| Never Goes awayYou've become a part of me
You'll always be right here
You've become a part of me
You'll always be my fear
I can't separate
Myself from what I've done
Giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you
How can you move on when everything that is you is him. The only way i might be able to move on is to change myself completely and I am not willing to do so. He's become a part of me and so every thought, every step, every word i speak, everything has some of him. Sometimes I'm ok and some days everything hurts all day long and i try so hard to shake the feeling but it wont be shaken. Days like today. |
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| He's moved onSo he has a girlfriend are and its so bizar that it has only been three months and he's over me. I can't believe they've been together for a month now that means two months after he left me he scooped up another and the worst part is he tells her he loves her and he wants it to last forever which is what he told me too. So now i know that it was all an act something he tells every girl i guess. How could i be so nieve? How could i think that i had finally found a man who really did love me? I don't know how to handle it all it hurts so bad. I look way better than she does, thats the only thing that makes me feel better about things. At least he had to settle for something less. She's everything he said he didn't want in a girlfriend when we were together so maybe he is really trying to get someone unlike me. I think that must be it. I doubt she could ever love him the way i did. I doubt anyone could ever love him the way i did. I hope someday he realizes that. I don't think he really understood how much i loved him. So i pray someday he apprecietes that. |
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| I don't understand what it was that made him think he'd be better off without me. When did he decide that it wasn't worth working for? What was the last straw? What was the one thing that pushed him over the edge? I wish i understood what it was that made me not worth fighting for. I don't understand how he can be happy now. I don't eve know if he is. I wonder if he ever thinks about me, I'm sure not as much as I think about him. If he ever does think about me I wonder if they are good thoughts. I wonder if he thinks I wonder if she's thinking about me. I wonder if he thinks it would be so nice just to hear my voice and to hear it from me that I'm ok. I wonder if he ever cried for me. I wonder if he ever still does. I wonder if he has anything that i gave him or if he burned it all. I wonder if he remembers the night under the stars. I wonder if he remembers halloween and how happy i made him that night. I wonder if he ever sits and thinks about the time we cried together or the times he bore his soul to me. I wonder if he ever tries to remember how it fealt when we kissed. Cause i do these things. I do them all. Every day. |
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| So as I'm sure everyone knows by now my boyfriend broke up with me a little more than a month ago.... I'm sure you are all wanting and update so here it is Life with out Harley is well.... It's kinda like death. Yeah because he made me feel alive. |
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When you start to doubt if you exist
God believes in you
Confounded by the evidence
God believes in you
When your light burns so dim
When your chances seem so slim
And you swear you don’t believe in Him
God believes in you
When you rise up just to fall again
God believes in you
Deserted by your closest friends
God believes in you
When you’re betrayed with a kiss
You turn your cheek to another fist
It does not have to end like this
God believes in you
Oh everything matters if anything matters at all
Everything matters no matter how big
No matter how small
Cause God believes in you
Oh God believes in you
When you’re so ashamed that you could die
God believes in you
And you can’t do right even though you try
God believes in you
Blessed are the ones who grieve
The ones who mourn, the ones who bleed
In sorrow you sow but in joy you reap
God believes in you
Blessed are the ones who grieve
The ones who mourn, the ones who bleed
In sorrow you sow but in joy you reap
God believes in you
Oh God believes in you |
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