~A story of feelings for you~

Undying friendship..
and love for a life time..

iam bound to the eternal way i feel
the pain inside will never end.. or fade away..

Sandpaper and wire brushes on my skin
could never compare to the way i feel inside
i no longer feel like i once did..

i try and burn this down.. to make a new path
but the air is un claming..
And piloted by the love i never receive from you

and now I beat on you (the door of fate)
for things to change..

But in return "fate" you seem to spit in my face..
It burns inside.. Like lava.. And 5 gallons of gas on my skin..

And now my heart races..
Thoughts of you kill me inside..
Its been weeks.. But I can still smell you..

Its all the same in the end..

Someone new has taken you from me once again..
 ~i loved you so..~

Currently Playing Journey So Far By Society's Finest -Six Seconds Left Untill day light- see related

This is the start.. this is the end..
my words ment nothing to you..
ill cry tonight as i see you in my dreams..
i loved to be unloved..
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~And then your words became meaningless~

sounds that made no sound

I tried to hear you, ~I really tried~
you never really cared to begin with
only around the days that others weren’t for you

Ill claim in to bed one last time
just to stare for hours..

I daze at the candle I lit 4 hours ago
it all burns away..
Just like me
a safety net that held together for way to long.

Only burnt broken threads now
there’s nothing left,
I hope your smiling,

I sure am “at the thought of my own grave”
iv wished before,
for the last chapter to be seen,
for the casket to open

I hope its been worth it,
you’ve broken this net for the last time,
ill see you in my dreams,
I hope ill be in yours,
holding my heart you ripped out and showed me
thanks for the smiles that never lasted the days end
thanks for the way I compare you to everyone
thanks for never loving me.
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~it never lasted~

 The December of the coldest day could never feel what I do

always dreaming in fairy tails.
Which are, everything I have truly wanted.
its apparent to me now
I wasted the worlds time

so innocent before it all started
its all over now.
I hope at least your somewhere smiling

I am overwhelmed with frozen lungs
I cant breath..

my words were never enough for you..
thank you’s instead of.. “I love you’s..”

Eternity holds forever in its hand

if i could just hold one day in mine..
so perfect would be every moment “and forever lasting it would be”

there’s a price for everything

I loved you..
And I loved the soft still moments we would lay and share..
I miss every moment we use to have..

I cry over not having you
why god why put her in my life only to take her from me..

Ill never understand your reasons..
ill never except them..
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~Copy Write Spring dies tonight inc, 2004~

The end is here and she will not remain silent..

more to come.

XoXo Spring Dies Tonight, XoXo
          The Singer,

Currently Playing She Looks So Good in Red By Remembering Never -Alisons Song- see related