Hey all, well today was my first day of school as a senior. It was really weird and it hasn't totally set in yet, but I wasn't nervous at all for my first day. Maybe it's because I'm the oldest in the school now, who knows. My classes were all pretty good actually, I knew someone in almost all of them but I don't really care if I have friends in my classes this year because I'm there to make good grades.

During the summer, they did all this construction to my school. They took out the spirit circle, which is the circle drive and it's now a 50 foot drop off the face of the freaking earth (no joke) in the middle of the parking lot. They also blocked all the direct entrances to the senior lot where I park, so I have to go through a cave, no lie. At any moment, it could collapse on me...! It's like metal beams and wooden boards together with tarps...eek. It made it hard getting to lunch today when we only had 25 mintues and getting to McDonald's took some time. So we ate on the way back to school and I was on time so it was all good [ :

And tonight, my boyfriend took me out to Houston's, this nice resturant. I thought I would probably have a good time but I didn't honestly. He had bad manners, not that I'm miss manners but I do know a thing or two. And then he asked if he could have a piece of my chicken, like a whole little breast of it and I said yes. He took 2 bites and then said he was going to take the rest of that piece home. So he basically took my food so he could take it with him for later and all night he was eating off my plate. I just felt absurd being with him and I know that's mean but it just got on my nerves; what he wore, how he acted and AH everything! I know I'm going to miss him so much when he goes off to college so I shouldn't be bitchy to him. I probably won't even get to see him before he leaves because I'm working all week, and he leaves on Wednesday. But it's not like I won't see him ever again, he's going to be coming home a few weeks later and we're going to hang out so that will be good I hope.

After dinner I just came home and went to my friend J's house. She had this guy over, C. He's really really cute, like really cute. And he likes J. So that kind of ruins things for me honestly, they even hooked up a few times just making out and fingering. So that means I could never go for him, but honestly he seems to like her a lot and it makes me jealous. I thought he was cute since freshmen year and now he likes HER?! Not trying to toot my own horn but I don't see what she has on me, honestly nothing. I think I'm just as good as her if not better. Wow that sounds so mean concidering she's my friend. I would never EVER go do anything or try anything with C, besides he is not even interested in me tears. Haha just kidding. I know I'll find someone else when I'm ment to as corny as that sounds.

Well I'm gonna go read and then go to sleep, my day was kinda long and I have to work in the morning.

xoxo

Hey all I'm much happier today, kinda. Except when I woke up I realized that today is my last day of summer. Yeah, depressing really. And the worst part about it is that it's raining! I was kind of hoping to get some much needed tan time in but I guess not. I've also decided that I'm going to fake bake this school year because I like the way I look tan better than I do pale, doesn't everyone? I know that I'm a little anti-fake bake but whatever, I'm over it. I just think it's stupid to do it in the summer when you could just go out in the sun.

ANYWAYS! I don't have any school supplies but then again I don't really know what I need yet until I get my class sylabius, so I'm just going to go out and get a notebook for tomorrow and a pencil. I don't plan on taking my big Vera Bradly bag yet, maybe just a purse. And I don't even know what I'm going to wear yet ]: I was thinking a dress but I don't know. I am going to go to the mall later since I'll have nothing to do and see if I can't find something for tomorrow. I'm also going to update my make-up collection. I need some good cover-up, mascara and I want some of the new OPI Sephora Nail Polish. They have a bunch of really cute colors so I'm going to get some and paint my nails tonight. I'm just a little bummed out that I have zits now! My stupid period caused them and I was freaking out and stuff so my face is a mess right now. Blah I'm not going to put on ANY make-up today so that my face can breathe and hopefully look ok for tomorrow.

On a good note, I get to have open lunch tomorrow! That means I get to leave school for 30 some odd minutes and go get food wherever I want. I hope my friends are in my lunch but if they aren't I will just go home and eat and relax [: And then, Shane my boyfriend said he's taking me to a nice dinner tomorrow night. I don't know if he actually will, but I'm a little excited because I love him and well I love a good meal haha.

Hm that was a pretty decent update, but I don't know how often I'll be updating now that school has started. I need to focus this year, my senior year, so I can get into a good college and do well on my SAT and make good grades. I'm going to do well this year, no half-assing it like I usually do. I've decided that I'm going to get A's and B's, C's are only ok in Physics if I even say in the class.

xoxo

My period came.

I'm officially the happpiest girl on earth.

Currently Listening Millennium By Backstreet Boys Larger Than Life see related

So I took a pregnancy test at my boyfriends, but I had a hard time peeing on it because I went right before I came to his house. It came out as nothing, it was also one of those store brand CVS ones.

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Then I went to work, I was in a pretty crappy mood. I was so worried and sick to my stomache. Then after work I went and planned Senior Spring Break with my friends; we're going on a cruise I think! I know it will be fun, and I'll be legal drinking age wherever we go because I know we're going somewhere out of the U.S. I need to get my passport though, I think I'm going to wait till I turn 18 which is in November.

Then after work, I had my boyfriend get me a GOOD pregnancy test, one of those packs that comes with 2 in case I messed up again. And this time, it came out as negative. It was like a weight was lifted off of my shoulders, seriously. I'm going to use the other test in a few days if my period doesn't come.

On a better note, school starts on Friday, and that means that not many people will be able to work except for me and a few others. So I'm going to be getting a lot of manager hours! Yay, I'm pumped. I'll be working roughly 3 hours after school each day at a pay rate of $10 an hour, when I usually get $8. Hopefully I'll do a good enough job that they will want to offer me a full time head guard postion next year.

Well I'm off to read my newest book, Lipstick Jungle. It's pretty good so far but I'm only on chapter 2. It's kind of like Gossip Girl for young adults and adults.

peacee.

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I just got off work which wasn't so bad today I worked a total of 6 hours, so not too bad.

I feel a little sick now...I think it's because I'm so hungry! I ate lunch but that was around 1 and then I had a Starbucks iced chi tea a few hours ago. Gah I want pizza so bad! Period cravings...I hope.

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I'm still nervous because my period hasn't come yet, so my boyfriend is picking me up tomorrow and we're getting a test. I'm so nervous I just don't understand how this could happen! I really don't I mean I know accidents happens but we always use protection and he always pulls out, like we do BOTH as in use a condom and then he pulls out and cums in the condom, if that makes sense. I think that's safe but I guess not safe enough...I don't want to think about this.

I need to get my camera back from my friend so I can post some pictures from last Friday on here for your viewing pleasure ha.

I'm gonna get dressed then go to my friends for pizza and a movie, I'm praying so hard that my period comes.

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