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Yeah, yeah I know. It's been a long time since I've updated. No one really reads my Xanga anymore so I don't update as much as I used to. I knowww David, you read it. Lol. But anyways.

School again tomorrow. Spring Break was too short if you ask me. I don't want to go to school tomorrow because I know a lot of people aren't since we have a half day but since I've missed a whole lot of days, I guess it would be the wise decision to go. Correct?

I talked to Pete on the phone for a little while last night. We haven't done that in awhile. It was nice though. He's a funny guy and his girlfriend is wayy lucky to have him.

So, I have to go to summer school for geometry. This sucks so motherfucking bad. I don't want my summer to be shortened because my teacher can't fucking teach right. She never explains ANYTHING and it pisses me off. I wish I had Mrs. Bermudez but nooooo. I get the hard teacher. I suck at math enough already. Give me a break.

I want to go to New Jersey again this summer but I don't know if I will be able to. I know that summer school will not interfere because we would be going in like August but still. I don't know if my parents will let me after having to pay for summer school. Whatever. Pete will be sad if I don't. =(

I don't really know what else to talk about. I will attempt to update in here more a long with my sitDiary. I love you guys. Have a good one. Peace. <33~

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My week has been shitty. It's hard to go back to school when you're used to missing school every other day or so. I had constant vacations. I know it's bad but it's just hard. I have way too much make up work. I better not fail anything else besides Geometry this quarter. If I do, I'm completely screwed.

I still haven't talked to Antonio. It's been over a week and obviously we will never talk again. It's not like I was hoping he would come to his senses, I just thought that maybe he would be man enough to tell me he was sorry. I guess that's not the case.

Well, I had ISS yesterday. For those of you who don't know what that is, ISS = in-school suspension. I shall tell the story since everyone continues to ask. Dixie + in-school = not your typical story. So, here it goes. I was out of school for awhile because I was sick + I had orthodontist appointments. Only ONE of the three were scheduled but the other two were walk-ins. So, I got three excuses. I get called into 30-D (Discipline) and Mr. Pollet is telling me they're forged and so on and so forth. First off, my dad KNEW that I had those excuses. It's not like I stole them, and second off, I was there, so what if they weren't scheduled. Who the fuck cares. Even one of the girls, who worked there, talked to Mr. Pollet and told him.

My dad had to come to my school at 7:30 yesterday morning. I was so close to getting out of my in-school but Mr. Pollet is just stupid and doesn't even cover the entire situation. He told Mr. Collins shit that made THEM look good. I don't know. In-school wasn't so bad. Only the MOST BORING DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE. Jeez. I shall attempt not to get in-school ever again.

I'm really tired. I have a lot of make up work as I said but I don't feel like doing it now. I'll do it when I wake up from my nap. Hopefully I won't sleep too long. Well, have a good one everybody. Leave a comment. PEACE. <33

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If you ever thought something was too good to be true, you were probably right. I hate realizing this shit. I really do. "Emotions are a hard thing to deal with." Yeah dad. You couldn't be more right. Fuck my emotions. I hate them right now.

Let me just start from the beginning. Antonio and I first started talking on Tuesday of last week. Dude. It was so great. We were SO much alike. I couldn't believe it. We lived close so that was an awesome plus too. He just seemed to be like a good relationship for me to get in. But I guess I was wrong.

We talked every single living second on the phone. Sometimes until the early morning hours. It was great. While it lasted. I blew a lot of people off to talk to him. I'll admit that. I hate myself for doing it too. I'm sorry for blowing off people who care about me because obviously Antonio doesn't. That's cool though.

He came over on Monday for Valentine's Day and as I said, he gave me a dozen roses. I loved it. Every time I walked into the kitchen, I would yell out "I LOVE IT!" but now, I hope those roses die. I hate them so much. I hate staring at them when I go through the kitchen. I hate thinking about him now. Why have I been doing it so much then?

I told my dad last night about what had been going on. We talked for a long time. He said he knew how I felt because he and I are a lot alike in the way we feel for people. He said that his girlfriend sometimes treats him like Antonio has treated me. The only thing with my dad is that he still has a relationship. I don't.

I cried myself to sleep. I'll admit that. I hated it. I looked so tired when I woke up. I cried in school. I hate doing that. I couldn't help it though. I couldn't get it out of my mind. I tried. But it was impossible for today.

It's not the fact that we're not talking anymore that makes me upset. It's the reason why. The reason I obviously don't know. How can you ignore someone knowing it hurts them to not even know why? I don't know how. Hopefully I haven't/will never do that to someone. No matter who it is.

I would give up that stupid week of happiness to be happy right now. I hate this crying shit. I feel like I just want to tell him off so bad. I can't though. He won't listen to me. He won't answer my calls, reply to my texts, or answer my IMs. Whatever the reason for ignoring me is, it must be pretty good. I don't know what I did. But I'm not sorry. No, I'm not.

I don't know when I'll get to bed. I'm tired in a way. Really only from crying. I'll talk to Kevin for a little longer. He makes me happy. <3

Pete, I'm glad that everything is better between you and me. It makes things better. <3

Leave a comment or two. Love you all. I won't be in school tomorrow. Today technically. Have a good one. Peace out. <33