Currently Listening Back to Black By Amy Winehouse see related

I'm sad that the weekend is almost over. I'm thinking about buying a laptop the day after Thanksgiving. They'll be cheap. I'll have to go to Best Buy at like 3am to get one though. Eh, I don't care. As long as I get one. I've been wanting a laptop for three years now. You would think I would have bought one by now. But nope. Oh but this is the year...

I didn't go to L-town last night to hang out with Jo and her friends. She was suppose to call but she never did. I'm not upset about it because I really didn't want to go. I know I would feel out of place. I don't like feeling out of place or when I feel like I can't be myself. It makes me want to be even more crazier than I already am so I can weird them out...

luv/kris

ps is it weird that I really like Amy Winehouse? Because I do.

What's with today, today?

Boy am I pooped. This week I started coming in to work at 7am instead of coming in at 8am. I like getting off at 4pm rather than 5pm, but I’m not use to getting up an hour earlier than normal! I think I’m going to take a nap when I get home from work today.

This week has been pretty normal. Last night I went to the first WuCru of the year. It was fun seeing everyone again. I’m going to start going again unlike last year when I only went once.

Oh, my friend Carrie and I are starting a girl’s bible study. We’re going to be studying “Bad women” of the bible. I’m really excited about it. I haven’t lead a bible study since high school and it should be interesting. Plus, I’ve wanted to do this topic for awhile. I’ve heard the book is really good. We’ll see how it goes I guess. =)

It’s Thursday and I already have my weekend planned out. Crazy huh? Well, I guess it’s not out of the ordinary for me. It seems like my weekends are always busy.

Friday I’m going over to my friend Alyssa’s house and we’re going to cook dinner. Then, I’m dragging her to the movies with me to see Super Bad with a friend that asked me. I didn’t want to go by myself (because I didn’t want him to think it’s a date... Which he might... Ahh I don’t know!). Saturday I’m going to my friend Jan’s house to have our monthly get-together. A group of girls and I use to have a bible study but since we’re all so busy we make it a point to meet once a week. It should be fun, and I’m looking forward to it.

So, the other day I found out from a friend that someone, who I would call a good friend, has been talking about me. And you know, we’re girls, it happens. Girls are notorious for gossiping. I understand that. But the thing that that bothers me is that she was saying things that were untrue and hurtful. Things I wouldn’t think someone who has known me for that long would say. Things that you would only say if you were resentful towards someone, and just wanted to be mean. That’s what hurt. What do you do when someone does that? How can you not be upset with them? I know God wants me to forgive her, but it’s hard. I’m trying really hard not to have the desire to do or say something I would regret. God’s keeping me in check.

Well guys, that’s it for now. Have a good weekend.

Luv/kris

Feeling creative

I'm feeling very creative today. I went to Michaels and bought two big canvases and some scrapbook stuff. That will keep me busy for awhile. My goal is to get all my pictures in albums. That's a big task due to the fact that I have tons of pictures. I have so many I feel like they're coming out my ears! Tonight I'm going to clean my room. It's so messy. I hate it when it gets like this but my room is so tiny that it's so easy to get messy. I have so much stuff in it, and I'm not happy with the the arrangement of it. But, it's so small that my options of moving stuff around are very limited. *sigh* Oh well, it'll suffice.

I went to lunch with my Mom today. I was talking to her just about how I'm so lost when it comes to figuring out what I want to do career wise. I'm just not happy with where I am. I want to change, but how do I? I want something different. I want to know the answers, but I never get any answers. It's so frustrating. You look at people who have every capability to change their surroundings, yet they just complain and do nothing. Here I am who really wants to change and do something better and different, and I'm stuck. How is this fair? I guess only time will tell. And I can wait for awhile. Do I have a choice?

luv/kris

What the heck?

Okay, so this has been bothering for sometime....

Has anyone seen that show on VH1 where the pickup artist Mystery teaches guys who are extremely shy to pickup girls? How ridiculous is this show? What is our media coming to?? Why are nerds looked down upon so badly? Those guys are adorable! Some of them are really cute and seem like good funny guys, so why are they so insecure? I'll tell you why. Because of flipping society. People saying because you wear glasses, because you like Star Wars, because you like these certain things and know this much about science and math, means you ARE a loser. You are a dork, a nerd, a nothing? Since when is that not successful? Since when is being really smart make you a loser? And you know what REALLY ticks me off? Are the girls these guys are trying to get. Beauty flipping Queens. You know, God forbid they go after girls who are normal and are into the same things as them. Those girls are just too ordinary I guess. If they actually tried going for those type of girls (aka ME!) they would have some luck. But no, they don't. And stupid Mystery is teaching them to go for those bimbo girls who have no personality. Personally if Mystery and his posse J-dog and Matador or whatever the heck his name is, came up to me and laid out the gay lines they give girls I would laugh in their face. They're stupid and ridiculous. Mystery wears a flipping big fuzzy hat around for goodness sake. That's not hot. But he goes around thinking he's Gods gift to women. Oh, oh!! He gave the guys makeovers and made them look worse. He had the poor guys get their nails painted black, and random patches of different color in their hair. That's not cute. The just look funny.

My question in all this is why in movies and in society do nerds think they should go after super model type girls? You see in movies where the geeks always have a huge crush on the most popular cheerleader and she rejects him, but then in the end she realizes it's true love. Yuck. While all this is happening the geek's bestfriend, who is a girl and has a major crush on her best geek friend, gets pushed aside because she's ordinary. What? That's just not right. Why do us ordinary girls always get the shaft? Do I have to have fake boobs and bleach blonde hair or what?

Okay, so I know I'm being really cynical right now and a bit dramatic but come on. This has just been ticking me off for a loooong time.

luv/kris

Currently Listening Neil Diamond - The Greatest Hits (1966-1992) By Neil Diamond see related

Back and Bored

So I haven't wrote a real entry in forever. I guess xanga just got boring, but I never deleted my site because I knew eventually I'd be back. I'm not sure who else is one here anymore or who checks it reguarly. But, I guess I'm not too concerned. I'm just going to write.

So lately lots have gone on, but it's really all melancholy. To be honest I'm going to start looking for a new job. There are just things that have been going on that have just been bothering me at work. I feel so out of the loop about lots of things there. It's okay though. It doesn't bother me all that much, but then again, it does. I feel like I need a change or I'm going to kill myself. The constant repetiveness of 5 days a week, 8-5, never changing is hard and makes the days blur together, and the year go by so extremely fast. It's driving me nuts and I need to be sane again. I need some variety. So, I'm going to be browsing to see if I can get something different. The pay is great though. I just got a raise a few months ago and they made it an offer I couldn't refuse. They're just trying to make me stay.. Jerks. =)

That's all for now.

Luv/kris