I don't really have anything to say, but I just felt the urge to write. About anything. I'm sort of indifferent right now, but that's nothing new. I'm going through so many emotions in one day everyday lately that it's been a little bit hectic. I'm not too sure what's wrong with me either. I think I just need a change of scenery, something different from the set schedule I have.

I also need a damn job. I'm still in debt to my parents and the holidays are slowly sneaking up behind me. Right after that, is the new semester.

I want to move, I think. I want to get away from this place and forget everything and everyone. Well, maybe not everyone... but I still want to move. Not permanently, perhaps... but just so I can get a break and figure myself out. Go to a different college at a slightly different location. Maybe go to an out of state college, even if it's as expensive as shit.

I just want to be anywhere but here. I want to fly and feel the wind on my face and through my hair. I want to feel excitement and happiness. I want to forget what makes me hurt and sad and lonely. I want to fly.

BAM.

The memories hit... just like that.

And I don't even get a second to breathe before I'm sent back to the beginning of everything.

I went to Wal-mart with my mother and little sister tonight. My little sister was talking about a good friend of hers who was working there and when we got all our stuff, she just had to line up at her friend's aisle. Imagine my surprise when I saw her good friend... and it turned out to be a friend of mine from when I was in high school.

My little sister, who is a high school freshmen this year and five years younger than I am, is good friends with a friend of mine, who is currently in the eleventh grade, from when I was in high school.

Awkwaaaaard. >___<;;