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Name: Heather
Birthday: 8/29/1989
Interests: Hating you~ playing my guitar~ sleeping~ Music~ getting drunk~ getting high~ hangin with mu friends~ going to concerts~ pissing ppl off~ not givin a fuck~ playin soft ball~ writting~ shoes~ metal~ piercings~ tattoos~ guys~ guys with piercings~ guys with tattoos~ the color black~ convers shoes~ vans skate shoes~ dying my hair~ the dark~ rain~ cuddling.... thats it!!!! i think...
Expertise: ~I am my own worst enemy
I'm not the smartest motherfucker and shit, I don't pretend to be
And why I am the way I am is not a mystery
My mind's not in proper working order or in therapy
The brain's confused and mentally abused
Life's been hanging on a string so what the fuck I got to loose?
And what the fuck I got to prove to you?
If you don't know me by now, you'll never know me
You can put that on my real homies
I got problems and they stack like bills
And I relate to the broken, bleeding heart love killed
And I awaited in the shadows, awake in the dark
Hoping to talk to the passed on, I'm falling apart
I'm such a mess and decisive, I'm fading away
I'm out of touch with society and living today
Never relying on my sanity, I threw it away
To become the maniac that's got your attention today~
Message: message me
AIM:  crazyperson0789
Yahoo:  Piercing_Addict_311
MSN: Twiztid_Imperfection-420@hotmail.com
AIM:  Deadley Princess
Member Since:
1/4/2005
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| Happy Birthday-flypsyde
Verse 1:
Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I payed for the murder before they determined the sex
Choosing our life over your life meant your death
And you never got'a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you faught for your life?
Would you have been a little genius in love with math?
Would you have played in your school clothes and made me mad?
Would you have been a little rapper like your papa da Piper?
Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose?
And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...
Chorus:
what I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed
I made a mistake!
Verse 2:
I've got a millon excuses to why you died
Bet the people got their own reasons for homicide
Who's to say it woulda worked, and who's to say it wouldn't have?
I was young and strugglin' but old enough to be your dad
The fear of being my father has never disappeared
Pondering frequently while I'm sippin' on my beer
My vision of a family was artificial and fake
So when it came time to create I made a mistake
Now you've got a little brother maybe he's really you?
Maybe you really forgave us knowin' we was confused?
Maybe everytime that he smiles it's you proudly knowin' that your father's doin' the right thing now?
I never tell a woman what to do with her body
But if she don't love children then we can't party
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you woulda been
Happy birthday...
Chorus:
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (yeah, make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed
I made a mistake!
And from the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday...
From the heavens to the womb to the heavens again
From the endin' to the endin', never got to begin
Maybe one day we could meet face to face?
In a place without time and space
Happy birthday...
Chorus:
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed (happy birthday)
What I thought was a dream (make a wish)
Was as real as it seemed
I made a mistake...! | | |
| i dont know how much more of this shit i can take... he fucked up again and yes with the same girl. I dont understand how someone can tell you that they love you and then tell some other girl that he misses her and that he thinks of her everyday after he cheated on me with her. i fell so worthless... it just makes me hate myself even more than i already do... I hate that im so fat and that im not pritty... i dont know what to do. I dont want to lose a friend but, i dont want to be hurt again. Im really losing it. I can just feel every thing coming down on me... and im starting to give out. im fucked if i leave him and im fucked if i dont. i have no futuer with out him cuz i gave up everything which was stupid on my part...but with him i dont know how much i can take...i really just wanna throw in the towl and just say fuck everything... if i left him no one would want me any ways cuz im ugly and fat.... im really discusting... i just really wanna die... | | |
| humm... what have you guys been doing?... haha im writing like I actially have friends still... i forgot i dont have anyone anymore... I seen matt and lary yesterday and i waved and they didnt wave back i guess no one likes me anymore... oh well ill get used to it again... life sux like always nothing to do anymore... no one calls me anymore not even McKenna... i guess she has finally replaced me... i know im just feeling sry for myself but, i dont like being alone... i dont like not haveing anyone to talk to anymore... i dont like not being able to see my old friends anymore... it sux cuz i remember all the fun shit that we used to do... and i cant do it anymore... its all changed... maybe its all for my own good... anyways i wont be here for much longer cuz as soon as tim gets his ged and saves his money up im leaving with him when he goes to collagen... i really miss everyone alot... and i think about you all everday... plz call me sometime to hang out or something... i guess ill just have to wate for you to call cuz i dont have anyones number anymore...
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| God im fuckin tired... i know im not going to be able to seep tonight...
Tim got of papers... we got high as soon as we got back from his P.O's office it was fun... lol until that day i havent gotten high with him... lol it was fun! lol...there is noting on tv and no one is on.. im so sad lol... not really.
you know sometimes i just want to like knick my kitten out. he is so fuckin annoying...grrr...
i think im gonna go... oh yeah mckenna got taken away again... yeah.
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| FUCK YOU!!!! lol na im not that mean i wouldnt tell you to fuck off or anything... FUCK OFF!!! hehehe... i havnt updated this thing in such a long ass time... i dont know why im still writing in this no one reads it... oh well.. this thing is boring so if you wanna hang out call me... you guys should have my number if not then you better call some one who has it... | | |
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