i have no idea wats goin ne mo who am i?...what is thi world im livin in?....why am i here/...i dont even want to be here?...what is my purpose?....why am i givin the mind i have?...whyy givin some knowledge that i wish i never had never was here never existed....here i am about soon in some weeks get baized do ya not realize how ur life can change in 1 month 1 week 1 day and most amazingly just a couple of minutes or seconds?!...it just blows my mind out and never cease to amaze me...im so lost and confussed god idk what to do if god hears me remebers me wants ne thing to do w/ me after all i've done...am i destined for heavven or hell....you try to live foer heaven but sometimes dont you wonder if all im doin here on earth will 2 the end be in vain for God....its another amazement ....well ne wayzz im not as happy or jolly ne mo...black is now my number 1 color again..it always was but...yea wateva

I DECIED THAT MOST DEFINANTLY IM GETTING BAPTIZED...APRIL 15, 2006...MOST LIKELY THOUGH I WILL BUT STILL MABEY A LIL DOUBTFUL....PRAY FOR ME SO THAT I MAKE THE RIGHT DECISION... TH DECISION THAT GOD WANTS ME TO MAKE....KEPP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS