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Spastic_mOi
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Name: - Spastic!~*
Birthday: 12/7/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: bum bum bum! =P go out...shop...chit chat...movie...club...go crazi...talk&laugh my head off 24/7 with marie...b a beta raver, since i cnt do shit but sit @ raves LoL!
Expertise: piano with my small hands hehehe + complain&talk 2 myself on xanga abt shit that ppl dun give a shit abt?! + immature
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
MSN: rainbow_box84@hotmail.com
Member Since:
6/30/2004
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| hellooooooooooooooooo to whoever reads this!! its been a long time since i blogged, and xanga changed!!
sometimes i wonder to myself, what im doign in this relationship? i feel like i put so much into this relo, and id ont get anything in return. not that i expect anything in return. but i just want respect.
there has never been a time that i think wow he really cares about me, or that he feels strongly about me. he has never done anything like that that i can rmb of?
and yet i get treated like sht
i put so much into this, and wasted my tears so many times. and i always get ignored, or get hang up on. and worse of all, my number gets blocked?! is that the way a bf treats a gf?
im so tired, and im tired of caring... and crying
i wish i can just forget about him.
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| right or wrongi dont know what im doing anymore, i dont think i shud be doing what im doing, but i have so much feelings for him 2 let go =( i sck! if only im stronger! its always good for a girl to find some1 that they dont like as much...
i thought i found that, and i liked him enuf to be with him lol but i was so wrong .............
@ least i know ill learn fr my mistakes where do i go from here, and is this the right thing to do? ........ i feel like i dont need more time to think, coz i just want to be with him, but i know i shud keep my distance ....... and im just scared that he wont fall for me just like how he so sure he wudnt =( its not that i dont want things to be the same again, but it just takes time, and i just feel like i shudnt put as much effort into it. ive put alot of effort into this! | | |
| for those frends who care he broke up with me today it means, its time for me to blog again... | | |
| its upsetting when he dont feel the same way I feel abt him........ job hunting is depressing too........ no1 wants me now thats double rejection   
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| he told me last night that he likes me less... .......coz im weak, and too emo | | |
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