I know I should be either studying for my AP's or SAT II math right now, but I'm being a maverick within my self-imposed world, so..... You know what? I am going to let go of my anxiety for grades, colleges, and all that crap because God has everything planned out already. Yes, yes, yes, yes, I should still work hard in school and try my best in exams, but if I have tried my best, I shoud give the results a break. I know I've said this a thousand times, but I have not yet successfully rid myself of this anxiety. Sitting beside a know-it-all in history is so hard. Comparing grades with other people is not my thing; however, I have a hard time containing my competitiveness in history because it's one subject that I actually excel in. Oh why why why why? It's so stupid, I know (I don't know how many times I've used that expression this year). Ugh, it irks me so much though! It's not even his fault, you know. I am annoyed because I allow myself to be annoyed. How convenient.

Anonymous Admirer

Ambling down the asphalt,

I spotted a rose

Within parades of splashing colors -

And sibling flowers

A gardener soon tended his rose,

Averting his gaze from the blinding dew

Resting on the petals,

While smiling at the lentils

Red as Burmese ruby

Fragrant as Bordeaux wine

Muted praise poured forth from my lips 

And admiration from the fingertips

I appraised from afar

its tender sway – to and fro

For a trice, this momentary intimacy -

Bequeathed - a blessing from anonymity