illusion never changed into something real

Hello again, it's you and me-kinda always like it used to be.
Sippin' wine, killing time, trying to solve life's mysteries.



Why be concerned with things you have no control over?
What good is it to worry when you never really know
what's going to happen, tomorrow is just another day.
You'll find your way & you'll be okay.

Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we are? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?



It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together



And I don't know why but with you I'd dance
in a storm in my best dress, fearless.



you can spend minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation, trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened..or you can just leave the pieces on the floor, and move the fuck on.



Her heart is breaking as she's staring at every single girl that walks by, somehow thinking that they're better than her. & tonight, she'll lie awake & tear herself down, cause that's what she`s best at. She's just one of those girls that no matter how many times she's told, never believes that she's beautiful.




I'm miles from where you are,
I lay down on the cold gound
 I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms



We are not the same persons this year as last, nor are those we love. It is happy chance if we, changing, continue to love a changed person.




There's always something left
if two people really loved each other.
-Town & Country



A person is never as quiet or unrestrained as they seem. Or as good, as bad, as vulnerable, as strong, or as sweet. We are thickly layered, page by page, behind simple covers. And love - it is not the book itself, but the binding. It can either rip us apart or hold us together.

everything's wasted time again..

Someday we might find some sacred place in time,
but until then all we will share are dreams left behind.



You'll make it up, you'll tell a lie.
Pretend you're real, go on and try.
Praise yourself. It’s all ok, it gets easier, it gets easier.
So take your pills, blur your life.
Forget you were ever there, to enjoy the ride.
And bite your lip, swallow your pride.
How long has it been for you, since you felt alive?



And don't come to me when your life turns to shit. Cause I've got a list of things I'd like to say to you, and you can't handle it. I didn't want you to end up this way. But it's the path you chose to go, and i'll be more than happy to say, "I fucking told you so"
-brokenwingsnvrheldmeback




You do your thing and I'll do mine. You are you and I am I. And, if in the end we end up together, it's beautiful.
- Boy Meets World :)




Listen, I know it's been a few years now, but you've never really left somehow. And I never believe a word they said, but there's not a day you're not somewhere in my head. You taught me all I know about love and real love, and I'll never be greatful enough. And I know if we could turn back time, that we could appreciate what was yours and mine. And I can't say that I regret a thing, or that I'd have it any other way, and I know we always said forever baby, so maybe we can keep our word someday.
-brokenwingsnvrheldmeback






Can I lay in your bed all day?
I'll be your best kept secret
and your biggest mistake.






Breakdown. I can't take this. I need somewhere to go. I need you. I'm so restless. I don't know what to do. Cause we've had our rough times, been fighting all night. And now we're just slipping away. So if you'll give me this chance to make the wrongs right, to say, "don't, don't, don't walk away". I promise I won't let you down if you take my hand tonight. I promise we'll be just fine this time, if you take my hand tonight.






Am I crazy? Do you not feel what I have felt every day that we've been apart for the last three years? Because I have felt there is this vital piece of me that's been missing. And I tried to fill it, Luke. I tried to fill it with work and friends and music. And it stayed empty until last night when you kissed me. And my entire universe snapped back into focus. Lucas, look me in the eyes and tell me that that kiss did not feel exactly the same as if felt three years ago.
- One Tree Hill




These days pass by slowly with time, as I'm eyeing the clock every hour or so. The calendar on the wall is marked in red on the next day that you plan to show. And August never felt so lonely, as December is so far away. Reminiscent thoughts fill my mind, as I'm trying to find what's next to say. How are you and who has your heart? These years have shifted us worlds apart. How is it possible that I'm still so in love? I'm in too deep with you looking down from above. Two different people now with two different lives. Wondering if the flame they had is still alive. One's still searching for reasons while the other doesn't care. Maybe it's apparent that the flame was never there.





I remember when you came with me that night
You said forever, that you would never let me go
But here I am again, with nothing left inside
No I don't wanna, but I gotta, let you go












Lately my mind's been in such a haze. Here Without You's been on repeat for days. Emptiness is all I find anymore. I can't even pick myself up off the floor. All your words are running through my head. No wonder why I lie awake in bed. I try and I try but I can't replace. There's no man that's man enough to fill your space. My mind is a mess wondering if you still care. Please look in your heart, tell me I'm still there.  Maybe after these years that make our life.. I'll get my dream of being your wife.







I have an uncanny ability to make boys fall in love with me,
yet I can't get back the only boy I've ever fallen in love with.

I breathed you in and now I'm in too deep, don't think I'm pulling through, can't get enough of you.

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all, and it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you




So, this is my life. And I want you to know
that I am both happy and sad and I'm still
trying to figure out how that could be.




You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you







When I see your smile tears roll down my face, I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one




Its thoughts like this that catch my troubled Head
when you're away when I am missing you to death





I feel the beating of your heart. I see the shadows of your face. Just know that wherever you are, yeah I miss you, and I wish you were here.



I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much. I didn't know it was possible to be so deep in love that it effects your entire life. I've never been in love until now. I thought I was in love before, but I wasn't. I am now, I am completely, madly in love with him. I've never felt a feeling so wonderful and a pain so excrutiating. I am filled with mad desire and heartache. This boy shines brighter than sun. There is no competition nor there ever will be. And the sad part is, I didn't even fall in love with him until he was gone, out of reach. When I had him I didn't care. But now he's gone and he's all that is on my mind, every second of the day. He is the reason I wake up in the morning. Just seeing a glimpse of his face makes it seem like everything's gonna be okay. Hearing his voice makes me melt to the ground. I'm on my knees. He makes me happy, he gives me hope. And knowing I don't do that to him, well there's nothing in the world that could possibly hurt worse.



So tell me tell me is there somebody else?
Because I don't plan on taking chances with the cards I've been dealt.
When wishful thinking is the only thing I've got.



i don't need a rose, i want a daisy you picked for my hair.
i dont want a fancy box of chocolates, i want a burnt cookie
that you made just for me. i don't want to go to some upscale
restaurant, let's just have a picnic in the park. we don't have
to go to prom, we can just dance on my front porch until
we fall asleep in eachother's arms.




i just wanna stare at your beautiful eyes, and fall
asleep in your arms because i know that i'm always
going to be happy with you.



sometimes when you're around, i can't breathe. not
because i don't know what to say, but it's like you
give me this overwhelming feeling and i admit it,
i love it.

But you caught my attention
You built on the tension
And you left me wanting more
Now I don't know what to do with myself
I don't want nobody else



but at the same time we're still young
We have the time to realize that we were wrong






don't you see?
i'm not the only one for you
but you're the only one for me.

I hope you need this now, cause I know I still do..

You remind me of the times
when I knew who I was
but still the second hand will catch us
like it always does.



I turn my back and walk away, away from the pain
Screaming loud, drowning out by the sound of the rain
Listen up, I've had enough of all this waiting
I need you more right now than I ever did



So far away from where you are
These miles have torn us world's apart
And I miss you



So far away from where you are
I'm standing underneath the stars
And I wish you were here



I miss all the little things
I never thought that they'd mean everything to me



If it makes you happy
then why the hell are you so sad



I can see myself waking up next to you, your face being the first
thing I see everyday, with that bed head hair and that sleepy smile.



He's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I'd hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain
His hair reminds me
Of a warm safe place




She didn't giggle or blush when she saw him.
She didn't write his name all over pieces of
paper. She simply lived with his face in her
heart all the time. A kind of sweet, hurtful
ache.



Well, I thought that we could sit around and talk for hours about things that I couldn't say to you and things that we could never do, and this conversation has had no face. When the words take days, you can re-write and erase anything. You know my heart knows all this. And I'll borrow words from all my favorite paragraphs to write all of these faded things we hope would mean the most to me. And each line is sent. I have found a new page of hope for the days when I feel like I've lost everything.



While you were sleeping, I figured out everything: I was constructed for you and you were molded for me. Now I feel your name, coursing through my veins. You shine so bright, it's insane. You put the sun to shame. If you need anything, just say the word-I mean anything.



Don't mind, I don't care, as long as you're here. Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again, you'll just come back running, holding your scarred heart in hand. It's all the same.  And I'll take you for who you are if you take me for everything. And do it all over again-it's always the same.



If I don't listen to the talk of the town, then maybe I can fool myself. I'll get over you, I know I will. I'll pretend my ship's not sinking. And I'll tell myself I'm over you cause I'm the king of wishful thinking.




You were the switch on the wall in the dark of the hall I'm still fumbling for.




the world will tell you who you are
until you tell the world.



I wanna get to the point where no matter what happens, no matter how long we go with out being together, no matter how many fights we get in; that all we need is a kiss and suddenly we remember why we love each other so much.



I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you.



he was my escape and sometimes
that can feel an awful lot like love

So I'll waste these nights for a while, but I'll be holding onto you forever

 

Sometimes when I'm far away from you, I get a little lost, a little out of my element. I miss the way your body burns when we melt alone





all because of you, I haven't slept in so long
when I do I dream of drowning in the ocean
longing for the shore, where I can lay my head down
inside these arms of yours
all because of you, I believe in angels
not the kind with wings, no not the kind with halos
the kind that bring you hope
when home becomes a strange place
I'll follow your voice, all you have to do is shout it out

i may not be with him, but he's still my world. he's still the one thing worth holding onto. the true test of love is no matter how long you two go without talking, he will always find a way back into your heart. no matter how hard you try to forget him, you can't. it's the little things that mean the most, but break your heart all the same. it's those times when a song comes on & immediately you cry missing him, wanting him,  needing him. Just wishing he thinks about you, and he has never forgot the memories you two have, means everything. Just the small thought of maybe, just maybe there might be an "us" give you the strength to hold on that much longer. you never realize how much you love something until you lose it, and you're one of the lucky ones if you get it back.