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Name: Takkie
Country: United States
Metro: Boston
Gender: Female
Interests: learnin new things/abt different cultures, talkin and listenin to different style of muzic, watchin NASCAR/Thai lakorn/Korean drama/X-games, and SLEEPING ^_^
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Member Since:
2/6/2005
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| *deep sigh of relief* yes!...Yes!!...YES!!!...Yes!!!!Yes!!!!!
everything is all set and done...im so relief woff!!! now its just countin down the days until the concert...omg...omg...OMFG im gonna go see Rain for real, and they said that he'll be on TRL and 30 fans will get to go up to the studio and meet him...how fckin awesome is that and I'LL MAKE SURE THAT ME, CECILIA, AMEE, TIFF WILL BE ONE OF THE FANS, we have to be...im already gettin some creative ideas on how to do so...its just i have to start doin them...lol...its only 7 in the mornin and im this excited...not good cuz i wont go back to sleep and sleepless takkie = zombie takkie...lol...well that's all folks im done and out...
oh one more thing...u know the mastercard CF heres mine:
Tickets for Rain Concert in NYC, $230 on debit Mastercard...
Hotel Reservation for Rain in NYC, $846.16 on debit Mastercard...
Stressing out abt everything be4 it was set and done, many sleepless nites...
GOING TO SEE RAIN PERFORM LIVE FOR 2 NITES...
FCKIN' PRICELESS!!!
yes that right im sweaing...hell fcking yeah...im so happie, excite, i can put it into words...but its a wish thats comin true for sure
kay' gonna go now...maybe try to see or maybe try to workout how to fcking watch rmvb files >.< dammit!! i hate comps!!...lol...mood swings...lol...
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| wah its so long since i did
a post this early...lol...well i woke up early...more like cant
sleep...lol... *thinking* lets see oh yesterday was one hell of a day
for me...*exhale* so here's wat happen...its funnie now that i think if
it but when it happen it wasnt and my stress level was up to the point
of me abt to go insane (seriously)...ok so yesterday my lil bro had an
appointment to go into surgery to remove one of the strews that was in
his foot from the accident that he had awhile back, and he and my mom
had to take the train into boston cuz i couldn't ask for a day of cuz
there was abt 5 ppl out at work and the rule says that i can and i wont
have got it if i ask cuz it was short notice, but should've found
another way...SHOULD'VE but that like me im stupid and slow so i
couldnt think if anyother way that way wat happen, happened...ok so the
back to wat happen so my lil bro and mom was on the train and goin to
the boston but some how my lil bro LOST MY MOTHER on the train...and i
was at work at this time and inside the clean so i wasnt able to use my
cell but i left it in my bag and thank god my god-aunt pick it up
that brought it to me and and as soon and i hear that a million thought
ran through my head..."mom lost in a train in
boston...omg....omg...omg, how am i gonna find her, how she doin, does
she remember my cell number, where my bro, ect." just am million
thoughts and my stress level just shout up and didnt know wat to do or
wat to think, so i left for on a sick day or watever my hrs and left,
and im drive like crazie on the highway gettin the the train station as
soon as i can, all while my dad and my cousins THANK GOD for
her...THANK
YOU SO...SO...SO MUCH bong...if not for her idk how stree out i'd get
she and my dad was goin on the train to boston to sign papers for my
lil bro to get surgey...anyways im on my way to the train station
thinkin how am i gonna find my mom, then my cell rings and unknown # i
answer its my mom, she said she's at the MGH but dont know where my lil
bro is, so my dad still had to go to the hospital, and i cant come back
to work cuz im on the highway close to home now so i decided to go to
the hospital, and my lil bro had to get ready for surgery now while
waitin for a parent to go sign papers, and all and all when i got there
my dad and cuz got there also they went to see my bro and i wen to park
my car and find my mom...and after i park the car, and met up with my
dad and cuz they told me and MY MOTHER WAS UP IN THE WAITIN RM WITH MY
LIL BRO...lol...can u believe it all the drama and everything was ok,
mom was there with my lil bro, and everything was okay, and im here
stress out to the extrem...over this is one of those story u know back
and learn from it...ok have to go now cuz dad's know like 20mins ago
and i have to go in early to make up the hrs that i dont have for sick
time...omg...kill me...and next wk a doc appointment which means i have
to go to work early again to make up for the hrs im gonna miss...im
tell ya im pushin my luck at work here...*sigh* ok gtg...bye and Aja
Fighting!!...oh and sorry for the spellin im in a rush and dont have
time to spell check...and i know i cant spell either...sorry
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| *Deep Inhale* and
*Long exhale* and
*SCREAM* my lungs out!!!! i dont feel any better...actually i feel like
shit rite now...my piss & depress, happie but
confuses...sad&lonely...bitter!!...
Question how should you act if you know that the reason isnt wat you
want it to be...if you know that you're bein used (for anything doesnt
matter) should you continue to be used or should you go as far away
from the source as possible?? should you care or brush it off? how
should you act towards the situation when it comes up?? u know the
reason for the situation and yet you still stupidly give in mainly cuz
you care too much no? should you still even care?? if so WHY?? if you
know for a fact the reason isnt wat you wanted it to be?? <thats
wats in my head rite now...questions, questions, and more
questions...abt everything thats goin on in my life rite now...
*sigh*...i guess karma is truly a bitch at heart...but i deserve this pain (pain is good its shows that i can still feel) i've
wrong someone who truly and unconditionally loves me even with my all my
flaws, but wat do i do i turn around and ended wat could've been one of
the bests friendship i could've even possibly have...why? i
ask myself this question everyday...in a wimp and a cowardly way this is my way of
lettin this person know how i feel...its stupid to think that they'd
even still care for someone like me...you shouldnt, im no good as a
friend to you...i only hurt you...so you shouldnt care abt me...i
deserve all the pain that im feelin now...yet it is still pain and it
still hurts...but hopefully its more than you felt...
*sigh* aish wat the hell...bring on the bad luck ay? im already screwed
enough, so more the more the merrier rite but in this case...the
more...the worse for me...i guess in a way this is a test for me...to
see how much i can take in and keep inside until i explode, or end
it...lol...1st i crash my car 3days be4 my bday (wat a great bday
present for myself ay?)...so i have to come up with $500 for the
deductible and drive a damn rental...which means gettin up at 4.30am
pick my dad up from his work, come(rush) home get ready for work
myself, work for 8hrs...drive 1hr home then drop dad off at work at 7pm
come home, try to fall asleep...and repeat everything until my car
gets fix, 2nd i dont know how the hell im gonna pay for all my debts
rite now(another great present from me)...i only make abt $570 every
two wks...total up my car loan&insures thats one paycheck, then
you have all my other credit cards...lol...just get me a rope rite now
wont you...lol...3nd fuckin jackass called me today...i dont wanna go
cuz i know wats up but still part of me wants to cuz i care *sigh* F.U.
man for screwin with me...makeup our god damn mine wat is it that you
want...?!
*sigh* thats life rite...wat can ya do?...nothing
thats wat, but to live it day-by-day until the end comes...i wonder wat
happened to all my plans of goin back to school and doin something to
better myself and my life...what the fuckin hell happen to that goal
and dream...should i still even keep dreamin abt that?
"NO!! cuz that'll be selfish, how could i just abandon my family rite?
i cant do that cuz that selfish thinking and i cant think that way...i
was never bought up to think selfishly...FAMILY comes 1st and is the
most important thing...self-selfishness is never to come up...that'll
be wrong and bad to think to better myself before the family"<thats
what they're saying to me without them even saying it and how i
think i should go abt with my life...Family is 1st above anything and
anyone else even one's self...*sigh*
aish...i dont know wat the hell i just said its that damn noodles i tell
ya'...lol...dont mine the above, its
just me venting...i need to do
that from time-to-time, everyone does right...dont think abt it at
all...i feel better...*relieve*...lol...and now im gettin sleeply
finally...lol...fuck stayin up to watch LOST...i have to get up early
to work anyways...have to being the car to get looked at and get
fix...i just worked a 10hr workday and have to put in abt 1+ half more
hr to complete the 40hrs work-wk-hrs...lol...and i was out sick monday
cuz my back from the crash...how fuckin funnie is that...and i only
have a 4day workday for the next couple of wks cuz of the holidays
comein up...lol...gettin mondays off so thats a good thing...alright
gonna go to wash up and try to see if i can still fall
asleep...bye-ya...
oh and dont mine my spelling im dumb and sleepie now...so sorry if you
dont understand it...i may come back to spell chek it...for now bye and
nite  Aja Fignting!
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!!!!...i just found out that BI IS COMEIN TO DO RAINY DAY IN NYC ON THE
2ND OF FEB !!! ahhhhhh....this is the best news that i'll ever
hear...omg...i cant say anythin else...i cant even think straight rite
now...so happie *happie dance* (the happiest dance u'll ever get to see
me do)...omg...so happie...just so happie...cant wait til it
comes...the tickets will go on sale next wk omg...its sooo
exciting...omg...Cecilia and all Bi-ers out there lets come together
and plan this...omg...this is really the happiest day for me...im gonna
save up $$$$$$$ and focus souly on goin and seein him...*exhale from
happiness* 
nite!!