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| I'm exhausted with people who aren't what they pretend to be.
I'm bored with people who don't need to be something more than what they're surrounded by.
I'm frustrated with people who don't want to think about right and wrong (not good and bad, thats another topic altogether.)
I'm angry with people who don't care as much about the people around them as they do about themselves.
I'm tired of the people who don't respect what others have done for them.
I'm confused by people who have something of great value and trade it for something fleeting that cannot last.
I'm invigorated by people who believe in something and are committed to it, no matter what IT is.
I'm riveted by people who have something to prove to themselves.
Oh, and I'm going to Brazil.
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| So I was going to go see Bye Bye Birdie last night, but every night of this week has been bad. Every single night. And to be perfectly honest, whatever night I see Bye Bye Birdie will be too, and I cant handle that. It has nothing to do with the particular production of it, I dont know if its good or bad yet. But you could put every Victoria's Secret model in Bye Bye Birdie and I'd still be miserable watching it. I really hate that show. So instead I stayed home and decided to go to bed early. Which didnt work so well because the guy in the apartment beneath me had a bunch of girls over and played his music uber-loud until 3 in the morning. I was getting pissed off, and then I realized how old-fogey that was. So instead I got up, goofed off on my computer and jammed out to his music. Which would have been good for my soul....if I didnt have to get up at 5:30 this morning. I want to go see a movie tonight, but...well...two and a half hours of sleep and late night movies dont mix. So instead I sit here typing. Which is silly since Im so tired I cant come up with anything to say.
I was doing well on my diet. I was. I really was. Uhm....its never too late to try again. Right?
Ice-T is a cold mutha f%(&@. I love his raps. But watching him run on Law and Order: SVU just made me laugh out loud. Then again, does ANYONE really look hard when they're running?
Also, no one has attractive knees. They just arent an attractive area of the body. I was looking at pictures of models today. Mostly unattractive. At BEST, your knees are undistinguished. From now on, Im going to make a point to just not look at peoples knees.
Watching House: Season 2 makes me happy.
Ok, Im going to have a one-man movie night.
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| Ever have one of those nights that rears up, slaps you straight across the face, says "you are a loser", and makes you realize that nothing you've done for ten years of your life means anything at all and that you've had no effect on the world you live in and that you'd be better off if you had just sat on your couch, ate cupcakes, and watched reruns of Cheers? Yeah. Its been one of those nights.
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| Ah, yes. Its time for a new xanga update.
Okay, a quick explanation for my complete lack of updates in something like 10 months. I got a new computer. I manually redid my list of bookmarks by memory. Guess what I forgot about? Oops. But now I have remembered, and have added it back to my list of bookmarks. Which means I'll now update every 6 months, and not 10. Im sure you're all very excited by this, since I include so much meaningful stuff in these updates. Stop laughing now.
I want to be a writer for the Sci-Fi channels original movies. I mean, what is it exactly that these guys get paid for?
So for those of you who don't know, I'm directing a Shakespeare in the park show in Fremont this summer. Birchard Park. August 1st through the 4th. I'm a little concerned at the moment, as people keep skipping rehearsals. When we have people there, things are going really well, but if people keep skipping, this is going to get ugly. Ill keep updating so you know whether to come or not. But I'm still hopeful. Of course, this has created drama, as usual. A few select people have decided that my doing this is directly sabotaging teen theatre. It is not. People need to get over blaming me for everything that goes wrong with that program when I'm not there. The bed they're sleeping in wasn't made by me, and if they paid any attention to anything I told them, they could avoid most of the messes they get themselves into. I'm tired of being their fall guy. I've done nothing but do everything I could to help that program over the last 10 years of my life. I called a few board members of the theatre, and they assured me that only two people are trashing me out there, and that no one else is paying it any mind and that they would love to have me back and recognize what Ive done for the program. Its still irritating though.
A) I have been abundantly clear for many, many years that I feel Bye Bye Birdie is one of the worst scripts ever written and that I couldnt be paid enough to have anything to do with a production of it. So my declining to direct teen theatre should not have come as a shock to anyone once that show was selected.
B) I have not "stolen" teens from teen theatre. First of all, it implies the teens BELONG to teen theatre. Theyre free human beings who make their own choices about what they want to do. But more importantly, most of my cast is 20 or older. And the teens I DO have are people who have either never done teen theatre before and only came to this through an interest in shakespeare, or people who had schedule problems with teen theatre. If I had wanted to "steal" the teens, I could have done a much better job by putting my auditions on the same dates as theirs and performances on the same dates as theirs. And most importantly, those "stolen" teens would actually be DOING my show. They aren't.
C) Ive heard that I "stole" Ryan Mygrant and John Carroll. They are 20 and 21 respectively. They ARENT EVEN TEENS. People bitched when I insisted that 19 year olds be allowed to be in teen theatre, and now the same people are complaining that 20 and 21 year olds ARENT doing teen theatre?
D) As far as competing with Teen Theatre...I'm doing a show outdoors in a park. I need as much sunlight as I can get and warm temperatures. Ideally, I'd be doing this in July. I pushed it back to move away from teen theatre. Its not like I can do this in December, when the sun goes down at 5 and temps are in the mid 30's. And saying Im competing implies people will only see one or the other. My doing a show doesnt take business away from them any more than they'll take it away from me. Our show being free, theres even LESS argument for competition, since people dont even have a financial reason for only seeing one or the other.
E) I could keep going, but Im tired of it. This has to do with poor choices made by other people and me being made a convenient scapegoat. It seems to happen a lot. I'm sick of it.
I really cant keep plants alive.
I'm on a diet. Ive lost a belt notch. Thank you for your continued support in keeping me away from junk food. Even if I tell you "you suck" and throw things at you and threaten to pour sugar on you and eat you, know that its appreciated.
I am in desperate need of a road trip with friend or friends. Lets go.
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