Geez...My days just keep getting worse. I dont even know what to do with myself. I cant tell the person that i im in love with, that I LOVE them.... I keep getting sad and depressed over the stupidest, smallest things... I almost got kicked out of NHS (i just got inducted last thursday!!!!).... Im having a ton of problems with a close friend... im almost to the point of wanting to just rip out every peice of hair i have!!! I wish i knew what was wrong with me... and no its not PMS (i know someone was thinking that). I really have to thank marcos so much for trying to cheer me up. I love you. Well...thats my day pretty much...oh yeah and i took the Math TAKS today, it was pretty easy.... i hope i pass.... more later..maybe

forever lonely,

miranda

         Omg, i have a competiton today at Americas...we're not ready...we have championships tomorrow at Del Valle...we're not ready... and Im trying out for captain on monday after school...IM NOT READY!!! AHHHHH!!! i havent even made up any flag rutine to my song... oh no!! ....Oh well, wish me luck. If you read marcos post, you would know that i did somethign very stupid the other day. Oh man,  you're gonna think im a retard... I tore up my NHS papers. Yep, i tore them, not once but twice!! You see, i lost my letters of recomendation, and the forms are useless without them, so i gave up, tore them, and threw them away.  I swear, it was no more than 2 min later when Ms. Shukkit came running to me to tell me she had my letters. OMG, i wanted to cry. So my dear friend Marcos went and got them from the trash for me and helped me tape them back together! Wow, and guess what, i explained the whoel situation to Ms. Arce and she gave me an extension!! That women must like me at least a little bit...

        Shit, yesterday was april fools right? lol well carli played the worst prank on me ever. It was soooo fucked up!! When i got to flags she was crying to andy. They called me over to console her or whatever. She handed me a letter and said it would explain everything. It said somehting baout me and michael being a bad influence on her and that her mom didnt want her to hang out with anymore and that she had to quit flags and some crap like that. And she was really crying!! I felt so bad cuz i thought it was my fault, cuz im such a bad person or whatever. but then i started thinking about it, and some of the stuff didnt match up. But i just ignored it. Liek 5 min later she runs up to me, "Miranda i love you!!" Oh man that was so fucked up. everyone thinks shes evil now. I used to think carli was a sweet innocent little girl, now shes just a satan child. :-p K well i need to finish my powerpoint in ms. gonzalez's.... till next time

If anyone, at all is ever going to look at my page.....COME SEE THE CHAPIN FLAG GIRLS PERFORM THEIR HIT SHOW "HIDDEN ANGELS" TO MUSIC "CHOP SUEY" BY SYSTEM OF A DOWN, TODAY (FRIDAY MARCH 12, 2004) AT 6:30PM @ ANDRESS IN THE GYMNASIUM. COME CHEER US ON!! <--- wow that was really peppy. Too peppy for such a beautiful rainy day.