Currently Listening Half Breed By Cher see related

Andrew:  William, Im getting fatter and fatter.

William:  Me too!

Andrew:  At least you play volleyball, I dont do anything physical anymore.  Walking to the car is an extreme sport nowadays.  :(

Currently Listening Inside Your Heaven / Independence Day By Carrie Underwood see related

Wow...two updates in the same month...you can tell how bored I am at work...argg.....So hows about an update:

ASUH: Made the front page of the Ka Leo today.  Its a rubbish article that has all its facts backwards...I have been getting crap about this for the past month or so.  YES,I worked on a proposal that banned alcohol from Noelani.  WHY?Because people living in Noelani are ALL under the age of 21and shouldnt be DRINKING anyway.  Just because CERTAIN influencial people got busted for underage drinking, now its an issue.  Is this FAIR?  I know shayna would agree with me when I say NO.  So much for truth and honesty anymore. :P

Love Life: Its....okay....its getting better slowly.  I mean SLOW.  I think Ill survive.  There was a time a week ago or so that i didnt think i WOULD.

Parents:  Okay, so they KNOW...my dad is STILL not TALKING to me.  Like i CARE.  My mom is now TRYING to HARD.  I give up on them :P...

oTher than ThAt...thE saMe oLD crAp...

I know that with everything going on there are much BIGGER issues in this world and I feel kind of stupid for complaining....hmm.....we shall see....

Wow, so, its been many months since I last updated.  Not that anyone still reads my xanga...lol...I think that is part of the reason why I am writing in it.  In the age of myspace, no one actually still reads and updates xangas....do they?  doesnt matter.  Im writting for the pure sake of writting. 

This is my senior year of college.  I am supposed to graduate soon.  I am the student body Vice President of a school that contains over 13,000 students.  I have an off campus apartment with my old roommmate that I love to death...am I happy?  NOPE.

I have two new friends that are absolutely fabulous.  I know that they would do anything for me, and i apreciate them so much.  Am I happy? 

NOPE.

Why is this?  Why is it that when it seems like I have so many things going for me....i seems to be in the worst slump of my life?  I am contiplating dropping out of my senior year of college.  I hate school.  I have absolutely NO motivation to get out of bed in the morning and go to class.  I have turned into a complete flake, shrugging off all responsibilities in a moments notice.  I hate myself right now.  My best friend from high school is getting married this weekend, and I dont even want to see her, let alone talk to her. 

Why is this?  I am on the verge of losing the most important person in my life.  I never ever would have thought that this one person could play such a HUGE role or have such a LARGE impact on my life.   Nothing really matters anymore.  It doesnt matter how I feel, or what I want, it doesnt seems to make a difference.  This damn song keeps playing over and over.... 

What am i to do with my life?  I have no control over anything, but I cant just sit by and do nothing.  I have to try my hardest.  I have to.  With no one to talk to, no one that understands the full situation, I dont know what will happen.  All I know is that...this sucks.  I know that sounds really intellegent, but I have no other way of expressing this.  sigh...

Ladies and Gentlemen of Xanga land....Im back...at least for now..hehe...sigh...i wish it could be on a better note but...oh well....

i give up.  Ive determined that nothing ever works out the way you want it to.  The way its SUPPOSED to.  People are....idk....I've always hated making decisions.  You always forced me to.  I told you that i make bad decisions.  You always forced me to.  i dont know anything anymore...oh well...story of my life.