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Saturday, August 11, 2007

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 01:57:04 GMT

the more i grow up the more i realize how cold ppl can be.. it can be hard to be nice to people sometimes.. but its also realli hard for me not to be nice.. atleast i try to be nice... and sometimes u try to be as good as u can to ppl and they dont even want it.. it hurts when u get rejected.. it makes me feel like im not good enough for some ppl.. but then i kno i shouldnt care..

its hard gettin older and losing friends.. maybe not losing them completely but it doesnt feel like it used too.. but i guess ur real true frenz will alwayz be there..

its hard when ppl want more than wut u can give.. when u can onli give so much and u can onli handle so much from that person.. but u try to be there for them as much as u can.. but its not enough for them...

its hard to kno who u can trust and who is realli honest w/ you..

iono these r jus some thoughts on my mind..

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Tue, 15 May 2007 06:17:07 GMT

cha soo i notice i only write in here when something really bad happens to me lol..

soooo..... i decided to write in here just because i want too write hehe..

well i tried out for dance team... weird i kno lol. jus something random i decided.. but i didnt make varsity which kina makes me mad cuz i kno im good enough too and ppl made it who im posative are not better than me lol.. but ill jus try to get bumped up..but not im gonna be sooo busy this summer and next school year..

were moving again.. were moving into an apartment.. which sux.. but has some good things too.. like ill kina have my own room and it will have a pool hehe.. soo now i get to pack again! lol.. which sux n is borring..

soccer is goin good becuase my team has gotten soo much closer and were playin soo much better together... we won our last tournament..

im actualli doing really good in school too.. : -) i actualli have a 3.5 someting hehe..

the last time i wrote in here was cuz my heart got broken.. n it still is.. i still miss him like crazy.. im not gonna lie i still cry.. but then sometimes im ok.. ive already been asked out like 4 times.. but i dont want another b/f.. atleast if i do it wont b the same.. wuts the point? i think this whole thing has helped me be myself more tho.. which is good.. and too remember too care about every one and not reluy one person to make me happy..

n ya thats a quick summery lol..

k ttul

~~*ashley*~~

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 00:35:34 GMT

today has honestly been the worst day of my life... my b/f that ive had for like a yr jus broke up w/ me... and i honestly cant take it... i dont even kno wut to do w/ myself.. ive nvr cried this hard in my life.. i feel like breaking down falling asleep and nvr waking up.. i guess im writing in here cuz i kno he wont read it..
but i truly do still love him more than ive loved ne one..

Friday, February 02, 2007

Fri, 02 Feb 2007 05:46:28 GMT

wow i havnt writton on here in freakin FOREVER

how evryone doing??

haha i bet no one will read this..

peace

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Sat, 12 Aug 2006 03:15:01 GMT

well i realli havnt written in her forever so i doubt ne one will look at it.. which is ok.. i jus wanted to write down my thoughts..

well a kid i knew and who was realli good frenz w/ a bunch of my frenz died wed from drowning.. i sadly didnt kno him vry well but it hurts me to c so many of my friends in so much pain.. i just want to make sure im a good friend and that im here for all of them.

i pray for his family and his g/f he was going to ask out today and his close friends...

life goes by so fast and u might not live long enough to live a full life.. it can be taken in an instant.. or one of ur frenz lives could b gone tomorrow.. no one expects to die. or for someone close to them to die.. but it happens and it could happen to you..

i dont kno wut i would do if one of my best friends or family members died.. i wonder tho how ppl would react if i died.. who would cry n who would care.. i will nvr kno.. but i wonder..

live life like it is ur last day...

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Tue, 02 May 2006 14:16:11 GMT

life is borring................................................................................

Friday, March 17, 2006

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 20:45:36 GMT

hey evry one who still bothers to look at my page.. well a couple days ago i came apon somthing about a boy we knew... i was frenz w/ his sister who i danced w/.. i found out he commited suiscide.. i didnt evr kno him vry well but the affect of his death is still there.. i cant imagion wut his family is going through... jus the thought of somthin like that happening makes me wanna cry.. idk wut i would do if someone close to me commited suiscide.. so ne one who reads this plz pray for nicks family and friends...

well every thing here is alright.. kinda borring and there isnt any personal space.. but its ok.. skool is going ok.. and soccer well it was starting to fall apart w/ gurlz being all drama. but a couple of gurlz quit and i think its for the better.. so i hope evry thing w/ soccer gets better...

kk ttul

*ashley*

Friday, March 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Mar 2006 18:51:00 GMT

well for maybe the two ppl who might actualli read this... we moved... but not to the house we were goin to move because the deal w/ those ppl didnt work out.. i cant go into ne more detail then that.. soo we are actualli stayin w/ the kvetons.. ya its weird.. but were onli gonna b here for bout 3 months.. im back in ma old naighborhood.. lol its kool. pretti weird but ill get to c some of ma old frenz...

skool is goin ok.. im soo glad there is onli like 3 months left.. woo hoo...

ya thats all i can think to say..

kk ttul

ashley

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Jan 2006 04:39:54 GMT

ok im here again...

soo were moving... by the end of feb but we dotn kno where.. i hope its in barlow area... i hope soo bad.. but skool is ok... i hung out w/ a couple of gurlz at ma skool.. it was fun there pretti crazy.... idk i cant think of much to say...

im bored lol

ok ttul

ashley

Friday, January 06, 2006

Fri, 06 Jan 2006 05:02:07 GMT

hmmm... soo right now im on my brak from skool.. some of it has been fun and most of it has been super borring.... i have started soccer practice... its pretti hard and cold.. my coach picks on me more than he does other ppl iono y tho... but ill jus have to work harder....

when i have been goin to skool its been ok.. still pretti borring but its aight....

my xmas was ok... i didnt get a whole lot but thats ok im used to it and i dont realli care bout presents ne wayz.. tiff n matt came over so i had fun..

new years was fun we went down to monmaith to ma cuzins house.. we stayed the night over there.. it was fun but lol i didnt even kno it was midnight.. all of a sudden fire works went off so i was like o it must be midnight...

lol yaa thats bout it... or all i can think of

i hope every one had an awsome xmas n new years!!

ashley