goddd my life changes so much. i'm glad i update like once a month so when people read this they are like WHOAAA WHAT THE HELL.

i live in california. things just.. didnt work out in arizona. i realize my last post i made it sound like i was all set for the next year and i loved it. at that point, i was happy and i did see it being a longer situation. it quickly turned into a situation where getting through the day got harder and harder and it was just tearing me apart. i hated being around horses and i was just worn out. i was working seventy hours a week with one day off. i got myself into that situation, so i got myself out.

i'm living with my aunt in huntington beach. i work at starbucks in target. i plan on moving into my own apartment in a month or so, and starting classes at orange coast community college in the fall.

so where does that leave Harley? this is something i never ever thought i would have to think about, and definitely never saw it becoming a reality.. but i am 99% sure i am going to send him back to green bay and sell him. we spent days and days out here looking at barns, right here in huntington beach and in cities up to an hour away. i either pay $600 for a 12x24 pipe corral at the equestrian center here, or i pay $200 for a crap hole "pasture" an hour away. either way, harley will not be happy and i just cant do that to him. he loves being in a herd out in pasture and i know he would be just miserable in a tiny stall with 15 minute "turn out" in a small dirt paddock every day. also, i could never afford it. i want to live on my own and be "well off" (at least for someone my age) and it will just never be possible with a horse by my side. it's time i start doing something for me.. and in turn, this is doing something for harley too. between working and then school, he'll become an inconvenience and he deserves to be someones top priority. i have an amazing opportunity with someone in green bay that is interested in him and will take him on trial until i come home in june, and if she doesnt think its a good fit, she will board him for free for me until i can sell him. it just wont get better than that. it's hard to imagine my life without harley but i really feel, deep down, that this is the best thing for both of us. i'll have a final decision by early this next week..

amanda is moving out here in less than two months. i'm really excited for her.. i think it's safe to say she's gotten the raw end of the deal throughout the last four years and god i hope this works out for her. this has been her dream and i really want to see her succeed out here. i can tell that she is just made for this place. and do i even have to say how cool its going to be having her so close again? much less in a place like southern california? it goes without saying that it's going to be amaaazing. so i hope she can get out here and find a good job and just have fun for a while.

i went to the beach today. i hear its snowing in green bay... ;]]

anyways, so thats a taste of what i've been up to lately.. hope everyone else is doing good!

<33 taylor