Ahhhhh.... I wanna cry but I cant, so.... I write

Damn Xanga its been damn near a whole year since the last time we've crossed paths.... And here i am again to spill my guts.... Well if anybody that is still on xanga and still reads this stuff has seen a change in my normality there is a reason well more than one reason but they can all be compressed into one single two syllable word: Feelings.... And this will help me get mine out. Enjoy

Feelings

Yeah i know this shit is gonna sound alittle out there but: HERE WE GO!!!

Feelings are the one thing im truly scared to share
Because when i open up i feel as if noones there.....
So beacuse if this feeling these feelings i try to hide...
These are the feelings i feel all the time...
The feelings i feel i have to hide....
Everyone wonders why they dont see me anymore...
Everyone wonders why im not the same ME anymore...
Everyone wonders why i sit in my room alone....
Everyone wonders why when i talk my voice changes tone...

And its because of these feelings I feel all the time..
The feelings i feel i have to hide....

Sometimes i just wanna hide under a rock and let life just pass me by...
sometimes i wanna just get in a plane and see where i fly....
sometimes i think about you i wanna crawl into a ball and cry....
And someties when i think of us i wanna lay down and die....

And its because of these feelings I feel all the time..
The feelings i feel i have to hide....

Anyone that knows me knows i have something to say about everything...
Anyone thats met me knows that i can talk about anything...
Anyone thats loved me knows thats its really hard to KNOW me....
And anyone that KNOWS me proably isnt with me....

And its because of these feelings I feel all the time..
The feelings i feel i have to hide....

Feelings suck....
Feelings fuck EVERYTHING!!! up....
Feelings make me feel alone....
And its feeling that make me write this poem....

And these are the feelings I feel all the time..
The feelings i feel i have to hide....

This poem is for.....
WELL....
Me i guess.....
and "you".....

"You" = those that have been hurt by feelings....
and those that have hurt other because of feelings....
Feelings that you feel you have to hide....

Not sharing hurts....
But sharing can hurt too!

ALL YOU HAVE TO SAY IS YOU DONT WANT ME... I MAY CRY... BUT THOSE TEARS ARE NOTHIN IN COMPARISON TO THE PAIN OF FALSE HOPE.

Currently Listening Lyfe 268-192 By Lyfe Jennings see related

- Must Be Nice

DAMN.... Its been a minute and some change since i updated.... Well llets see whats new.... Well ummmm, I just been chillin do me lately.... You know goin out every weekend.... ON THE SEARCH...<--- Some of you know what the means.... But yeah, been gettin my work and summer school on..... GOD I HATE SCHOOL... I'VE BEEN IN SCHOOL FOR MOS OF MY LIFE AND CANT SEEM TO GET AWAY FROM IT.... But yeah im workin on the North Island Navy base now... i work at the mediacal clinic... Its real chill... As a matter of fact, im at work right now.... Yeah i do what ever I want at work.

Lets see what else.... Oh the relationship side of my life right now.... Well females are retarded... THEY ALL DESERVED TO GET KICKED IN THE BOX.... SQUARE IN THE BOX []<----right there.... They aggravate me....Ummmm, yeah..... So for all yall that didnt know what i meant when i said "ON THE SEARCH" earlier i will explain.... Its very simple actually... I've been ON THE SEARCH for a good female.... And it doesnt wanna work out to well most of the time.... Or if i do find one that might be a good candidate.... She lives far away(San Jose).... But when i do find a good candidate that lives relativly(sp?) close(Oceanside)... She likes to act a ass especially after shes been drinkin... And then wants to be all "I was talkin outta the side of my mouth" when she sobbers up..... and also likes to get mad at me even when i do go see her.... Yes i drive from my pad all the way to Vista/Oceanside to go see her punk ass and she still acts a ass..... But its whatever tho..... OH YEAH AND I TOOK HER PUNK ASS TO THE FAIR.... Couldnt forget that part either.... BUT I DIGRESS.... Ill find one eventually.... If it takes me the rest of 10 minutes.... Sike Naw.... But really.... In a minute ima just give up and stop lookin and hope that one just falls outta the sky some where and i just happen to be there to catch her... YUP YUP YUP

WELL YOU HAVE JUST FINISHED READIN THE LIFE AND TIMES OF THE KID M.I.K.E... P. 'aka' SunTanSupaMan 'aka' The Truth 'aka' YoungSlimOne 'aka' SLIIIIM 'aka' LilMiggy 'aka' Miguel 'aka' Miggy²'aka' BLACK MIKE 'aka' DAMN YOU GOT ALOTA AKA'Z...... THE ONE AND ONLY MIKE P

ITS WHATEVER THO MAN.... ™WHEN LIFE GIVE YOU LEMONS... SQUEEZE EM INTO OTHERS EYEZ.... SO THEY CAN FEEL YOUR PAIN© .... YUP YUP THATS WHAT I ALWAYZ SAY...

OH YEAH DONT TRY TO STEAL THAT SHIT EITHER.... ITS COPYRIGHTED AND TRADEMARKED... SO ILL SUE YOU... BELIVE ME ILL DO IT....

BUT YEAH HOLLA AT THE KID....

AND IM OUT LIKE A FAT KID IN DOGEBALL.....

YEAH ITS YA BOI... I JUST CAME BACK TO UPDATE THIS HOE REAL QUICK SO ALL YALL WOULDNT BE LIKE MIKE WHY DONT YOU UPDATE.... WELL THERE YOU GOI UPDATED SO.... HAHAHA... LEAVE ME ALONE... SIKE YALL KNOW ITS ALL LOVE....

2Fingaz Like A Playa