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Name: Melissa
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Birthday: 9/26/1982
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Interests: loving my Savior, Jesus Christ. loving people. 1940's pretty much anything. audrey hepburn. elephants. sharpies. music. smiling. chapstick. my sweet coby. Malaysia. youth. reading. missions --Viva la Mission!. sending real mail to my friends. tulips. sara groves. kids. DUKE. lifehouse. romantic comedies. loving my family. hanging out. relient k. chinese kids. photography. love. chocolate. movies. ministry. loving my friends. dr pepper. getting real mail. laughing. seeing others smile. living for Jesus!


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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Today has been a lovely sort of day. In an odd way, maybe.

Sure, it was rough.. especially in the early part of the day. I kept praying throughout the morning for my attitude, for strength, for energy, for me to show the kids God's love...
I've been so irritated lately... I don't like stress.

To make a long story short, God helped with all of that (of course!) and the afternoon went a lot better. Then, I went to get some dinner by myself and pick up some things from the store before the home visit I had to go on tonight.
Sometimes I feel really awkward going in somewhere and eating by myself. Other times (which is the majority) I am fine doing it. Of course, I've gotten used to it. I ate at Taco Bell, it was quick and I didn't have much time. After I ordered, I went to get my dr pepper. Well, what I thought was dr. pepper. It was actually root beer. On my way out, I told one of the ladies that worked there that the root beer got put in the dr. pepper spot. She said, "Oh my..." I laughed and informed her "Oh, it's fine, I was just surprised it wasn't Dr. Pepper!" She said, "okay.. well you have a nice evening!" I smiled and told her to do the same.

Tonight the home visit with one of my kid's family went great. The family is Chinese! :o) The teacher I work with got a bit lost (I did too... but not as bad as she did) and the dad had to leave to go meet her to bring her to the house. So, I chatted with the mom a bit and the kids while we waited. Her english isn't as good as her husband's, but I think she's doing a great job. I found out that they moved here from England. They had been there while the dad got his PhD. After he completed it, they moved here. They are originally from Shanghai, China. She asked if I'd ever been to China, I smiled and told her no, but that I'd been to Malaysia. She got excited and asked me how I liked it. They had a cake for us.. cheesecake nonetheless (I don't like it.) but I graciously ate it. The funniest thing that happened was when the mom was asking what we wanted to drink. We thought she was saying "Pear Juice, and milk".... so when she said Pear Juice again.. we said, yes that's fine! All of a sudden they brought us each a beer. HAHAHA! She had said "Beer, Juice, and milk" We told them no thank you and that we would like juice. Needless to say, it was probably the best dessert I've had in awhile.. just because of the circumstances and the people I was with. :o) The mom kept saying the whole time we were talking how much she loved my smile.. that it was so beautiful. I just kept saying "Thank you, thank you" and smiling.. the way she kept saying it made me smile!


On a different note... I was wondering today if I will ever find a guy that will love me for me and treat me the way I would treat him. I think a lot of that comes from the way I'm treated by people in my life. Not everyone, of course.. but the majority of people, yes. Some of them are even my closest friends. Not to mention, how guys have treated me in the past. I have felt lately that for the most part I am on the back burner in most of my friends' lives. They'll say they want to hang out, but I don't get called until the last minute. Or, I won't get called at all. So, I try and call them... and no one answers.. so I go about my business and do things by myself. Or they will be in town and have said they want to hang out and I'll get a call to do something at the very end of their trip. I'm the last resort, or so it seems. It's okay. That's why sometimes I am so distant with some of my friends, even my close ones.. it's almost like I don't want to get too close.. because if I do.. I "know" how it will end up.

I know I've done something along these lines myself to others. If I've ever done it to someone that might be reading, I am so sorry. Please, forgive me!

Let me just add that I am so thankful tomorrow is Friday!!! :o)


And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?  Matthew 6:30

 
        


Wednesday, October 10, 2007

I should have posted this on my 25th birthday... but it's too late now.  So here's to my 25th year of life!

By Regina Brett,  The Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio
 
To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me.  It is the most-requested column I've ever written.  My odometer rolls over to 50 this week, so here's an update:
 
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Don't take yourself so seriously.  No one else does.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument.  Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others'.  You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye.  But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Life is too short for long pity parties.  Get busy living, or get busy dying.
17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.
18. A writer writes.  If you want to be a writer, write.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.  But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.  Don't save it for a special occasion.  Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now.  Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick.  Your friends will.  Stay in touch.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.  Make it memorable.
38. Read the Psalms.  They cover every human emotion.
39. Get outside every day.  Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Don't audit life.  Show up and make the most of it now.
42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
44. Envy is a waste of time.  You already have all you need.
45. The best is yet to come.
46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
48. If you don't ask, you don't get.
49. Yield.
50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.



Saturday, September 15, 2007

current ramblings

I don't even know how to start this out.

I'm so irritated right now. And, really I've been irritated for a few weeks now. But, it's been a lot of different things that have been the irritant.

One of the biggest irritants in my life right now is fake people. Wow! It is extremely aggravating when people talk one way and act a totally different way. People, be true to yourself above all, but be true to others! Ever heard of the saying, "Do unto others as you would have them do to you"?

People will figure out the real you* sometime. You might have people fooled for now, and even if it takes a few more years... they will find out you are all "talk" to impress them. There is no need to cover up. You CAN be loved and accepted for the real you. People just need to see who the real you is. The need to impress people is so overrated... worry about what your Father in Heaven thinks!! Is He impressed with who you are now and where you're taking yourself? If not, something needs to change. We are ultimately accountable to God.

Another irritant is people complaining about how they feel all the time. I have no problem listening to people talk about how they feel... really. I enjoy talking to people and hearing their story. But, that's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about when people talk so much about how bad they feel. And how bad their head hurts one day. I'm not downplaying their pain. I'm sure it is bad. But, when I've had a migraine everyday of my life (yes, twenty-four/seven) for the past 6 and a half years... I get a little irritated. Just a little. Especially when on that certain day, I'm so overwhelmed with life in general and I'm in extreme pain with my migraine at that time. I usually don't talk about my head, well because I don't want to be one of those people that "complain" or vent all the time. Even when my kids at work have screamed pretty much all of the 8 hours we're at the CDC, I still don't say anything. I just don't see the need to complain about it. I talk to God about it... people know about it and are praying for me and for this migraine... why complain? Yes, I do have my days when I do complain.. but for the most part no one knows all the pain I am in every moment. No one except the One who needs to know.

Those are the two biggest irritants at the moment... I've been praying about my feelings about these two things. I am trying to get better at not being so irritated at this season in my life. It usually takes A LOT to get me irritated. I'm a pretty easy going girl. I get along with pretty much everyone... all kinds of people from all walks of life and all ages. I've always been that way.

I guess the reason I really wanted to write about this stuff is because I am so easy going, and I am usually not this irritated. I wanted to share my struggles, so people will know I'm not perfect & I don't have it all together. I need God's grace and forgiveness as much as the next person. I also need other people praying for me.

Please pray for me about this! And pray for the people/things irritating me. (no, seriously..)


"O Jacob, how can you say the LORD does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint." -Isaiah 40:27-31





*you is generalized in this part of the post.


Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Last week was an incredible experience.  I can't really put into words what all happened.... but my God is amazing & He works in incredible ways!

God's call on my life was reaffirmed and I have even more confidence in it than I think I've ever had. 
For as long as I can remember (and if you know me pretty well, you know this about me), I've felt God's calling in my life in ministry and missions.  I've never had a clear calling such as "Move to Russia for 2 years".  But, I have been called to minister daily to everyone I come in contact with.  I've been called/given a passion to work with children and youth.   I've been called to do mission work in Texas, Malaysia (twice), & Canada.  I know those trips were specifically orchestrated for me to go on by God.  I have learned so much about myself and my God through those experiences.  He has put wonderful people in my life that have encouraged, blessed, &/or inspired me in some way.  They have drawn me closer to God and made me search deeper as to who I am in Him.  These people and what I've learned have helped me grow spiritually, and I am a different person because of it. 

You know when you see a glimpse of something God has in store for you?  Do you know how beautiful that is??  Wow.  I can't imagine what He has planned for me!  "I want to set the world on fire, until it's burning bright for You."

One of the biggest desires & calls I've always had, is to be in ministry/missions with whoever I marry.  That's how I've always seen my life.  My friends in college used to make jokes about how I was going to be a preacher's wife.  I was given hope last week.  I met 4 young people (3 ladies and 1 guy) who have a passion for God and his work in this world.  They inspired me and encouraged me in ways they will probably never know.  I felt so encouraged last week in just meeting them.  I was even more encouraged after getting to talk to 2 of them.  So many times I really do feel like there aren't other people around with a call/passion similar to mine.  And that's why I was so encouraged last week in meeting them and seeing what they are doing/want to do.  It also gave me hope to my desire/call in my life.  I'm not sure what the future holds for me.  I'm not saying I have to have a husband to be in ministry or missions or whatever, because I don't.  I'm just saying that being in ministry with my husband is something I've always seen myself doing.  Of course it helps if there is a guy in the picture!  haha.  Nah, I know God has it all worked out.  I'm just waiting on His timing.

O Jacob, how can you say the LORD does not see your troubles? O Israel, how can you say God ignores your rights? Have you never heard?  Have you never understood?  The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth.  He never grows weak or weary.  No one can measure the depths of his understanding.  He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless.  Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion.  But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.  Isaiah 40:27-31



Thursday, July 26, 2007

Wow.  I didn't know it had been so long since I last posted something.  The month of July has been extremely busy for me.  I haven't had much time to think.. or remember things!  haha

Let me try and remember the big things that happened this month...

I went on a date.
I had a big project due in my summer class... my group got an A on the presentation.
My summer class ended this past Tuesday!
I leave for Canada on a mission trip TOMORROW!

If I forgot anything "big" that happened this month... I'm sorry... there's a lot I'm thinking about right now trying to get everything done for my trip!  haha.

I hope everyone has a great rest of July, and a wonderful beginning of August!  Wow.. I can't believe it's almost August... where has the year gone??

No, O people, the LORD has told you what is good, and this is what he requires of you: to do what is right, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God.  Micah 6:8



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