hey remember me?! hahaha

so yeah, i just got back to my dorm room and can't sleep as usual cause my insomniac self SUCKS sometimes, and so i randomly decided to update this thing. It's funny because i just read the last update i made and it makes me laugh my ass off! So much has changed since october, i like want to delete that entry, but i wont haha. I dumped that Joe kid quickly that was written about in my last entry. God what was i thinking, talk about a clinger and liar! I'm in love, again, obviously. well it's not a bad thing though - ive been seeing the same boy since October, his name is Zach and i'm crazy about him. We've hung out pretty much every single day since we've met, give or take the few vacations from college seeing as he lives like 4 hrs away from here. But no need to worry bc he's a senior here at sjfc this year and is moving here! I don't think i;ve ever cared about/liked someone this much before. We compliment one another perfectly, its kind of scarey haha. But enough about that.. this friday is my last day of classes! i cant believe after my finals next week my first year of college is over!:(. it's kind of sad, ive met tons of amazing people here, i dont want to have to leave them! But then again i cant wait to just lay out on the beach and not hafta worry about having a report due the next day! aahaha. So much has happened this year.. some good, some bad, but i feel like ive grown so much more as a person, as cliche as that sounds. I've gotten a better sense of who i am and what i want to be. But dont worry, my crazy, outgoing personality still exists:-p, it's actually a lot stronger to be exact! haha. but ne ways, seeing as its 130 in the am and i hafta be up at nine, i might as well try and get to bed early tonight. Leave me comments and i might update this more often!:)

ciao!

-alex

whoa. i havent updated in years. so lets chat. so much has happened. me and ben broke up. i came ta the realization that he's not that great - he lies to much and thats unfair, thats y it had ta end. its kind of ironic seeing as tha last post i wrote was our 1 year anniversary lol. i have a new boyfriend, his name is joe and he's awesome. he has a mohawk, which is always a plus cuz everybody knows i love guys with mohawks hahaa. he's cool tho, he let me and luna dye his hair bright red. there's no complaints in the relationship area<3 schools been going good. i got an A on my first college test! although it was hard, and i have another one on thurs in that class too so im kinda scared. I love college tho, you have so much more time than u did in high school. the drama still exists though, just to let all you high schoolers know lol. theres always gonna be girls that fight with one another (thats not about me) its actually about ppl on my floor. meh, oh well though. this weekend is a 3 day weekend and im uber excited! i think im gonna go home and hang out with skwirz<3 even tho we jus hung out last weekend lol. she truly is my best friend and i def cant replace her. but yes i should prolly start working on my eng research report seeing as i have my meeting with my teacher about it tomorrow. ekk. haha im not to worried tho, that woman loves me. she talks about me in all her classes, its kinda scarey, yet kinda cool lol. hasta luego freaks

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lets update.

college is amazing. i love it so much! ive met 93848234 people already bc i talk to much lol. sjfc is rad. they put on tha coolest events everyday for us.<3

its me and bens 1 year anniversary!!! gosh i love him. although i dont get ta see him 2day, but i get outta classes at 12 2moro so we're hanging out all day and going ta a new rock showcase that nite:). soooooooooo stoked.

ilovelife.

edit// today was so rad. i was at tha clarissa street thingy all day with tasha and such helping outtttttt & yeah dont wanna say ne thing else trust me lmao. then went out with skwirz for tha nite and danced in tha pooring rain all down main street and in parking lots while listening ta soco. it was awesome<3 i love my best friend. ppl were like "put on a white tshirt!" lmao. i love life. i love everything. i love my boyfriend. ahh read this, it's deep, although i dont have an empty heart, all the rest is true for meee. haha

there is something beautiful
in nothing at all.
in silence.
in a blank canvas.
in the night sky.
or an empty heart

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whoaaaaaaa it's been awhile so i decided ta update lol. lifes been extremely amazing as usual, and well, busy as usual. my time has been consumed between ssc, gettin crap ready for college & hanging out with friends mostly! im not gonna write all tha crap ive done in here since the 7th mainly bc i do so much thatd take forever lol. and my cellfones ringing, yay its ben! haha. i love this kid<3. we went to the bayside/vendetta red concert tha other day and it was amazing. i love jack from bayside, i got his pick and his autograph:). and i also fell in love with schoolyard heroes jus cuz they remind me of blood brothers lol. but ne ways, yesss i dont feel like typing anything else ive done cuz ive done too much. i love life, and truly live it to the fullest. haha<3

rip chad. eric, you&your family are in my prayers. god works in mysterious, unpredictable ways sometimes:(

today equal's me and ben's 11 month anniversary

gtg though cyaaaaa