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Name: Stephanie
Birthday: 1/2/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: My God, family, friends, laughing, dreaming, B-ball, softball, swimming, roller blading, horseback riding, Sky Diving, fashion design, travelling...oh and dancing.
Expertise: Media, Fashion Design, Sports...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Center For Creative Media
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
8/23/2005
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"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others (MOVIE: Couch Carter)."
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| "I believe in love even when I don't feel it."Driving in my car tonight I heard that lyric and I thought wow that is my life. See I'm a dreamer...always have been...and destined to always be...and dreamers like me believe in love. Love is what keeps us going. The push to love others and also the yurn to be loved in return. It comes with a down side, a string attached really should I say...because even though the belief in love resides in us- it is not always there! We can always feel endless moments of love, tears of happiness, or warmth of someone's touch. Sometimes, with the absence of feeling love we forget to feel at all...to smile at a stranger, to hug your loved one's, to stay in touch. So with this absence of what we feel we must not forget that the Sun does not stop shining when it is night...day will come- but we must wait for morning light...that is when it shines with all it's colors. Hope is what keeps that love alive even when I don't feel it. I feel that way about God. I always tell Him that it's hard to love Him...sometimes I don't want to love Him but that doesn't mean I will stop. I'm twenty three now since January and what I have learned thus far is living life goes beyond our feelings...sometimes we must just live...we must be. And whether being in this life is hard or not we must live it and learn to love through out our time. There is so much I would continue to say...so many experiences from last I wrote but I will save it for another day. I want to start writing more often...not for comments or for other to take pleasure in my writing or tell me "thats deep" or "your so amazing Stephanie"...but this is for me...I don't want my time hear to be wasted or forgotten...I want to know that God has done a work in me. I need to know and be reminded.
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| Two more months of CCM. I pray that God uses me in a great wat at this time. I pray that he opens my heart to the world.  God I don't know were you will lead me but lead me in your ways. Teach me to share in your suffering and rejoice in my sufferings. God open the doors. Mark the path. Leave me not in the dark. Even a flicker of a light can help show the path. Watch my steps. God teach me to be a woman of prayer that intercedes for your people. God you are doing a work in me...DONT BACK DOWN. Bring your wisdom and understanding. Help me to understand this world...understand your people, understand yous calling. Bring me closer to that calling. Bring me closer to you. Show me you. All I want is you...everythinge else follows. God you have brought me to a place of weekness that all is left is to make your name strong. God be glorified...be magnified. POUR OUT YOUR SPIRIT! POUR OUT YOUR SPIRIT! God mild me into the woman that you desire. Show me you heart. Hear your heart beat. I want to more to that beat. Come Lord Come burn our hearts on fire.
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| ![m_49998e511bbf1e3a64a533c1830d9feb[1]](http://x7b.xanga.com/d48d5a10c3630120104484/z86441999.jpg) I long to accomplish some great and noble task, but is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble.” -Helen Keller 
Uno, dos, tres, cuatro, cinco, seis, siete, ocho. I counted out loudly as the children behind followed me in unison. It is so hard to count out dance steps with double syllables, but finally after all this time I’m here! Here in Columbia. Ever since I found out that my grand-mother was from Bogotá I wanted to be here. Being part of her makes me feel part of her vibrant culture and heritage. Well, I haven’t yet made it to Bogotá, my mother is to afraid we might get kidnapped, apparently drug dealers see Americans as easy money or something and once I open my mouth I might as well stamp “Green go” on my forehead. I can look Columbian but three years of Spanish in high school I still have a hard time speaking the language. Nevertheless, Cali’s close enough for me; just to breathe in this air and walk on this soil makes me feel apart of something besides myself; part of a dream to see God reach the heart of Columbia. As I look at these teenagers, leaders in their youth group at Cali Community Church, they will carry on this dream. Now looking back on that first day teaching dance nearly a year ago, I grow excited to see all my kid’s again. August 11thI leave for Columbia to begin a new chapter of my life after graduating from the Center for Creative Media at Teen Mania Ministries in Lindale, Texas. For eleven days, Cali Community Church will be hosting a mission’s team from All Nations Church from Hampton, Virginia. There we will continue to live up to our three year promise to come and equip their leadership with different tools to further the gospel to their culture and country. 
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Met some great girls last night. Some friends of my old friend KC Dean from High school. We went to a dinner then after a movie. One of the girls 16 beautiful and black made this joke that she couldn't live anywhere with a lot of sun b/c she was black enough...that she should live in Alaska. I then said, "Well, you know snow reflects...one day you will be looking in the mirror and underneath your chin will be darker then the rest of your skin" I was just cracking a joke, when I looked up at her face it was a blank stare, she almost looked irritated and then I just started laughing and I couldn't stop then the other girls started laughing...it started off the evening seeming like we had all been friends for sometime. I had fun...it was good to be out I have been trapped in my house with nothing to do. I miss home..my Texas home...but I got to watch all the actor at Battlecry online. You guys did great!!!! I will see you in two weeks. | | |
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