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| Cryin outAt this point i just need to release. There have been many changes in my life in just the last 3 months. Its starting to pile up on me so much that i dont know how much more i can take. Between getting a new job, moving, finding new friends, starting anew exercise and diet regimen, having an interest in a girl that i know i have no chance with and no business being interested in....And through it all , im learning this. I CANNOT DO IT ALONE. I Need God badly and yet i findmyself not making time for Him . Why ? why? why? If Amanda were to call me id be jumping at the chance to talk to her. But God has been calling me constantly and i am slow to respond. Why do i crave the approval and attention and the love of those around me when i neglect He who has a perfect love for me? I've thought about wanting to go home, to move to leave my circumstances. But I relate back to what Nate T. told me awhile ago.It was something along the lines that You can never escape what God is doing in your life. If things arent right with Him, if things arent right internally, the circumstances around you may change, but you will deal with the same stuff, and deal with it more severely. God, please allow me to truly stand still, to hear what youve been telling me, to respond accordingly, and to truly grow with you. | | |
| Day 2 of the running probably didnt do as well as day one, but the important thing is I did day 2. just gotta keep pushing!it feels good to have done some exercise. And now for moment that made me happy..I talked to the Griggs gang last night, which is always a blessing. They are like a second family. I miss them so much. Sam , Steph, Zach and mama griggs rock! Thats all for now...gotta shower after the run! | | |
| AmazingI have to admit that I have been pretty depressed lately. I've been feeling unplugged. The problem was, I truly was unplugged. I wasnt relying on God. Last night I had an amazing face to face experience with hm. He is so good! Now if i can just learn to go to him in times when things arent down, but to trust him fully. After all God is good all the time, and all the time God is good! | | |
| New Year...wow it has been 18 months since i last posted a blog on Xanga. Ive been using another site, but its nice to come here. no one really knows me here anymore and since i dont plan on many if any reading it i can be more open right? its just a release for me. I am so frustrated. everytime i start to like a girl something in me changes and my emotions get the better of me. I start reading situations completely different then i should be reading them. Its getting frustrating. Ive really got keep using my head and not my emotions and stay chill.... alright im out | | |
| WOW I really have not been on here in a long time. like 6 weeks. Crazy. SO im working teaching kids in recreational classes , and oh what fun it is...not. Snd teaching a drama class to teenagers, which, actually is very fun. ANd still working at Target on weekends. starting to get a little dough in my bank roll. Family redid the flooring on our living room, so the house is a mess and my computer is disconnected. so i am using the parents lap top for a few days. Well not much else goin on. If you ever stumble across this, say hey or leave some props. Im out
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