I dislike my STEPmother!!!!!! She ALWAYS.. puts me down.. in any frickin way she can!! ahhh!! someone help me~! It's like for example. on driving.... she ALWAYS says.. "Ha.. NO! Phoebe can't get her license until next year cause she SUCKS!!" and then i'm like wtf.. is her problem?? and she says oo.. i can't get into a good college.. and crap like that.. she doesn't even fukin kno me!!! dammit! and she always forgets my name.. and call me either kate or Tim.. and she thinks her precious "Tim" is like all that.. and he can stay out late whenever he wants!! or maybe not even come home..and she wouldn't care!

Then she was was talking to my aunt.. oh..wen Phoebe was little she wanted to become a nurse.. blah blah.. and she says that I didn't have a future.. cause nurses were bad to be and stuff.. i mean they go thru a lotta school too! gosh.. i just want to wake her up! and make her realize wat's happening in her life.. and the people around her!!!! gosh.. i'm soo mad!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh..

summer's going by soooo fast!! I don't want it to end.... blar .. so i've talked to my best buddy from RI recently.. gosh..i could tell her anything! Luv ya .. Joyce!! hehe

so.. now i'm currently employed at Panda Expresss w/ John Kim.. who just sweeps the floor!!.. haha.. ya it's ghetto.. and i have to wear a really ugly uniform that makes me look like a guy.. but it's all good.. i get paid.. 7.50.. muahaha.. and it's soo hot and tiring.. ah..well i'll get used to it.. i gota work at 4:00 today.. till close.. blar and i get lectured a lot from my managers.. haha.. they said i'm too slow and i need to be louder.. yay.. i get to use my screaming skills... lol

and.. working at kumon is sooo boring..trying to make little kids pay attention to their work is sooo hard.and i think my bosss doesn't like me.. cause she thinks i'm stupid... hahaha great! . but it's all good.. i'm thinking about quiting this job.. tho.. should I??

...blahhh. i'm rotting away at home.. someone save me!! haah

anyways.. today had dcm.. lol..we like waited forever .. i'm thinkin i should just be half an hour late from now on.since that's the case w/ MR. LTG haha.. and not just sit there in the blazing heat! hmm.. it was cool..we made cards and stuff.. too bad we didn't get to clean up the park since everyone left.. =P

oo.. ya i can't believe my gay sister didn't invite me to ICE along w/ my cousin!! and she even lied to me.. and i asked her two times.. *sigh* what a wonderful sister.. huh. whatever.. man.. blah blah blah.

summer's soooooo incredibly boring.. i wished i had a job like at least five times a week so i don't get bored.. but i only have it 2 days a week.. that's fantastico!! lol..

hhmm... last week sometime..i went to a bible study.. my first one.. yaY! go me! haha.. well..it was kinda weird.. since i'm not christian and don't really believe any of it.. and they were all praying and singing.. but the things they say made sense .. hmm.. should i convert from an atheist <-- if that's even the right word.. haha.. to a christian?? duno.. i'm confused in all this religion stuff.. someone guide me!! haahha..

Omg.. it seems like my life is falling into peices.. i hate.. (a word i don't really want to use) my parents.. they are so bitchy sometimes!! my stepmother is now saying.. of course guys and girls aren't equal.. girls are suppose to clean the house, and do all the chores.. and they're suppose to get married..a nd "fuk see" guys.. i mean wtf.. is that?? what year are we in now?? not flippin 1960's anymore!! omg.. and my dad was like.. takin away Kate's keys.. for no apparent reason..hopefully i'll get out of this phase of life of hating my parents..

another thing is.. why do i have to be so quiet?? omg.. i hate myself for that.. it's like i can't say what's onmy mind.. it's literally tearing me up inside.. but it seems like i can't do anything about it.. I've tried.. a lot.. LoL.. yesterday i found out wat a loser i am... i have no "hidden" talents.. haha.. i was thinking i can play the violin.. and ppl were like.. no that's a skill.. i guess i don't have one.. darn .. wow.. i've just noticed there's this one person that can see RIGHT thru me.. how does he/ she do that???

anyways.. today went to the mall.. w/ roma, tanvi, megan, kate, and ellen... then watched "soul Plane" it was funni.. i guess.. but i couldn't believe i was watching it... cause wen i watched the previews i was like.. omg.. that movie's sooo stupid.. haha..then went to Erick's house to watch "The Eye 2". .. it was scary.. well not as scary as the first one.. and i so don't have the eyes like the evil ghost girl! haha..

oo.. ya and i didn't get the job as the lab assistant.. it was really.. gay.. he said he hired someone w/ a little bit of work experience... when he was the one that didn't ask me if i hadworked before.. omg. so gay.. but tomorrow i have an interview..at Kumon.. hopefully i get it.. it's better than no job..hehe. ok.. i've said enough..