Today was an good day. I talked to my granny this morning. I cleaned her house every other week while my grandfather was sick. She called me at work today and asked me if I would still clean her house. So tomorrow im going to clean and do dinner with my granny. I know she feels very lonelly. I just pray for her, as she goes through this time alone. Althought she does have family around. I see how at times she just wants to be alone.

Besides that.. Im making salads for dinner. chicken on top. and mixed with all kinds of things. I was wanting to try something healthy=)

Not that im on a guy hate thing. I just found this funny too....hehe

Men are Like....

1. Men are like ...Laxatives . They irritate the shit out of you.
2. Men are like .Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like Weather . Nothing can be done to change them.
4. Men are like . Blenders . You need one, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like Chocolate Bars . Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like Commercials . You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like .Department Stores . Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like Government Bonds . They take soooooooo long to mature.
9. Men are like ..Mascara . They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like .Popcorn . They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like . Snowstorms . You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like Lava Lamps . Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like .Parking Spots . All the good ones are taken, the rest are disabled

Today has just been a day.. Lately there have been many things going on in my family. It seems like we have been having our ups and downs. Im just lucky that I have such an amazing friend Lauren. I wish most of the time I was right there with her. But even though we live miles apart. We always have a shoulder with the cell phone to lean on. I sometimes wonder what I would do without Lauren. Its like pretty much when I have a problem she is there. Or when I just want to tell her something funny. She is there. She is there regardless of the hour of the day or night. She is the one that will tell me the truth about things and not beat around the bush so she doesn't hurt my feelings.(sometimes i DONT like what she has to say.. but it's true.) I know I have many of friends. I've had friends in the past very close. But I can honestly say that I've never had one as close as I do Lauren. Well, I know im close to Jon. I tell him pretty much everything Lauren knows. I was talking with him today about my family stuff and personal. And he was like honey you can always talk to me about things. Cause I made a comment that I feel like I need to go see a counselor. I then told him that he doesn't talk to me like a girl would. Men seem to blow things off more then girls can. I was like I can't! Plus I need the advice that another girl would do. Not what a guy would do. But I did tell him that I knew he was a ear and an shoulder to lean on. Also told him there where times where I needed to talk about him. Not that those times where always bad. They were the times where I wanted to say good things about him. Brag about him. =)

Anyways.. Yesterday was Sammies (my dog) 1st birthday. I took him to this shop called Dog & Friends. I got him a shirt that says Im the birthday Boy with a cupcake in the middle . Writing was all in blue and had sparkles on it. It was SOOO cute. I then bought him a dog birthday cake. And YES, they do have dog birthday cakes. Its a carrot cake without the goods like we would eat. It has this stuff that looks like chocolate all over it.(butit's NOT) then some yogurt. In writing is says Happy Birthday Sammie! I got the candle thats a big #1. And it had to sit out for 24 hours. So we are having a birthday party tonight for my dog. I got birthday hats im going to put on them.(baby, baily, sammie,benji) Yes they are all dogs. I also got Jons dogs a shirt that said Desperate Housedog. The shirt is red with black trim. IT's so CUTE! I can't wait to see her in that shirt. It's going to be GREAT!

Jon is on his way to bring some food I hope. Im in the mood for Mexican food. Does that sound good ? Usually I want Pasta, pasta, pasta. Brio, Lacantina,....I love those two places.. 

Well I know tomorrow is a new day. I can't wait. Hope tomorrow at work goes by faster then what today went by. I was looking at the clock all day long. It didn't want to move. I almost wanted to move the clocks up and had a plan. Till I thought of how everyone would look at their cellphones. Oh well.. On another note here is something I  got  from someone else and found it amusing..

Why Are Men Happy?

Men Are Just Happy People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures?

Your last name stays put.
The garage is all yours.
Wedding plans take care of themselves.
Chocolate is just another snack.

You can be President.
You can never be pregnant.
You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park.
You can wear NO shirt to a water park.

Car mechanics tell you the truth.
The world is your urinal.
You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky.
You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut or a bolt.

Same work, more pay.
Wrinkles add character.
Wedding dress $5000. Tux rental-$100.
People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them.

The occasional well-rendered belch is practically expected.
New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet.
One mood all the time.
You know stuff about tanks.

A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.
You can open all your own jars.
You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness.
If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.

Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack.
Three pairs of shoes are more than enough.
You almost never have strap problems in public.
You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes.

Everything on your face stays its original color.
The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades.
You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life.

One wallet and one pair of shoes one color for all seasons.
You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look.
You can "do" your nails with a pocket knife.
You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.

You can do Christmas shopping for 25 relatives on December 24 in 25 minutes.

No wonder men are happy .

This past Thursday night I flew up to Maryland for my grandfather's funeral. It was weird flying to maryland on southwest and not working for once. (like i used to do... back in the day)

It was just werid going up there and my grandfather not being there. Walking down the stair case into the living room and not seeing my grandfather in his chair watching the news. Or saying hey girl what you doin? I miss the jokes, the laughter, the bright blue eyes, the words or wisdom from him. How we use to always watch Antique Road Show. Peter Jennings(when he was alive).. 60 min. Those were his shows. And of course the news! Nothing else was to be on during those times.

Im going to miss him dearly!

Well i brought something not too fun back with me. BRONCHITIS... of the fun.. having a fever.. going #2.. can't hold any food down either. AND THE WORST of all.. This god awful cough that burns your insides every time. It feels like it takes everything out of me when i cough. It horrible! I want to sleep but the doctor couldn't give me anything to sleep that was for cough med. Cause most of them contain codeine. Which not many of you know. IT makes my tounge swell.. JONELLE knows.. =)

Im tired.. going to try to watch a movie with my mom. i dont want to go to sleep yet because i wont be able to sleep at night. Well with this cough i wont be able to do much sleep anyways.

oh well..

So I know i've not wrote in a long while but there has been tons of things going on in my life.

Pretty much my grandfather is down to his last hours of life here. I know he will be in such a better place. Wont be in any pain. It's just so hard to take it all in i guess. It all started a couple of years ago when he was told he has lung cancer. They had surgery and removed it. Did all you are to do with chemotherapy, etc. It's been about right before Christmas I would say. The doctor then found it in his lungs.. AND it had also went into his brain. They told us then he wouldn't be around for much longer. Which we all knew. But it's been the last week that has really hit hard. A week ago he could talk to us. He told me how much he loved me. He told me how much he liked Jon. That Jon(my bf) was a good one. To hang on to him. Make sure I treat him good. It's not always going to be easy in a relationship. But you just have to work at it. He wasn't one to say much about too many people. But he really did like Jon. Jon and I would go over there to see my grandparents and say hey and just sit around and talk with them. My grandfather always liked to hear about what his plans were for law school. Or like to see as he would say a young man like him with such goals in life. He told me that he knows he will be very successful. Just to hear that come from my grandfather.. Just was so amazing yet.. I just had tears going down my face. As he was saying goodbye pretty much to me. Told me I was his girl( which he would always call me that. Even when I lived with them up in Maryland while I was  an flight attendant. He would ask my granny.. When's my girl coming home. Or when he would hear a plan fly over he would say I think that's our girl.) I going to miss him so much. He told me how proud he was of me. That im smart and I need to go and do what i want to do.. Don't wait around for others. Everything will fall into place. To take care of my granny. Make sure she stays in line. It's just hard to say good bye to someone. It's hard to hear someone say goodbye to you.

It really made me think of what if I was in my grandfathers shoes. I know he has lived a GREAT life. But what if I was going to die any time now. Which it could happen. But if i had the chance to say good-bye to others.. What would I say?

Right now im just trying to keep my granny strong. My grandfather is at the house here in Florida. They aren't at the home in Maryland. He is doing hospice. He doesn't like to be in the hospital or would want to die in a hospital. I know he is where he wants to be. But I just hope he isn't in any pain. That's what worries me. He has pain med. But he can't talk any pills. It's like he is now sleeping and wont wake up. NOT to talk, not to eat. Can't drink anymore( the doctors have advised us to not try to give him anything to drink. He will only hurt him more. To not try to feed him.) It's really just too much to take in. I know he will be in a much better place. But I just wish I didn't have to see him go through  this.

So it's down to the last hours... the doctor has said.. I've said my good byes yet I don't want him to go.. I hope that  doesn't sound selfish of me to say.

Pray for my family and i as we go through this.

   The past few weeks at work it's just not been fun. Not that work is going to be fun by any means. But you have to enjoy what you do in some sense. Well working for your father isn't everything. People think you might be daddy's little girl and have it all. BUT NOPE! At least not in my case.

I guess you can just say im just about over working at Armstrong Lock's! I don't even know why I came back to it in the first place. I mean ok I know why. Cause they asked me to help them and so on. But I feel like im the red headed step-child! My brother is just one step above me. Has a company car( well wait.. the company bought him a car!), gas card, cell phone, insurance. The company pays for all of that.. Plus he gets a pretty good check..

Tiffany gets a check every week... I mean I know my brother has a kid. But gosh.. I just feel like I get NOTHING. I make almost half of what he makes. SOMETHING is wrong with this picture! Im scared to talk to my dad about it. I've made comments. Like MONDAY MORNING.. I NEED A JOB THAT PAYS BETTER>>> I NEED A RAISE. My big problem is I dont want to stress my dad out by any means. I dont want him to have to get rushed to the hospital because he is too stressed out again. I just dont want to be a burden. But this is how I feel. Maybe I should just start looking for another job. Let him know when Im leaving once I find one, and when he ask tell him then. I mean what do others think? Should I go to him first? Ok wait.. let me explain my dad.. HE DOESN'T"T LISTEN... you have to corner him in order for him to listen. Talking to him at work. is one of the worst things to do. In some ways I hate to say it but does things that benefits himself! Don't get me wrong. I LOVE MY DAD SO MUCH! But Im just HURT! It's like i've not said much in a long while. But it's just getting bad! I mean I guess you have to have a kid to get a raise.. (seems like when my brother did, he got a car, etc. provided for him.) I know I shouldn't talk silly like that. But that's just how I feel. Maybe im just being stupid. I dunno.. OH well.

Besides that.. Im excited that Christmas is coming.But im also not because I still have a ton of more shopping to get done. The problem I have is I end up shopping for my self and not others. haha.. I mean I get them gifts too. But I find more things that I want then ever before!

This Christmas I want a WHITE CHRISTMAS.. guess that's not going to happen since i live in ORLANDO! ha