school still sucks. i have a week left grr dang school system thought it would be better to have the week after new years off *grumbles* anyhow, robert and I aren't together, but we're close to each other still-what else can you expect? there's been a lot of drama caused by myself this week, i was so confused but my head is now on its shoulders, i'm on my 2 feet, and things seem like they actually might be ok...as long as roberts ok...i can get through this.

other then the drama this weekend has been AWESOME! Brokeback Mountain was great...cause Jake Gyllenhaal is HOT lol but yeah I hung out with John quite a bit which was cool :)

meeting new people makes me happy, people respecting me makes me happy, being myself makes me happy, being around robert makes me happy, my new ipod makes me happy, heather being home makes me happy, movies make me happy, staying out until 1am makes me happy, whipped cream makes me happy, pictures makes me happy, compliments make me happy

brothers who never talk to you made me sad, AP Chemistry makes me frustrated, a C makes me sad, parents make me feel low, sickness make me sleepy, studying bugs me

and I'll stop lol. there's been too much going on to do a REAL update, so yeah

a story from Genesis through my eyes

Happily I follow you
I step in your prints
Entrusting my diminutive life
Within your molds

Happily I follow you
All seems fair and lucid
You smile shyly
As the dawn light makes our path

Happily I follow you
My dismal future
Whispered underneath gray clouds
Chains me to your faith

Happily I lay here
Fear within my eyes
Trembling pleas choke my breath
As you stand by my side

Happily I lay here
Waiting for he be told
Battered, confused
Why do I still trust you?

Happily I lay here
Wondering fates next trial
Hating and yet loving
You’re still my father

Happily I realize
In the end you’ve always loved me
I close my eyes
And let it flutter away

Happily I hear
The bonds broken, renewed
By your side I stand
Now, forever, always

ryan loves the memory of him and caroline...i dont think he actually loves HER anymore...and I'm scared robert and I will turn out that way. ryan and caroline have a crappy relationship and things just keep going downhill...roberts parents are splitting us apart and I'm scared we won't know each other anymore and then we'll just love each other for what we remember....i dont want that.

scott is having his party tonight and I can't go cause i'm still at my moms...i'll be here until tomorrow afternoon and then a nice 7 hour drive home *head thunk* not looking forward to it to say the LEAST. i'm so tired and worn out and just bleh. my hw still isn't done :-/ whatever.