hey so im meg... umm...idk i kinda just wanna get one of these things started to track the way im eatting yea that sounds totally retarded i know.... idk my friends dont even know about this stupid thing cuz they dont get it at all and if they found out how much i really dont eat ..or that ive made myself throw up before cuz i was so disappointed that i had actually ate they'd probley get pissed....if i talk to one person about how i think im fat in my opinion or that i have areas that need improvement i get yelled at cuz they think im doing it for attention and that i shouldnt care what people thing so much.... even tho thats not the case at all ...its not what other people think...its the fact that i look the mirror and i am fuckin disappointed...cuz idk how i let myself look the way i do ....i could give a shit what other people think.... i just want someone to support me and know that even tho i know theres people bigger then me ....i still think i could improve my own body.... so anyway right now im 5'6 and 129...for the last few weeks ive been skipping meals and little stuff nothing to dramatic ...but i wanna change it ....that sounds fuckin crazy even tho for my height im the exact normal weight ....i just...idk....i still dont like what i see....i mean if my weight is so normal then why the fuck do i look so gross.... ...especially my ass lol im having a big problem with that.....gotta fix it ..... anyway today (as in dec. 2nd) i had nuggets after i got off work ....i work at mcdonalds it doesnt make this not eatting thing any easier....ha but oh well from this point on ...no take out ^_^ um so i had nuggets and fries >_< and alot of coke today... blah...i guess u could say today was a bad day.... oh well .... 
heh now see ....thats what i want....a kickass body | 
