people to call it home by accident, because, in truth, it has become so.

    This is my Stony Brook; it has helped me - I am no longer an ID#.

    XOXO. Betta.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

  • Never take friendship personal, you can't hold yourself together...

    I love all this time I have to myself - wait, what time?!
    This is a daily conversation Joe and I have:

    Netburner3355 (12:36:25 AM): get the classics
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:36:27 AM): well i need ones ill wear with my jeaansss too
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:36:37 AM): but they're a decent cut for indoor soccer
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:36:42 AM): idk i gotta run to the mall tomorrow
    Netburner3355 (12:36:52 AM): LOL
    Netburner3355 (12:36:56 AM): we
    Netburner3355 (12:37:05 AM): are so lame
    Netburner3355 (12:37:07 AM): lol
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:13 AM): what
    Netburner3355 (12:37:13 AM): zero free time
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:16 AM): lmao
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:17 AM): i know. ha ha ha...what's free time again?
    Netburner3355 (12:37:21 AM): i thought tmrw was supposed to be like
    Netburner3355 (12:37:26 AM): ur free/rest day
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:31 AM): haha
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:31 AM): i wish
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:37:33 AM): hah
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:38:33 AM): k time to shoot myself studying - fuck my life
    vanillaJOCKOLATE (12:38:35 AM): payce
    Netburner3355 (12:38:40 AM): LOL

Monday, September 22, 2008

  • I am confident, but I still have my moments, baby, that's just me...

     
    Why does it bother me so much that I can't answer or give what I believe to be a decent answer as to why I joined a sorority?
    Why do I feel like by my friends questioning me, I question myself about it?
    I get it, you don't like it, but whatever.
    Guess it's just hard for both sides.
    I shouldn't need a reason, I should just get understanding.
    Is that so selfish?
    Why does it matter that it was so un-Elisabetta? Why are we sticking me to something, getting out of the box is only half of living life...
    I'm going to be proud of myself for me.
    Hmpsh.
    /end rant.
     

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    • Name: Elisabetta
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    • Birthday: 12/28/1988
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  • Heyy, the name's Elisabetta. Not that hard to pronounce - E'liz'a'bett'a, mmkay. I'm going to be a junior at Stony Brook University. {Going way too fast, it's scary.} I've got jock status here. I'm a part of Alpha Sigma Alpha Sorority - ZI Chapter. Magmar, #213! I love my friends so much, and I'm known to be a hardass. Oh yea, Kornfeld's gonna' be Pres' one day. Watch out.

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