| I have a game tomorrow....what am I doing awake? |
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Trapped. Caged behind the bars of my mind. A wild animal. I thrash around violently, in a pitiful attempt to escape. I watch in loathing as the world roams around free. A terrified beast, untamed. Wild. Barbarian. Once. Someone opened the door. First, unsure, I timidly stepped out. Revealing a dark, sinister side of me I have never seen before. It was exhilarating. The freedom, after years of living trapped in the shadows, I roared in triumph. I was powered by a mystical force, of which I did not fully understand. But this rebirth also brought forth repercussions. My friends grew afraid of me. I became afraid of myself. Not knowing what I was capable of, I looked for a way out. Alone, I was unsure of what to do. So, I crawled back into my cage, looked back, and with a single tear in my eye, I slammed the door shut. My sanity echoing through my head. Turning my back on my short–lived freedom I drifted off alone. But then she found me. A true goddess of beauty. Drawn to her, she glowed with a heavenly light. Reaching for her hand, she looked looked past my many faults, gave me a second chance, and guided me to a new life. She taught me love, patience, and kindness towards others. I am, because of her, a better person. I will never be able to truly repay her. But I try. She may not see it, but she is the true "diamond in the rough." One of a kind. There is no one else like her. The rarest and most precious of them all. I don’t know what I do to deserve such a special person like her. But, everyday, I thank God for sending her to me, and for guiding me out of that dreary place. I have seen both Heaven and Hell. And when we are together, I know I’m very close to Heaven. Her laugh. Her smile. And that look of love in her eyes that pierces my very soul. But I have nothing to hide. For who would hide from an angel? Not I. And though the wrong people continually abuse it, three words can sum up how I feel. I love you. And I do. |
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| Hmm not much going on...therefore nothing to say  - All of Us - - - |
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| I miss you already. Even though you aren't mine. I love the way you feel. I love the smell of you. Only in my dreams. Only in my dreams. I need my life to be complete. All I need is you. You are my invisible love. My everything. Fate has us so far apart. As if we weren't meant to be. Feelings so strong. I can't stay away from you. I'm addicted to everything of you. My guilty pleasure. My peace of mind.
So I haven't really been keeping up with my xanga lately. A lot of things have happened since I was away. Umm my brother got sent to Iraq. He will be there for a year maybe more. He says he's fine. The food's good and everything is a bit slow now. I'm still hella worried about him though. Rugby season started. We have our first game on the 13th. Hopefully I will be ready because I messed up my arm pretty bad during a practice. I went in to tackle this guy and his team was pressed forward and my arm got bent back the opposite way. All I heard was POP and it got really heavy then it went numb. I wanted to cry lol but coach says I just hyper extended it. It's still a bit sore but I think it will be ok . Other than that things have been kinda the same. Same ol' boring thing. |
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| I never have anything interesting to say |
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