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Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 18:21:39 GMT

Hey guys i'm going to get a new site!.

its www.xanga.com/x__bang__another_tragedy__x

so cut my wrists
and black my eyes
so i can fall asleep tonight..
or die

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 22:05:41 GMT

"Now your gone ..And so am I..When I think of you ..There is no doubt...That your'e all...I care about
...Now your'e out...Of my life..But deep down ...Your'e there...And that thought...I cannot bear. "

YESTERDAY = very sad and depressing day!
IF YOU DON'T NO WHY YOU DON'T NEED TO NO IF YOU NO ME GOOD YOU WILL NO WHY!

Today = even more sad/depressing day..AGAIN! the same reason..as yesterday.

Tomarrow.=. YAY! because i get to see..my lovely lover KITA! <33333

Ashley..--**

EdIT..--**

this is a poem i wrote...a while ago.

how i FELT!

You saved me from my past
you saved me from death
many times.
And for what?
You gave me a reason to stay
said you'd love me forever
oh, promises promises!
I bet you're telling whats-her-name
the same line of crap
and shes believing it too.
My sympathies go out to her
soon shell know how I feel.
And the funny part is
you want us to be friends!
HA! Some friend you are
leading me on
then tearing my heart out.
Don't try to save me
I can stand on my own.
Dont worry,
I wont kill myself over you.
You're not worth it
so just get away from me.
If only I could believe that
I'd be just fine.
but thats not good enough because
you get the satisfaction
of dumping me
leaving me out in the cold
so you and whats-her-name
can point and laugh.

how i FEEL!

I can't sleep cause of you
So once again I'll write
I don't know why I believe
That I can win this fight

I lay awake again
Thinking of only you
I wonder if you're thinking
Little thoughts of me too

I hope you remember
My caring, gentle stare
Just how soft my touch was
Are those memories there?

The way you dried my tears
And held me close, so tight
You remember how I looked?
When we met that first night

The way I put my make up
And the smell of my hair
The color of my eyes
And the clothes I like to wear

The time we were at that game.
Sitting under the trees
Looking At the Stars
With Our friends by our sides
Those times I want to taste.
But yet I can't bare..

Those Memories of me and you.
Do you want them back.
I can Remember when you were so happy
See, I Remember, do you?

Ashley Ann Morel©

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 15:16:52 GMT

Hey guys.

long time no post..
i was in D.C.
it was ok i guess..could of been alot better..but alissa..and katie..made it worth while..lol
i don't really have time to tell you about it right now but i will soon as i have some time..and i will put some off my pictures..on here.

yesterday was ok..woke up..went to mickey d's..lol for breakfast..picked up lauren..came here..(my house) ran into my dad's truck and gave it about $3,000 of damage and me and my bro need to pay for it all..which is going to suck really bad..were i'm going to come up with $1,500 i have no ideal..but well..idk.

well i must be off..
to get ready to go to a movie..later tonight bye my lovers and friends.

<3 later lovers

Ashley.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Mon, 30 May 2005 14:05:23 GMT

heylo all..

yesterday was shit.
last night..was very ..sad..and ful of pissyness
today..is boring.
tomarrow im going to D.C.

bye lovers.

Ashley.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Sun, 29 May 2005 01:13:40 GMT

I Died Without Your Love

She lays there in the darkness
Tears streaming down her face
She wishes she could find away
To leave this awful place
Cause she’s sick of all the heartbreak
She’s sick of all his lies
She wants to get away from him
But all she can do is cry
He scarred her heart forever
Without a single care
He left her for another
Her fragile heart to spare
Now she sits and wonders
How she will get through
She pondered for a while
Then decided what to do
She’ll forget all about him
Erase their days of joy
Because he is not worth it
And her heart is not a toy
So she stopped her crying
Away with all her tears
She will find herself new love
And forget about past years
But the first time she saw him
With new love by his side
She slipped back into sadness
But kept it all inside
But when she got home that night
She got out paper and pens
To write out a bunch of notes
To give to all her friends
She told them she is done
Living with this pain
She told them that she loved them
But had nothing left to gain
She whispered softly to herself
The pain is almost done
It was that night
I died without your love
Ashley.©

Saturday, May 28, 2005

Sat, 28 May 2005 21:04:18 GMT

hey ppl i love gabe so so much hes the best ever! i wanna boom boom in his room like theres no other! but i got to go ppl t2yl

ashley

EdIt!**

hey guys.!

today was fun.
last night was not so good.
tomarrow..will be sad.
The End*

<33

Ashley.

oh and gabe..put that last comment in..there..i no some people were wondering about it!

Friday, May 27, 2005

Fri, 27 May 2005 01:02:07 GMT

wow..i just relized your a fuckn ass hole..you no who you are.!

hmm..today was good..holly and lauren..came over..tryed on dresses at deb..for the wedding..then went to wal*mart..yay..then playdoes..then mickey D's then we came home..and hung out..well must be off..heres some pics!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 20:37:55 GMT

Yay..this weekend..was great..
me and lauren cutt our hair off..lol..

PICTURES!!!

...my new hair<33

...laurens..new hair..<33

..hehe..my hair again!<33

random picture of me.!<33

Ashley.

Edit..

2 more days until i get my peircings...YAY!!

and i found out i can fit my fist in my mouth..yaya go me.!

<333

Ashley.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

Sat, 21 May 2005 03:13:19 GMT

PICTURES!!

of yesterday!

My Lovely..JAMIE<3<3

..amd my lover Alissa<3<3..

Holly....I So Love You More.BAYBAY!!

And here is some of my random pictures!

<333..

i heart grass!<3<3!

Pictures of MUAH!

hehe..oh yah..thats hott..dont laugh cause i spelt jealous wrong..lol..wow..

same one as in my profile picture..but different..<33

oh yah.!

..<3<3---></3</3

oh yah..thast my butt..oh..yah!

well thats all for now..ill post more..when i get more..bye bye my lovers!

<3 Ashley.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Thu, 19 May 2005 21:08:45 GMT

hey urrbody!

well i just got back from the lovely jen's house..that was mighty great..

wow today was awesome.

wel i got up went to school...same ol' same ol' then i stayed after school..to hang out a bit..and then i went over to jen with of course jen..and alissa..and sarah..and katie...and lucky...and then we just hung out i took some pictures..ill post..them in a bit..but then we went over..cause we had to go and watch katie and sarahs..coir concert..which we really didnt walk..then we talked to travis marcus..and..umm..my butt..looker..lol..taylor..then well..we went out side..and then we seen cam and alex and allie..and some other people dont no who tho.. then i was talking to seth for a bit on the phone..**wow that was great**..yah well anyways..we just hung out ..at the soccer field..then we met up with brandon and chris...then we just hung out for a while..then we went back over to jens..and well now im here..so..yah..

but well i must be off..to load my pics in my computer..talk to you all later.!

Ashley.