x'mas x'mas, I desperately need a 'getaway'...

ok... new layout done..

but i cant find the links to read my friends' xanga!!!!

doubt!!!

all ready to go out at 1am, full make up- dressed up and everything... but ended up staying behind... shame but then gotta take many nice pics!!

good good

time to start changing....

something ought to change... something has changed... something is causing me to change..

i don't know what that is... just like why do i start smoking again after coming back from shanghai? and why is that all in a sudden i decided to be that Sylvaine I was before when i was in london?

duno whether this change is good or bad.. all i know is that i am willing to make these changes... e.g. i am willing to take up smoking again, and properly!!

this psychological change.. helping me to become a person i want to be??

life is confusing.. the answer is vague-- but no need to find out why, just accept the way things are... isn't that right?

AND everything will then, be beautiful...

Yes.. perhaps its right

shouldnt spend too much time on thinking the probable 'impossibles'..

might as well spend time on things I love and enjoying doing; and developing into the person I want to be!!

Go on Sylvaine!! Don't let your emotion pull you down!!