Believe it or not

sometimes even the happiest people put on facade's and can make other people believe they're always happy and nice. Not that I know anyone like that, of course. Anyway, life has improved so much since my last entry. One, I am attending the Lehigh Valley Women of Distinction Awards Dinner and I am a Co- MC. I absolutely can not wait, but I do have to kick a few bad habits by then. So do not allow me to use the words, hi, um, like, whatever, anyways, or any other improper words, and 2 call me by Jennifer, even though I am not a big fan of jennifer. 3. You may not laugh when I practice handshakes with you. And 4, if I am not sitting/ standing with good posture, tell me, because i unconsciously slouch. And as my friends I expect you to sign on to these tasks and embrace them, LOL, because I have. Who knew proper etiquette could be so fun. Oh and I may have  to work on formal introductions so if I do that, don't freak out.

Love,

Jennifer

So i thought i would enjoy easter break, but its been miserable I screwed up at the info booth, and accidently recorded that i sold an  extra stamp book, and i got the day confused yesterday and gave people the wrong easter information and all i want to do is cry. I feel like such a screw up right now and i hate it. It feels like i can't do anything right.

EASTER BREAK!!!!

Thank God it is finally Easter Break! Anyway, I absolutely can't wait because my favorite cousins are coming to visit on Saturday. Which is pretty awesome, and I am so excited, plus easter is warmer then Christmas so we can go outside. It might be helpful to know that they are almost 2, and 6 years old. But unfortuanately, it looks like we have to clean the house, which i hate to do when I'm not in a cleaning mood. Oh well. Still haven't taken my Penn State Placement tests, and after visiting Moravian on Friday, I wondered why I didn't apply there, its really nice, and it also made me have second thoughts about west chester. I wonder what I should do, Penn State is just SOOOOOO Big. Oh and I found a prom dress at Bon Ton, but it wasn't the one, but I tried it on and it was a little tight, and alot see  through it was a little bit off white, and it was absolutely gorgeous. At least I found something I liked, it was the first dress I looked at that I liked. Hopefully I will have more luck.

Happy Easter,

Jenn

Guess what, I got my PSU testing info, for placement tests next year. I have to take the tests before May 4, 2006. Anybody who knows me, knows that that day I turn.... 18. I can't wait, I absolutely love birthdays, because making someone feel good on their birthday, just brings the kind of joy that you don't get everyday. And as much as I complain about my family and friends I love them all so Much. I can't wait till my birthday, I wonder what I will get? But I have absolutely no time to get distracted right now because I have my LAST government test tommorow, which means I really need to hit the books.

Love,

Jenn

I sent in my papers to penn state yesterday. I am officially a 2006 Freshmen. Funny I always thought I would be more excited. Anyway I am so pissed off because I have a friend and I let him walk all over me. And he said something so mean today, and didn't apologize. So basically the gist of this rant, is Im in a pissy mood. Why do I have an annoying tendency to let other people control my emotions.Its funny because I always try to come off as a strong, independant person. But the truth is I guess I try to save everyone else, and tank myself in the process. Wow, could it get more depressing then this on a Friday night. Yup, Im grounded and I have absolutely no motivation to start my english research paper which is due in like 2 weeks.

Love ya,

Jenn

PS: venting helped a little bit, hopefully I'll be able to move on.