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Name: Pei Pei Juang
Metro: Pasadena
Gender: Female
Interests: one: music (can`t live without it)
two: singing (which i can`t do)
three: theatre [props crew!] (mark mitchell boob sweat crunch n`munch)
four: reading (cause i`m a nerd like that)
five: sleeping (& dreaming!)
six: dancing (at like dances)
seven: moovies (non-scary thank you)
eight: Swiss chocolate (w` hazelnuts)
nine: Kappy's soup and hashbrowns =D
ten: deep & complex convos
eleven: te quiero your hot self!
Expertise: Being myself, always & forever. Shamelessly.
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Member Since:
9/27/2003
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| revealing a revelationoh geez. it's been almost a year since i've logged into xanga. casey brought it up last night, so i thought that i'd check it out. things have definitely changed, i did not even know what to do at first once i had logged in. =P
but that's the thing. things CHANGE. i feel as if that's always in the back of my mind, i know things change, people change, situations change, EVERYTHING changes. but with such a definitive thought as that, why am i still stubborn and in denial? i find it hard for me to accept changes in people. i guess whatever my first impression was of them, is what my impression seems to be for eternity. i grow to like who people are when i first meet them, so i am not used to them being different. it's almost as if i'm disappointed. like i know there must have been a reason behind the change, but i regret that they had to change. and me being me, i can't help but think of the past. although, i realize that the now, and the future will just be better. the past might look better from here, now in time, but that is only because we were just that much younger, naive, and immature then. and it is only with time that i have become less self conscious and becoming stronger emotionally (at least i'd like to think so). so with time comes growth. i guess change isn't so bad then. besides it'd be better to try to embrace the now and then rather than grasp the past unsuccessfully. nothing i do or anyone can do can bring back the past. why do i even want to relive the past anyways? i usually end up realizing that my current situation is so much better than the past. but i guess because i can't see into the future, at the time my present seemed like the best, til something goes wrong. and i panic, worry, sit down and just think.
it's weird. i go through the same process everytime. something bad happens. i worry, i stress, but it's mostly like an internal conflict, voicing some of the more sane and actually somewhat realistic ideas to my friends. the worst is when i create scenarios. anyways, once the paranoia settles down, i start realize that the current situation will actually be beneficial to my character or whatever, if i handle it correctly. and tada, epiphany occurs and then i become determined to do the right thing.
okay so i dont even know what i was going to say anymore. what was the point of this? who knows. sometimes it just helps to write things out, brings order to my life or something.... | | |
| long time...no write?snap, i haven't checked xanga in a little more than half a year i'd say. craziness! just thought i'd let you all know that, guess. well hoorah summer is finally here and we can enjoy it with the cicadas! ew gross.
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| Homecoming!was fun. hot. sweaty. and today...there was no school because after last night's storm, there was no power. my sister and i played scrabble by candlelight. aren't we the cool kids? heck yes we are. =) these past couple days though- bittersweet to say the least. | | |
| I CAN COOK- HONEST!so today me, my sister, and our friend Nancy walked to the supermarket, bought live blue shell crabs, some asian vegetable and brought them home to cook. I made rice, an asian sesame pancake thing, and my sister made butter noodles. Nancy made the asian vegetable into a delicious dish and i learned how to clean and then cook the live crabs. some were cranky though and kept snapping at us. And, a few had quite a grip so we ended up pulling the front arms (with the claws) off of them to separate them. so sad, but we had to!
DINNER WAS DEEELICIOUS. crabs didn't have much meat though- guess it's not their season. i'm so proud of all of us. what great cooks we are! and my sister and i washed about probably i'd say 60 dishes, pots, pans, silverware, etc. altogether.
=) good day, and good night. p.s. those dang crabs poked me through the bag so now ive got scars on my legs. there was blood too. =P i'm so clumsy.
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