| | Friends' Live Concert + ClubbingOtsukare to all who performed at Sonar today! *** Today I entered a club for the first time in around 1.5 years...to see my friends' live though, and not for clubbing itself. Everytime I enter a club, I get inspired by many thoughts.... (NOTE: I'm NOT trying to put down clubbing or the people who go clubbing!) There are many girls who are there, hoping/expecting that a guy will come along and buy them a drink. I guess this is ok because there are guys who like buying girls drinks, and a mutual exchange agreement is made. In many cases, these girls are quite visually attractive, but as a regular ho-hum guy such as myself, it seems that I, and people like myself, are invisible to them. Now, I think this is totally fine, because 1) even though I think they are attractive, that's about it and I don't really care for them anyways, and 2) they deserve better. It's just interesting to think of what they expect and want...is it looks, money? As for me, I know I should just stick to my own "kind," which I think is totally fine too...clubbing is just not my territory. SO, despite having said that, you might be wondering what I'm concerned about. Heh, dunno really...just that clubbing makes me think so much! I assume (most) people go clubbing looking their best. I guess it's kind of hopeless to know that looking your best is still not going to get you that far. Still, I thought today that clubbing is actually good stimulation, because you're polishing yourself in a way, and you get to be reminded of your "position." I think if I was an attractive girl, I'd love clubbing because I would be idolized and get free drinks too. So, having written all of this, as a result, I guess they do what they do and can get what they get because...they just can. And as for me, I can't, and I just don't suit the environment. But because I don't like to lose, in a strange way, I'm starting to think that maybe I should go to such an environment more often than before, just for the sake of testing myself out. I know I won't do that though for having to pay $15, but the concept itself seems interesting enough to me..hah. I am not gay, but I have an automatic sense of respect for all guys who I perceive to be good looking. I feel an aura of supremacy around them, and I feel more inclined to do as they say, just because of their appearance. With visually attractive girls though, interestingly, I tend to relate them to the stereotypes that I have as written above, and kind of create a barrier in my mind between them and myself. It takes a while, or I have to get to know them first before I realize that they are no different than anyone else. |
