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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Tue, 30 May 2006 13:00:15 GMT

So, sue me I have gills! I haven't updated in forever! Things have been crazy, but God is good! Right now I am working at Coggin Avenue Baptist as a youth intern with the most amazing people! I am so excited to be work here and learn as much as I can! So I was tagged by Brimer, also known as Slimer, so here it goes:

1. I enjoy eating potato chips with ketchup...really when you think about it, it is the same as fries because they both come from potatoes. I also like cheetos and ketchup (that one is not easy to justify). Also, contrary to popular my belief, my fondness for ketchup has nothing to do with my last name being Heinze.

2. Sometimes when I get upset, I clean to vent my frustration. But then I just get more upset because who actually likes to clean?

3. I am a huge fan of Walker Texas Ranger. I could sit and watch a re-run marathon and not hate it at all!

4. I also have this inclination to collect books. You can ask Bobby and Daniel, they know how I have a ridiculous amount of books. Plus, having lots of books makes people think you're smart.

5. I am a super-organized person. Everything has its place, and I like to have order to things. One reason my housemates gave me the room by myself

6. Similar to number five, another reason they gave me my own room because I rarely sleep past 9:30. I'm not saying it doesn't happen, but I like to wake up, drink some coffee, read some, and then start my day!

7. I enjoy cooking. I am especially excited because I have some Pork Loins in my freezer I bought last night at Wal-Mart that will be eaten tonight!

8. I am an avid Mac fan! The only computer to have is a Mac, anything else is just a cheap and worthless imitation!

There ya go! Maybe some of you knew those already, but that is all I got. If someone knows something about me that is interesting and I forgot, feel free to post it! Also, I am really going to try and do a better job of posting comments and such.

Well that is all for me for now. Oh yeah I almost forgot, I have to tag people. Ok here are the rules:
You have to write 8 things about yourself and then tag 6 other people, but no tag backs!
I tag:
1. BHSCheergirl - Neelie
2. Soccer Man - Isaac
3. Those smart salutatorians - Emily
4. My little sister - Courtney
5. The coolest black guy I know - Kirk
6. David Crowder look alike - Ricky

Monday, February 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 14:40:49 GMT

SO I realized the other night how much of a moron I really am and how amazing my girlfriend is! I was playing with an umbrella in her car. They are the ones with the button that makes the umbrella shoot out. Well I sat there and tried to hit the review mirror with it and got a pretty good idea for how close I could get without hitting it. Then I turned to Molly and was like "hey I wonder how close I can get to you without hitting you?" Being an incredible smart person, not to mention good looking, she said "Well the only way to tell that is by hitting me!" You would think at this point that I would of listened to the small voice inside my head telling me to stop, but I didn't. I got back what seemed like enough of a distance, pushed the button, and watched as Molly's head went back nd the umbrella busted her right in the nose. I felt so horrible! I promise I am not a woman abuser. It really was an accident. However, I was reminded how much of a moron I am, and how blessed I am to have a girlfriend who endures it.

Life is good! God is good! He is teaching me so much about prayer and being a people of prayer. "if my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then will I forgive them of their sins and heal their land!" What an amazing promise!

Well I'm outta here! Have a blessed day!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Sat, 04 Feb 2006 11:49:16 GMT

WOW!!! It has been a long time since I have posted on this thing. Things have been going wonderful for me. There are still the struggles and temptations that are lurking at every turn, but I am continuing to stand strong with the Lord and endure through them. God is awesome!

Right now I am reading this Jim Cymbala book. I look it very much. The consistent dedication he makes to prayer for himself, family, and the church convicts of my inadequacy in this area.
I love my job at the church, and am growing daily through it. One quote Cymbala had in his book was a great depiction of God's power through our weaknesses "God is attracted to weakness. He can't resist those who humbly and honestly admit how desperately they need Him. Our weakness, in fact, makes room for His power." I am excited to see what else the Lord is going to show me through this book.

There are still a good bit of challenges, and ministry can be frustrating sometimes. But a while back a friend of mine gave me this quote, and it has endured me through lots of struggles in ministry: "It is not our loved for ministry that should propel us, for sometimes ministry is difficult and unpleasant. That which keeps us going is always and only the love of Jesus." On days that ministry is tough, I sit and read that quote over and over and over and over again because it reminds I do all things for His glory and His alone! I love the students at Coggin. I look forward to seeing my small group on Wednesdays every week (you can ask Molly)! I am so excited about watching some of these students grow and mature as they get older. The one area I do need help in, is just knowing what my position is and where I fit in. Sometimes I struggle, but hey that is what ministry is all about!

So I am almost done the 6th book in the Narnia series. I love it! The amount of religious symbolism that Lewis puts in his book is amazing! I love it because he pulls you into the emotions of the character and you really gain a sense of understanding how some biblical characters felt like Peter and Thomas. It blows my mind the way Lewis can do this, but hey that is why he is a genius and I am not! I can't wait to finish this series.

On a lighter note, HPU is getting crazy krunk in Basketball. The guys are like 15-3. I am going to go to the game today at 3! Holla! Anyways, too bad I can't play basketball, or any sport at that matter.

I want to update you all on relationship with my dad. He and I spent some time together over the Christmas break and talk often now. It makes me in awe of the healing power of God to see my dad and I talking again. I love him very much and am excited to know that I won't have to explain to my children where their grandpa is.

Also, things with Molly are going great! She continues to challenge me and encourage me daily. Seeing her around campus makes me smile from ear to ear! She is a great gal...way cooler than I could ever dream of being; however, that might not be saying much...jk! She is Austin this weekend doing some good 'ol shopping. TOY!

Well I have rambled on long enough...last night I went bowling and beat Emily Tittle...much to her dismay...but hey everyone should come see the musical Annie this weekend. I think it is going to be a-mazing! Break a leg you Bwood thesbians!

I hope you have a great day! May the Lord bless you and grow you closer to Him!

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Wed, 16 Nov 2005 17:55:37 GMT

Alright so a lot of things have happened since last time I posted.

After 4 years of prayer and the Lord working on my heart, the Lord has blessed me with the chance to re-establidh a relationship with my dad. I have not carried on a conversation longer than 10 minutes with him since Sophomor year in high school. Now, being in my sophomore year in college, the Lord has really been laying it on ym heart to be in prayer for him and waiting for a chance to reflect the love of Christ to him and show him the same attitude Christ has shown me. Well last Sunday, we talked and had a long conversation. The result is....he is coming to see me this weekend. We have decided that we are going to work on building our relationship and have a father-son relationship that we both want. I was so excited that all I knew to do was cry. It is crazy to sit back and see how long I have prayed for that and how much I have been through, but the Lord proved to be faithful and answered my prayers. WOW!

Also, today's chapel was really good. I thought the speaker brought a good word that a lot of people needed to hear. It is a great promise to know that we do no live in bondage to sin anymore! Once we are saved and given a new life, the old has gone, and sin no longer has reign over our bodies. Praise the Lord. However, I have to continue and remind myself that this is the case! I cannot believe the lies of Satan to stay down but must get up and keep on pursuing Christ. Knowin that He is most glorified when I am most satisified in Him. Here are the words to the song I am listening to...good stuff:

There is no guilt here
There is no shame
No pointing fingers
There is no blame
What happened yesterday
Has disappeared
The dirt has washed away
And now it’s clear

Chorus:
There’s only grace
There’s only love
There’s only mercy
And believe me it’s enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There’s nothing left now
There’s only grace

You’re starting over now
Under the sun
You’re stepping forward now
A new life has begun
Your new life has begun

Chorus:

And if you should fall again
Get back up, get back up
Reach out and take my hand
Get back up, Get back up
Get back up again!

OK so change of topic! I am going to give everyone another funny memory of mine of the holidays. Ok so one year when we did like Secret Santa gifts, my Uncle Kelly had me. I was like maybe 7 or 8 anf my uncle was young and still in college or maybe just out. Anyways, he had bought me a super nintendo game. It was one of the fighting games that had like 5 different editions. Well I wanted the third edition this year (it was the one that was most recent) and he walks over and hands me my present. Well I begin opening the present and see that it is this video game, but then in a big dramatic scene (I know me be dramatic...I know you're thinking it is impossible but it happens) I complained "it is the wrong one." I then looked up and saw my Uncle looking up at me with this huge face of dissapointment and embarrasment. Poor guy probably did all he could to muster up enough money to buy me it and all I did was complain. My dad yelled at me and told me how wrong that was, and then I went to my Uncle and apologized. It wasn't funny then, but it is now! Stay tuned for more fun memories to come....

I cannot wait for this semester to be over. I am really getting excited about Fest 2006. Everyone needs to begin telling their friends that go to other schools. So far we have The Afters and LeCrae for sure, but have many other bands that are "too legite to quit" that are going to make this year rocking. Plus, the t-shirts look flippin sweet! Anyways, I hope this post finds everyone having a good day! Love you all!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 20:49:15 GMT

Ok so this is a song by Monk and Neagle called Stars Would Fall (I'm Crazy). It is the best! I really am digging these guys! Enjoy!

Have I told you lately
How much I think about you
The way you laugh the way you love
The way I feel around you
The stars would fall for you
And I would die for you

Have I told you lately
How much I dream about you
The way your eyes dance in the sun
The way the heavens wrap around you
And I would walk the world
To prove that I am yours

Chorus
You’re my angel, you’re my queen
And I will give you everything
I’m crazy, I’m crazy
I’ve been around the world to see
That you’re the only girl for me
I’m crazy, for you I’m crazy

Have I told you lately
How much you mean to me
Every word from your mouth
Is like a drop of honey
The stars would fall for you
And I would die for you

Chorus

Bridge
I can barely breathe when I’m without you
I honestly believe I might die without you
You’re the rhythm that my heart beats to
And I’ll do anything because I love you
Girl I love you

Chorus

Written by Trent Monk & Ed Cash

Monday, November 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Nov 2005 21:50:22 GMT

HOLLA BACK! WOW it has been a long time since I have posted anything. I am sorry my dear xanga, I have been cheating on you. I know with time our relationship will heal, and I can only hope that you will forgive me.
WOW! What can I say. A lot has been going on lately. I have an overwhelming feeling of peace, and I know I am heading in the direction the Lord wants for me. I just have to say that I absolutely love the youth group at Coggin. Every single one of them have their own special way to make me smile ear to ear. Also, I have to tell you. I met Jeremy Robertson this weekend, and he has got to be the coolest little boy in the world. Him and I have become friends now, and I make funny faces at him during the services. Probably not a good idea but hey...what else am I suppose to do...oh right...listen and pay attention...oops..MY BAD! Anyways, I was hanging out with John Grammiling the other day, and he was totally enthralled by how cool my 1992 Oldsmobile is. I think he and I are the only two on the face of the planet that think it is the sweetest ride in the world. I mean really cmon it gets me all the ladies. Like I know girls are lining up for dates with me in hopes of getting a ride in that car! Please ladies not all at once. JK/LOL/:)
I am stoked! Right now I am downloading Monk and Neagle, Matthew West, and Overflow from the iTunes Music Store. You all need to find me and have you listen to Monk and Neagle, they stinking rock! I am in my office at church because the network won't allow me to download music. I found a way around that! Ha! Take that network administrator.
So I have this huge Biblical Interpretaton paper coming up, and I am starting to freak out because I have so much information. It is like doing a 10 page research paper on cloning. It can't be done. There is too much information to confine to so little pages. But I will make it, I always do! I also have a test tomorrow that I haven't studied for much. Really having a hard time being motivated for that class. OH WELL!!!!
Well I am ready to go home and have a break. I miss my family and want to see my little niece. She is so beautiful! Around the holiday times, I get in this mood where I want to be around family, friends, and those that I love. I wish I could take all my HPU friends with me home! So anyone that wants to come...eh any takers? I also get kind of down because I remember all the old past Christmas times with my dad and how much fun we had. I remember one of the coolest memories was when my dad and mom really wanted to keep my sister and I believing in Santa Claus. So they had my neighbor at like 2 AM in the morning get on the roof and bang around and ring jungle bells. It was so cool. Then my mom took my dad's work boot and stomped it in soot and made footprints on the floor! It was really funny because she couldn't get the soot out of the carpet for a long time. I love my mom she is so great! She would do that for my sister and I! But I really desire to speak with my dad. I want to have a relationship with him so bad. My prayer is that maybe his heart would be broken. I pray that the Lord can give me the strength to maybe call him or write him a letter. I just don't know where to begin. What do you say to a man you haven't spoken to in almost 4 years?
Anways, I am so glad that things are going so great. I feel the Lord is still testing me and still trying me, but it is amazing to see that even though I am stumbling, I am not allowing the devil to hold me down. I have victory in the blood of the Lamb.
Ok so one cool exegetical (cool word huh?) comment than I am done! In Luke, when Jesus is teaching the disciples to pray he starts off "Father." Now it is really cool because traditionally when we think of the word Father we think God the Father. Exalted, Heavenly Father. But Jesus uses the word "abba" which is a term the Greeks would use for a paternal father, literally a dad. Through this, Jesus was communicating the need to make prayer an intimate and personal encounter with my DAD! I love God's Word and it gets me so excited how I never stop learning. Through that one word Jesus communicated the most important part of Christianity: the relationship! I love it man! I could eat it with a spoon! Alright so enough of that today! Hope you all have a blessed day! Love you all!

Friday, September 02, 2005

Fri, 02 Sep 2005 15:35:58 GMT

Holla! So right now I am waiting for my amazing girlfriend to call me and tell me she is in Brownwood so that we can go to Houston. I am so excited not only do I get to see my new niece and my family, I get to introduce my family to Steph.

on a side note, I was reading the other day in Ephesians and Paul was declaring to rejoice in the Lord always! I was wondering how you explain to someone who just lost it all how to rejoice. I mean I can sit here and say until I am blue in my face that those in LA, MS, and AL should rejoice, but can I also declare that I would rejoice if I was in the same position. I would hope that my faith in God would lead me to, but I don't know. Then the Lord really humbled me because He reminded me of Job. There is a guy who lost it all! He was even tempted by his wife to "Curse God and die," but Job knew that God had a plan in it all. We all need to be in prayer for those who have lost everything to still seek God in it all and not lose sight that if they call on His name, then he is faithful and just and will come to their rescue. Maybe that rescue is not in the way they want it to be, but if they are seeking after Him, then He will provide a way for them to stand up against it.

Well classes are going pretty well. I am really being challenged to know what I believe and why I believe it. It is good for me though. I am enjoying the fact that my professors don't share my same beliefs because I am being educated as to the opposing side. I just pray that I continue to weigh what I hear against Scripture, and the Holy Spirit guides me in deciphering what is truth and what is not. I love HPU! The last couple of weeks have really reminded why I love this place. As I shared all the stories from HPU's past, I fell more in love with this place and the famly atmosphere it has.

Work at the church has been going awesome. I have made it a point this year to really turn and invest back into the student's lives. I am really enjoying it and have begun to build some good relationships with a few of them. My job description grows week by week, but hey I love a new challenge. I am so thankful for John Wilson and his willingness to step in and take care of things so I can go home this weekend. He rocks my socks off!! (Someone make sure and tell him he rocks!)

Greek is a great language! I am really not only enjoying learning the language, but Dr. Gramling is an amazing man of God and professor. He is a prime example of what I want to be as a father and husband! He has such a joy and excitement about Christ that touches you even at 8 AM. I would type my name in Greek, but I don't know how to make the greek letters on this page.

Overall, this has been an awesome new semester. Even though it has been very stressful and full of new challenges, I have been drawing nearer to the Lord and seeking harder after Him than ever before. I love you all (even though only like three people will read this)!

In His love,
Tim <><
P.S. This is the longest post I have ever written....holla! I don't hate it at all!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 21:46:11 GMT

HOLLA! Man it has been a long time since I have posted something new on my site! I am back at school and ready to start a new semester. I am so totally pumped about it although itis going to be pretty tough at times. I have some hard profs that are going to challenge me in new way but I am excited.

I get to go this weekend to visit my awesome girlfriend Stepanie! She rocks my socks off then back on again! I can't wait to see her.

Man I love this school, and I am so excited that the Lord is finally bringing challenges into my life to push me to find out what I believe.

Well alright...back to to work!

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 17:17:20 GMT

Howdy from Sky Ranch! OMGoodness the Lord is doing some amazing things. Today I had a chance to meet with Brad Pesnell (the college minister for the counselors this summer), and he is a phenomenal man. His heart, joy, and desire from God permeates from every inkling of his body. I know that might sound intense, but he is! I was able to share with him some pretty sad stories that have happened in my past, and really analyzed how the Lord is using those moments to make and create me the way I am. I miss greatly the people from HPU, and I am already beginning to miss the people that only work half summer here.

I have made some amazing friendships and pray that God will continue to grow some and who knows what is in store down the road. All I know is there will be many roadtrips to Baylor, A&M, and LSU next year!

Nothing new and amazing is going on at the present time. I will be in Dallas this weekend country western dancing because it is a guy in my cabin's birthday! I am so excited and will be so much fun. It will be so good!

Anways I love you all! May grace and peace be yours!

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 12:42:52 GMT

Alright so I am back and ready for another awesome week of kids, activities, and the many ways the Lord will stretch and mold me this week. My vacation was awesome, and it was hard to leave the Emerald waters and white sandy beaches, but duty calls!!! Alright so I am going to post the mailing address for me this summer. I am not asking or making any requests. I am simply putting the information out there. Do with it what you would like... I miss all of my HPU family. Bobby and I ate dinner last night with my family and were talking about how we miss school and can't wait to get back. Anyways, lunch is almost ready, and we have 3 hours until the campers come. Hope you all are doing well, and the Lord is blessing you in wonderful ways!

Tim Heinze / Cabin 11 / 24657 CR 448 / Van, TX 75790