Snuffleupagus28's Xanga

Thursday, April 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 00:09:07 GMT

Wow, so apparently I'll do anything to not do my homework!! Xanga has pretty much died...but there's still a lot of memories on here, both good and bad. I remember writing on here counting down the days until I got my license. Or trying to figure out what college to go to. Oh man...time flies! I guess I could keep rambling on here a bit every once in awhile! So I'm a junior in college now...and the semester is almost over! I feel like I started college yesterday. It's a little scary how quickly life is going! But my life has definitely been blessed lately. I have the sweetest boyfriend I could ask for. Time flies there too...we've been dating over 10 months already. School is going really really well and I'm enjoying it...except for the homework of course! Things are a little crazy at home for the moment...but just crazy enough to make me stop and realize what I have and how wonderful it is. We don't count our blessings sometimes until they're gone. I feel that way with a lot of things in life. I feel like I rush through so fast to get to the next thing that I miss out on the experience in the moment. School seems to have gone that way a lot and I know I won't get these years back. I've been trying to step back lately and enjoy where God has put me now...not where I want to be someday.

So now that I've rambled a bit, I guess I'd better get to that homework!

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 00:07:21 GMT

Wow, I really never write on here anymore! June 3rd was the last time I wrote. That feels like ages ago. I'm not really sure what's been going on since then. I'm done with school now for the summer, finally! And I've just been working and hanging out. I'm trying to live at the beach this summer. I leave for camp on Saturday and I'm excited. It came up so fast though!! I couldn't wait for the longest time, and now it's crept up so quickly! It'll be great though. This week is Intermediate II, the 4th and 5th graders. They're adorable. The hick gang and I are also trying to plan a weekend in Cape May/Wildwood. The only weekend we can do it though is the weekend I come back from camp. I'd come home Saturday and leave again on Saturday to go camping at the beach. I'll be exhausted, but it'll be worth it. I'll sleep on the beach (c: Hopefully it works out! But overall I think it's going to be a good summer. How can it not be when there's no homework? (c:

Sunday, June 03, 2007

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 21:34:28 GMT

I don't write on this thing very much anymore. Everything has been going well lately though. I've been busy as usual, but that's a good thing for me. I think I have ADD. When I'm not busy, I feel like I'm suppossed to be doing something. I still have work and school. I'm really really ready for school to be over though. I'm tired of sitting in class. I'm ready for some freedom. The Vietnam class is the one that's killing me. I can't sit there for 3 hours and listen to stuff about Vietnam. lol

I am SO ready to go to camp...as usual. I went today for a meeting for Intermediate II and next weekend Julia and I are going up to work Camp Sonshine. I'm excited but honestly, I'm a little nervous. It's a camp for special needs kids and I don't have any experience with that. I know it'll be a blessing though. Everything at camp always is. And I'll be working a bunch of Saturdays at canteen this summer too...so I have a summer full of camp. I'm excited! When I was there today I was sitting there singing and I just felt at home. I felt like everything was good and that's what my life needs to be about. Praising God with people who are doing the same thing. I just itch for camp ALL year long. It is definitely one of the biggest blessings in my life.

I'm just ready for summer. that's all. (c:

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Thu, 10 May 2007 01:51:09 GMT

Yay! The semester is over! It's so amazing to not be so stressed out and have so much to do. Summer classes start Monday, but I'm only taking one. Mrs. Ricci also asked me to be an SI (Supplemental Instruction) tutor for a Finite Math class...so I actually have to attend the class everyday (but i'll get paid for it..so that's okay! lol)...it's Monday through Thurs from 10-11:30 which is kind of an inconvenient time...but it's only until June 28th. Not too bad. Hopefully I'll be able to figure out what he's teaching!! lol I'll also be administering some of the placement tests for the incoming freshmen...so that'll keep me busy. And...there's Risoldis of course! lol

Dave's prom is next week so I'm excited for that. What I'm not excited for is the rest of the weekend. Post prom goes til 6 am....and then I have to go into work at 6:45 am and close from the night before...since all the closers are going to prom. Then, after I close I'm going to go home and sleep of course...lol but then I have to be back at work and work 3-10:30. And the worst part is that I have to work with Becky that night...Becky's not very nice. I told Tommy that he'll have to bail me out of jail after I kill her. lol I have to work with her Sunday night too. Oh well. I'll probably be too tired Saturday night to even notice her nasty comments. lol I found my dress for prom, but I still can't seem to find shoes. Heather and I are going shopping tomorrow, so hopefully I'll find something!

I've been having wars with the lawnmower again. My dad didn't run it into a tree again this year...aw..lol...but it won't start. So I spent the past 2 days outside with the pushmower again. I've only done the front yard and one side. It's taking forever. Although the weather has been beautiful, so I guess it's okay! (c: I'm so happy summer is here. Now I just can't wait to go to camp. I wish it were tomorrow. At the same time, though, I don't want it to be July. Then summer will be half over. Oh well. Time for bed. (c:

Sunday, April 29, 2007

Sun, 29 Apr 2007 23:18:06 GMT

So have you ever prayed about something and wanted God to show you exactly what you should do...and then it just comes along and smacks you in the head...like a delivery straight from heaven. The only problem is when what you're shown isn't necessarily what you want to hear. I think a lot of things work like that. You ask God to show you the right way, but secretly down inside you're just hoping he'll show you that the way you want it to be will be what He wants. It doesn't work like that. I know what I should do...I just don't know if I want to.

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 00:05:43 GMT

Wow, I think I'm updating more in the past week or so than I have in the past few months. School was cancelled after 11:30 because of all the flooding around here. It was really great because I was working in the math skills lab in the morning for two hours, and I started not feeling well...so i was debating whether or not to go to History. (and I never ever skip classes...so this was a crazy thought for me. lol) I was thinking no...because it's a real small class and everybody pretty much sits on top of each other...and I figured they wouldn't want me sneezing all over them...but as I was leaving the math skills lab Maryfaith told us classes were cancelled for the rest of the day. So my plan was to go home and sleep, but me, being the stupid person I am, stopped at work to buy something for lunch...and they held me hostage because 2 people had called out. I was feeling a little less sneezy though so I stayed and helped out. Then it was amazing, I went home at 4:00 and had nothing to do after that. I enjoyed it and went to sleep. lol Today I still felt sneezy and skipped my last class and went home to sleep. It was great. I guess I can afford to be a delinquint sometimes, huh?

Dr. Curran finally emailed me back and I only need the 15 credits in math to be certified to teach it. So now I have to sign up for a math class at Mercer this summer. It's going to be busy taking two classes this summer...but at least the one at Mercer will be a whole lot cheaper than the one at Rider! School is getting expensive. lol I guess it'll be worth it when I get a job someday! Yeah, it'll definitely be worth it. I sure don't want to work at Risoldi's for the rest of my life! lol Out of all the front end people, there are only 2 that have been there longer than me..and they've been there for 15 years. What does that say about my fate? lol Anyway..to bed!

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Sun, 15 Apr 2007 23:29:53 GMT

I just had a great day. I headed out to Lancaster this morning to meet up with Deb and go to a "camp meeting" I guess you would call it. I went to church out there at Conestoga Valley, which I really enjoyed. Jeff is a really great preacher. I like Bruce, but Jeff seemed to really get to the point and try to touch your heart. Bruce's sermons are more intellectual and philosophical. I feel more like I'm in a philosophy class during his sermons than in a church. I liked one point he made this morning - that the things we're doing everyday, our everyday activities, would we be willing to have Jesus tag along? Are the things we're doing things that Jesus would approve of?

After church Deb and I hung out and went shopping. We had lunch and just had a good time. After shopping we went to Andy's house to talk about the camp session. I can't wait. I'm counting down the days. It was really great getting to see everybody again and we did a lot of singing, which I love. (c: Although my throat is killing me...because I can't drive without singing in the car...and it was 2 1/2 hours out in the rain this morning and 1 1/2 hours back tonight...then singing at church and at the meeting tonight. And tomorrow is the dress rehearsal for our choir concert. lol

On my way home tonight I was thinking how I came all the way out to Lancaster and didn't see Jessie. Everytime I go out there I meet up with her. Then I stopped at Dunkin Donuts and who do I run into but Jessie. What are the odds? I heard somebody calling my name, but I assumed it couldn't be me....I don't know anybody who lives out there. lol But I saw her and Caitlin. It was really great. That's God right there. Jessie's been my best friend from camp since 7th grade.

Overall I had a really amazing day. The rain was a little scary this morning, but it wasn't raining half as bad in Lancaster as it was here at home. There's a lot of flooding here now.

Now, because I'm a slacker, I need to finish my French homework. I'd like to go to bed instead...that'll teach me to procrastinate. lol

Saturday, April 07, 2007

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 22:38:17 GMT

Happy Easter! This is my favorite time of year. It's spring (well not in New Jersey, but it's the idea of spring...flowers, sunshine, etc). And Easter of course is a great holiday - we celebrate the resurrection of the Lord who saved us from our sins, even though we're so not worth it. It's kind of a crazy thought. We all have a pretty high view of ourselves...but we're nothing. We've all failed and can't make it on our own.

So I've been crazy busy lately, as usual. Everyday I leave my house around 8:30 and don't get home until 10:30. I usually have about a half hour break in that 14 hour day somewhere. I don't know how I keep going. I should be out of steam by now! But summer is almost here. Between my "3" jobs I worked about 45 hours this week and boy do I feel it tonight! But I have off tomorrow and will...well, after all the family time for Easter, will write the History paper I've put off for so long!

But Jackie and Jess were home this weekend and I got to see them. That was exciting. And soon Lisa and I are going to go get our sub licenses. It's a scary thought that I can be a substitute teacher this year! Hopefully I'll get everything in in time to sub in May. That'll be exciting, but scary too! I guess I'd better get used to it!

I'm off to bed now. I can't stay awake any longer. Happy Easter and God bless!

Friday, March 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 03:11:39 GMT

I've been waiting for awhile to write in here. I don't really know how to put what I have to say into words. I miss my dad more than anything in the whole world. I would give anything to have him back...just for an hour or a minute. I want to talk to him. I want to spend time with him. I come home and there are so many things I want to tell him. He was my best friend. I was so so lucky to have such an amazing father. I want to make him proud.

I want him back though. I know I can't have him back, but I miss the nights we'd spend just sitting outside on the deck until the wee hours of the morning just talking. I miss our crazy days at Hersheypark. I'm not sure I can ever go back without him. This year is the 100th year anniversary and he's been talking about it for years. He always said that at this point I'd be in college and not "wanting to hang around with my daddy anymore"..but that he would make me go back for the 100th year anniversary. I always told him, "there will never be a time when I won't want to hang out with my daddy anymore". And I never did reach that point, where I didn't have time for him anymore. He knew the answer to everything. He solved every problem for me.

I love him. That's all I said to him, over and over again during his last few days. I just held his hand and said, "I love you". Right before he died, he opened his eyes one last time and I'll never forget that look. I just want to hug him one last time. To tell him how great a father he was. How my life will never be complete without him.

It breaks my heart to look back at these old Xanga entries. My last one before this was how excited I was that he was coming home for Christmas. Christmas was his favorite holiday. He'd always get so excited and make everything perfect for us. Even when he was sick he made sure that Christmas was perfect for my mom and I. He was amazing. Maybe I'm silly. But I know that I was so blessed to have him in my life for as long as I did. The time was too short but it's the quality that matters I guess. I guess I never really comprehended how everything was going to end up. I knew in my head, but not in my heart. In my heart he was strong and tough and invincible. He was my daddy.

If I could get another chance
Another walk, another dance with him
I’d play a song that would never, ever end
How I’d love, love, love to dance with my father again

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 00:09:52 GMT

I am SO excited. My dad is coming home for Christmas!! They're letting him out for the day. So we're all going to have Christmas at our house and it's going to be amazing. It'll be his first time home in 3 months. He'll be able to see our new little bird and we'll have a normal Christmas. And there will be french toast for breakfast. (c: I can't wait. It's definitely the best Christmas present I could have asked for and a huge blessing. (c:

So I am done with school now for the semester and sleep has been really amazing. I've been working a lot (39 hours this week) but it's not so bad. Work was crazy today but I kind of enjoy it when it's crazy. I ended up staying an extra 3 hours but it was okay. Everyone was really friendly today (for the most part) and I had a good time. I've also been watching lots of Christmas movies with my dad...all our Chrsitmas traditon movies...A Muppet Family Christmas, Christmas Eve on Sesame Street...this year we watched a Sesame Street Christmas Carol..but it wasn't very good. Unfortunately, its not what it used to be. They don't make them like they did in the 80s.

Oh well. Merry Christmas everybody. I hope it's blessed.