Back from Cali...You'd think I'd be more happy and relaxed, but I'm not...I'm actually more depressed now than I was before I left..After how many years of not seeing my family there, it just depressed me, becuase for once in a long time, I was happy. Reguardless of the stupid shit my mom kept doing to me while I was over there. I was happy for once. I wana thank my family there for giving me a reason to keep facing my struggles here so that one day I can succeed and just move out there and away from the fucked up people, stress, and drama here. My brother and I even began to cry before we boarded the plane for "home" and we still have yet to smile. I miss it so much over there, and no offense to the few  who have been there for me over here, but I really don't think I deserve the shit that goes on here, and not that I don't appreciate the stuff you do for me, but life there is different for me over there. I can't wait until next year, hopefully I can stay longer than a week, maybe a month or two before college, Lord knows I deserve it after all the drama and shit that goes on here from people who supposedly "cared". At least now I know there's more family out there that does care and does give a shit about other things other than themselves.  Anyways I gotta put this picture on blast:

  

from the left: Me, Garlene, Joey, and Jun
I miss you guys....