Currently Playing Lest We Forget: The Best of By Marilyn Manson see related

Well I haven't written in here for a long time. Hmmm lemme just explain everything that has went on lately that I never mentioned. Me and Jerrod (my older ex) are back together and this Friday will be a month. I've been going to my new school for awhile now and I actually like the place. The people are nicer there and they are more accepting. .But probably the greatest thing for me right now is to actually have a best friend again who is alot like me and is someone I really can get along with. And that person is Kelly  LYLAS!! LoL

Kelly and Emily aren't friends anymore now and to be honest myself, I'm not her friend anymore either. She just turned into a really jealous, obsessive, bitchy and moody person. Me and Kelly couldn't handle it all so we both just gave up on her. It feels good to be away from all the shit though. But yeah.. anyway

Bye

Well I haven't posted here in a while now..I guess I'll just say what went on so far. Tonight {or should I say last night in since it's the morning now} Ian broke up with me. It's for the better though I guess. I'm just a bit pissed off that he'd take blunts over me. That and me and Katie are no longer friends. I heard she was talking shit behind my back but I dont know if that's true or not. She sure changed, that's all I know. Her and Ian should hook up. They're like the same,Lmao. They both NEGLECT people

Anyway bye

Love Mandi

You know what?. . . Life fucking sucks sometimes. Not only do I have do go to a whole new school full of people I don't even know, but I am also growing apart from my friends who I used to be so close with and that I'd see almost everyday. . . Life just keeps on sucking for me by the minute. I feel like nobody fucking cares anymore and that I'm just a useless piece of shit made to be left in the dark. . . My life just seems to be like a pattern. First, I lose contact from close friends that I've known since 1st grade. Then I go to Heritage, meet all these new people and become close with them while leaving my old friends behind. and Now, I'm leaving once again and my close friends that I am with now are slipping away from me before my fucking eyes. . .And people wonder why I'm so antisocial. Not only do I cry easily over damn things, but I also have to take fucking "Happy pills" and pills for anxiety attacks that I tend to have FROM PEOPLE. . . Seems like the happy pills aren't going to help any longer now because I obviously feel like shit. . Life is just tooo fucking good to be true isn't it. .

Love Mandi

mm k I'm back. I talked with my ex, Jerrod over the phone last night and he said that Ian is supposely sick. So now I know why I haven't talked with him I guess..LOL

I still haven't talked with Katie though. She's been gone for god knows how long. Or atleast it seems like a hell of a long time to me.

I went to the movies with my mom today and we seen the movie "darkness." It actually kinda sucked...it wasn't that scary at all or anything. It was confusing if anything.

Currently Playing Love, Angel, Music, Baby By Gwen Stefani see related

Well once again I didn't write here for a while..Lately I've been just feeling apart from so many people. I feel like I'm on my own or something. Katie's been so busy with Cheerleading lately and it seems like she has no time for me now..fuck that cheerleading stuff...Barely anyone has talked with me atleast over the phone now except my old friends who actually have time for me.. and then there's Ian..Haven't talked with him in a week and three days now. Every freakin time I tried calling his cellphone, there's always no answer. So I just left a message yesterday and I've given up on trying to contact him now. I'm going to wait until I hear from HIS ass, not mine. . I'm so tired of so many things now. It seems like the only reliable friend I have to be there for me and listen to me, is my online buddy Vik. Even if he's from a different country and I've never met him in person, he's still like my best friend somewhat. It's hard to explain but he's just a great person in my life. heh..I talk with him more than I do with my own boyfriend. .

Anyway, I am going to quit my bitching right now. I need to be cheered up again.

Hmm well lets see..For Xmas I got GC's LIVE DVD and Hil's learning to fly DVD. both are sweet too  My Grandpa spent the night then also so it was nice to see him again. . Oh and I now have an Anti-Avril Forum so that makes me happy,LOL

::thinks to self:: "Avril...Burn in hell.." hehe

Anyway, I'm gonna go now. Bye.

Love Mandi