| CaliforniaI've lived here for the past 4 and a half years. And I always tried to tell myself that I hated it here. I only wish that were true. It would make leaving this place a lot easier than it is. It's not so much the place cause this place isn't so great. It's hot, it smells, it has the worst air on the face of the planet. But it's in a nice location. The mountains are right there. The beach is right there. LA isn't that far away and neither is SF. But more than that it's the people that have come into my life since I came here. It's the kids at Koinonia, and the Guys of Zediker and Worlds Fastest Indian, it's the people I work with and the people I party with, it's my friends on the coast and the ones here in the valley. They are the ones that make this place hard to leave. I really owe a lot to these people. They've been there for me and have backed me up and called me out and have done all the things that friends are supposed to do. I've experienced Love and Heartbreak here. I fear that I may got through some of that again before I leave. And that girl that is finding me so hard to forgive I pray that you will one day. She showed me what true love can be. She's also shown me how shallow people can be at times. I've had several life experiences here in California, ones that will never be forgotten....at least I hope I never forget them. All-in-all California has been very good to me. It's going to be hard to let it go, but I know that I need to. I have to move on with my life. To get over this heartbreak and find something that I'm happy to do. Right now I have a plan, but fools make plans. I guess I need to rely on God. Yeah God, someone I've been trying so hard to get away from for so long. I kinda relate it to high school, you're out late all night and your parents know what you're doing but trust that you'll come home. I'm sure God is sitting on the couch eating junk food waiting for me to walk in the door. And I know it's going to hurt when I finally do. But, I don't think I'm ready. Not yet. So maybe when I get home and have to get focussed on things that are important I'll come to my senses. I hope I do. But for now I'm going to spend my last few days here in California with my friends that love me and one that doesn't. My dad's coming for a week and we're going to Golf it up and see Aerosmith and just have a good ol' time. One last big bang for California. And right now I have to go. Thank you for taking the time to read this. If anyone really did. Daniel |
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| So here it isI have 19 days left in the Navy and they figured away to screw me over again. Let me explain. So I've been gone away from work all week taking a class you have to take before you get out of the Navy. Well with that you're not at work you know. Well I got a call today at 345ish telling me that i needed to come in for a watch. WHAT THE HELL? I've been gone all week. It wouldn't piss me off if i had been here all week and knew that I had the watch before they just threw me into. I had plans and stuff you know. What ever though. I really didn't want to go to that party anyway. It woulda been weird and awkward for me. It's hard to be around her. I thought we could work all this out and stuff and be friends but she needs her space she says. Well soon enough she'll have about 1700 miles of space and never have to worry about me again. I never wanted this you know. She did it to herself I think. Well not all of it. But, if she would have just made up her mind we wouldn't have this problem. Anyway. I've been listening to Say Anything a lot lately. I really like them they're great. Oh and Worlds Fastest Indian played their first show last night. It Pretty much owned and stuff. No really they did an excellent job. They are all Very Talented. Anyway I'm gonna end this here. If you get a chance listen to this song called I want to Know your Plans by Say anything. It makes me think of someone that i just can't have right now. And no it's not her. |
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| So lets put my phone on random and see what songs play. 1. Stockholm Syndrome by Muse
This song makes me what to drive really fast. Plus it's got this one part that just makes me want to punch a baby in the face. (Dane Cook referance for you people that don't know) 2. Bury Your Head by Saosin
This song makes me want to see them live some more. It's just so chill and you can get up to it. Great to sing along to as well. 3. Too Much CSI by Greeley Estates
This isn't their best song but.... I love these guys. They're great and they're really nice. They're having some kind of band reformation but they'll keep it rockin for sure. Two more 4. Writing on the Walls by Underoath
Underoath...... Need I say more? 5. Black Rose Dying by Bless The Fall
A great up and coming band with a lot of drive and ambition. They're great live. They have awesome hearts as well. Check out they're newest cd His Last Walk. It'll make you smile, or throw a few punches. |
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| changepardon the lack of caps and periods. im on my phone. so ive been going through a lot of changes lately with jetta and i breaking up and my last day of work for the navy is the 18 of july. then dad comes out for a week. then i drive home. its gonna be weird being home again. and im hoping an old friend will be able to come out and drive back with me. maybe she will i dunno. but i gotta get going have a great day everyone |
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