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| Nagareteru TakiSo, to inform you people (the very few people who actually reads this thing...) if you haven't noticed, I don't really blog here. That's because my main online journal is elsewhere.
Nagareteru Taki
By the way, I still read your Xangas, those of you on my subscribed list. I don't really comment much, but just to let you know that I care.
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| EvergreenI couldn't frikkin think of anything for the title, so I decided, "Next song that comes up, I'll use the title". I can't even figure out who the artist is because WinAmp fucked up the Japanese.
Anyway, I was getting a little sick of the angry/emo entries I have on here. But haha, I don't really have anything happy to put on here instead.
I've been spending a lot of time with my friends who came back from college. It's nice to see them all again and chilling. And I also had my extremely late birthday party. Karaoked it up like slutting it up. Ahahaha, but as Lacy says, I wouldn't be able to slut it up, even if my life depended on it. Can't blame her, the sluttiest clothing I own is a blue tank top.
Enough about sluts.
Italian Street Painting Festival is coming up. I'm not really ready, but that's okay. I'm never ready until the day of the festival. Hahaha. But being the featured square this year is making me nervous. People all over the world are gonna be looking at this square... Dear God, please, make this a BEAUTIFUL square...
What else? I don't know. I applied to work at Walgreen's because if I worked there, I wouldn't feel bad about quitting so soon. Hahaha, oh well. I just need some quick money and since it's summer, I'm not really doing anything and I have so much shit to pay for... I envy you people who has their car/car insurance/health insurance/cell phone/tuition/books/etc paid for. And screw you if you are one of those people and complain about money.
Otherwise, life's pretty uhhh... Normal? Not really. Life's never normal. How about love life? Hmmm, nothing exciting there either. I'm starting to feel less and less attached though. I don't know if that's good or bad. And yeah, all of my friends still don't like/hate him. I used to defend him, but now it's starting to seem really pointless. Online relationships. No comment.
It almost feels like I'm gonna snap. But each time I say, "I'm gonna frikkin snap the next time someone provokes me", I never do it. I hate having this, "patience of a saint".
"I could have danced all night"
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Five
By Rip Slyme
(I Could've) Danced All Night
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| What, BitchStressed out, motherfucker.
This is like a really bad withdrawal.
Except instead of relying on substances, I need a day off/vacation.
I'm fucking sick and tired of going to work, then going to school, then
coming home very tired, then doing homework until late at night, and
getting about 3-5 hours of sleep each night. No, I'm not kidding, this
is really what my life has come down to.
I can't stand this shit.
I want to go to Japan, right now.
But no, I have to deal with another 9 days of complete shit.
Burnt out like a bitch, I swear.
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| MadrugadaI have a new found love for sunrises.
I don't have time these days and it makes me mad. My friend invite me
to go out, but I always tell them, "Sorry, I have work" or "Sorry, I
have school". Or "I can't work cuz I have school" and yeah, that
neverending cycle of sorries.
And then when I do make time to chill or talk, things are canceled or
someone flakes on me. I desperately need a girl talk. That's so weird.
Me? Needing a girl talk? What the fuck. But yeah, I do. But I don't
know, I don't normally do the girl-talking, I normally do the listening
and give advice about it.
Or maybe I need more time to myself and away from people.
Or I should... Never mind. Even if I really did want to stop school for a semester and just work, my parents would kill me.
I'm so inspired by the Yoshida Brothers. Holy god, I love them so much.
No musician has affected me in this way. One of my life goals is to
meet them.
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| What's Up, How're You Doin'?Hello Xanga. It's been a long time.
I check here at least once a week to see if any of my friends have updated their xangas. But most of you don't. So I don't bother updating this thing. But I try to prove my existence every once in a while.
I'm working on a 10 page essay about Darwinism. It is a subject I believe strongly in, but I hate writing about it. Because writing about it means other people are gonna read it and I'm so afraid of offending others. And evolutionism is such a controversial topic because there are several branches of evolutionism within evolutionism. So no matter what, I'm gonna offend a large number of people if I ever released it to the public.
This is why I like art better. You can be more secretive about it. Cuz for evolutionism, you could draw a bunch of regular iguanas and Marine Iguanas and it will have an evolution meaning behind it, but people can perceive it to be an appreciation for reptiles or liking of the color green or something. But in writing, you actually have to write about evolution for there to be a meaning of evolution in it.
Anyway, that's not really the point.
I would really like to move out and go somewhere far away. But I feel so familiar and secure here. I love NorCal. I'm scared of Mid-Western weather, (no offense...) I don't think I'd like the South, and East Coast is out of the question. West Coast, fo sho. So, according to these criterias, I'm stuck in California, Hawaii, or some foreign country. Such a pansy...
For all of my life, I've been the nice, quiet girl. Just for once, I want to be a total bitch who isn't afraid to tell people to fuck off and tell them every single flaw in their personality. But I can't because I'm afraid of offending people and some of the people who really irritate me see me as a real friend. I lead people on all the time and I hate it. But according to people, I'm "too nice" to make them turn around and go away.
By the way, no, I don't think this way to everyone. It's just two or three people in particular that I wish I could do this to...
I wish lala
Kimi ga waraeba
Sekaijuu ga minna happy nanda
I wish lala
Say hello to what's waiting
Lalalala
Sore dakede...
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